1 Month for my Life to Crumble Down

[TitanAtlas]

I... i don't even know how this happened... it took one month... for everything to break apart.

I have been here couple times... rambling about my family and the stuff i had to endure. I heard the advices of you people... i had my life going organised... But it only took one month to loose everything...

Let me explain. Since January i have been training to join Law enforcement. I have been in the gym, met a girl, had everything planned, passed the 1st phase to become a cop... But this month...

I was driving my car on the highway... old car, didn't went well with the rain. I crashed and now i have no means of transportations. My girl for some reason is now avoiding me, doesn't matter what i do, and i don't even know what i did. My parents are in a ruff divorce, in the worst possible ways possible. My father, a cop can only talk to me of how life would be much better if he just suicided (i have to deep-talk with him about this stupdi idea). My dog... is in his last years and my parents are talking about putting him down. And after so much work i had put in becoming a cop, all these situations affected me and i have been denied to continue my career has a cop.

Everything... in one... single month. I try to get a job, but i was never able to it, tried to organise my life, everything crumbled, try to be happy, but nothing in my situation allows me.

Now i have no girl, no money, no career, no family, no car and almost no dog (the creature i have been taking care since it was a puppy).

I have... nothing. If i died today or tomorrow it would be the same has i possess no impact in the world. In this society i am nothing, just a goddam stain. What rages me is that i try so hard to make everything come true, to keep everyone togheter, to keep everything organised... i have been in this for so long and i am so tired.

Don't worry... not going to do anything stupid... i hope... just wanted to get things off mu chest. I know i can't quit... My life is constructed by a bad family and far too many childhood heroes. I can't quit cuz they wouldn't quit. When Link has that last heart he never quits... When batman is facing all odds he never quits... when gordon freeman is facing entire armies, he ONE man never quits... i know i'm getting off rails, but i need to have some humour in this... it's the only thing i have... and right now not even that is worth jack...

I know i have to keep searching for ways to rebuild what i lost. To organise my family. I know my life is crumbled into a pulp, and that i am at my weakest. One Month... everything i had... gone... just gone.

They say writting and talking to others is the best medicine... i sure hope so.

!!!!EDIT:

Thanks for your and everyone support. With all this good support is making me too stubborn to quit so easily. Everything went sount within a single month...

Don't worry people... i'll... fix someway to work things out... i have too. Not going to quit so easily.

The car... well now it's in the junkyard. At least i made it out from the crash with just bruises...

The girl i met her since february. She doesn't talk to me, doesn't matter... can't really have the moment to think or care about that.

Family breaking... well this family has been broke all it's life so now it's official.

My dog... been taking care of him since he was a pup... gonna take care of him till he drops. (he already has a bone problem in the front legs that prevent him to walk).

And my career. Re-think everything, start training again, clear the head for a while (again thank you for all the support guys!!), and retry... always wanted to be a goddam cop... and i'm not going to quit this easily.

 

[bobmus]

No-one's lost yet, as much as you're thinking of it that way. From what you've said, you still have a girlfriend and your parents are both still around. Heck even your dog's around for now, no matter how old.
Spend the time you have with them now, or you might end up regretting it.

 

[TitanAtlas]

Take it one step at a time.

Your parents are still alive.

There are plenty more fish in the sea.

Your dog doing to die sucks but it's nothing life changing.

The car is a serious problem (use the bus from now on) but the job can be solved with patience and persistence.

Chin up now. I know this doesn't help at all but I'm just trying to put things in perspective.

Yeah i know and appreciate it... but... try to put yourself in my shoes. I lost everything... in one... single... month... everything at the same time. This is the worst month and the worst period of my life so far...

 

[bobmus]

YOU CAN DO THIS BRO.

You're a complex man to pin down, Mr 94. Giving advice here, but then your general attitude elsewhere...
Hmmm, a multi-faceted person indeed, maybe even nicer than you think you are.

 

[Matthew Kjonaas]

You seem like a really nice person so I hope you succeed at your goals. Also your taking a good step by reaching out for help to people that either know and like you or want to help you even if you do not know them. If you need to talk I am here most of the time and so are most of the other people that responded will more than likely be happy talk it out with you.
(that is my real name so if you feel really bad just look me up on facebook or don't it is your choice.)

