Recent content by idontwannabeaschizo

Thats what I'm hoping all this will lead to, an evolution, putting the final pieces in growing up. Even I know I overthink, but sometimes its not easy to stop. Sometimes it feels like a Gatling gun or revolver, every time I fire off a rumination another barrel and rumination are chambered...

This rant (and I admit, I've posted among similar lines before, I apologies) isn't so much about a definitive event as it is a general picture of my life today and my past, and how it fits with my future. Standard fare from many I know, but I fear I lack proper objectivity with it. Thusly, I...

Thank you Liviola, that means alot to me. Hell, might as well thank everyone whos replied so far. This thread has helped me rally better than if I had kept quiet. I crashed and burned once before, trying out UBCO right out of high school with so many romanticisms and naivety I crashed and...

I admit, I do feel rather swamped, and it can indeed seem like I am awfully alone. Its hard not to see everyone else in my classes struggling as hard as I am. Is it really supposed to be like this? Can I make it? I don't feel so good about myself and my abilities, and every time I rally...

Because I know I can do the work, its opening the program, or putting pen to paper thats the hardest. Another reason public school was alot less stressful was that I had a clear separation of school and home life. For the most part I did work at school and leisure at home, it was clear-cut...

I know that of course getting my work done for me is out of the question, but a cheerleading squad would be nice. Or just people actively asking and encouraging me about my schoolwork. I'd love it if I could get someone to sit with me at the starbucks where I study or anywhere really and at...

I'm a first year (second semester) student in college in British Columbia, Canada. And as the title suggests, I'm currently struggling. Not so much that its hopeless, but there are times it sure feels like it is. How to learn how to learn? While I worried about grades in public school, it...

Jacob Hargreave from Crysis 2, something about him I deeply respected, even resonated with in myself.

The Second Renaissance. The Collapse and the creation of Chung Kuo. Those two are disturbing (for me) for the sheer failure of humanity in creating the apocalypse, and the hopeless resistance afforded against the aggressors, the machines in SR, and the Chinese in Chung Kuo. But as bad...

"What am I, psychic?! I mean, yes."

My thoughts exactly good sir.

The posting codex was helpful once I stopped trying to figure it out myself. Apologies

The opening from Frontlines still makes me shiver, especially after reading the book he gets the "Long Emergency" inspiration from. [youtube=oZrBuDjPncQ

Iian M. Banks Ian Douglas Harry Turtledove

Hmmmmm, alot of interesting stuff, and its fecal-slinging counterpart as well. From reading all 5ish pages all I can really do is contribute my own opinion rather than reply to another's. So for starters, if its selfish to not have kids, is it selfish to have them too? *shrugs* Sorry I...