 

[VoidWanderer]

Take it one step at a time.

Your parents are still alive.

There are plenty more fish in the sea.

Your dog doing to die sucks but it's nothing life changing.

The car is a serious problem (use the bus from now on) but the job can be solved with patience and persistence.

Chin up now. I know this doesn't help at all but I'm just trying to put things in perspective.

Yeah i know and appreciate it... but... try to put yourself in my shoes. I lost everything... in one... single... month... everything at the same time. This is the worst month and the worst period of my life so far...

You can view this is either a valley you are stuck in, or you can start climbing and realise you are in a mountain range, not the Grand Canyon

 

[Mortons4ck]

I believe this speech is relevant to you're situation:

Spoiler: Cave Johnson on Life's Lemons

A few of us have been in similar situations. No direction to move but forward.

 

[White Lightning]

You have alot more going for you than you think so instead of crying why not drink a tall glass of man the fuck up and get over it.

Losing the car sucks, I'll give you that one. However keep in mind alot of people don't have cars and are doing just fine. Ask a friend for help or use the bus.

Parents are going through a divorce? Atleast you have some.

Getting a job can be rough but if you just keep at it you'll find something. Just don't be too picky.

About the dog... well it's a dog calm down.

Losing your girlfriend? Tough cookies that happens to people everyday, and besides there are alot of girls out there. Try to patch things up if you can but seriously that isn't a big deal.

 

[Aeonknight]

If you can't handle what your going through now, how the hell do you think you'll cope as a Cop?

No offence, but these issues aren't all that life crushing, infact you sound like a 16 year old teen in half of your post. Pull your head in and do something about all of the shit. Talking about it on an internet forum is going to help much. Going out there and changing it for yourself will.

Probably the best advice I've seen posted so far. My hat is off to you.

 

[Astoria]

One thing at a time dude. First sort out the girlfriend thing. Make her tell you what's going on and if it ends at least you'll know where you stand. Can I ask why you can't continue your cop training? If it's something you can change then work on that next. If not, for now apply for any job you can get so you'll still be earning while you work out what you want to do with your life. Unfortunately there's not much you can do about your parents divorse and your dog being old. Just be there for your parents as much as you can, they might go a bit crazy if it's getting ugly and you might need to bring them back to being civil about it. And just enjoy the time you have left with your dog and maybe think about getting a new one to help ease the pain when he does die. Losing him probably feels even worse given what else is going on too. Just keep your head up as much as possible. If it just gets too much give yourself some time to back away from everything completly and go on a holiday for a weekend with some friends or something. Hope things work out better soon, they will eventually even if it doesn't feel like it.

 

[WaReloaded]

OT: Life gets tough sometimes, you just have to "roll with the punches" as they say and persevere. I've been through hell these last 6 months but I have no intention of giving up, nor will I. I'm certain that you, too, can find it in yourself to not give up, by exploring new opportunities and keeping a positive, mental attitude. Life's a *****, but you can make it YOUR *****, just keep that in mind.

 

[John Hagg]

None of that happening to you would prevent you from entering into Law Enforcement. Police Officers are human the same as every one else.. all with our share of problems.

If it's the academy or a department you couldn't get onto.. give it some time and try again. Good luck!

 

[Charli]

If you can't handle what your going through now, how the hell do you think you'll cope as a Cop?

No offence, but these issues aren't all that life crushing, infact you sound like a 16 year old teen in half of your post. Pull your head in and do something about all of the shit. Talking about it on an internet forum is going to help much. Going out there and changing it for yourself will.

This. I've handled exactly what you're going through with some added bonuses and come out a more interesting but wider viewed person because of it. Just keep pushing on. Hold your head up, and live, there are no guarantees in life and that's the only thing you can be certain of.

 

[TitanAtlas]

Thanks for the Support and perspectives... better then the zero support i have been receiving with the rest of my own family, and friends...

Don't worry escapists.... i'll find a way to turn the tables the other way around.. what affected me is everything happening at the very same time... in one month.

But i'm too stubborn to quit like this. Thank you escapists. I loved the support