happy bday

[GameSlave15]

warning ahead of time bawww thread so ignore accordingly. if your a mod please have mercy. anyway september 2 was my 21st bday. not important for most of the world but as an american this was a huge deal. i bought all the alcohol to have fun. after getting smashed i find out that one of my roomates took e on my bday when im the most anti drug person youve ever met. this pissed me off because this was supposed to be my day and she made it about her by being a total fuc@ing retard. so i tried to shake it off. then i got hit with the bombshell that my other roomate (i live with three girls and am a straight guy)got dumped by her bf of three years. this of course made me think of how last year my gf of three years broke up with me on our aniversery right before i proposed. she was with another guy within three days and did more with him sexually than i had begged her to do with me. right now im hammered and hate everything. im tired of feeling sad im tired of not being over her. my mother who infact loves me quite much didnt even call me, nor my best friend. im tired of one of the most important dates in my life was ruined. im tired. idk what i could do. any support would be cool if you just want to tell me to man up or kill my self then go back to /b/. ive been with the esacpist for about 9 months now and you all have seemed very tolerent and patient and hoped you would give idk someting. im tired of being told to fix me when ive done everything possible. ive seeked proffesional help. ive seeked help from friends. ive tried bottleing it up. ive tried cahnging me. ive tried being true to i am. i have honestly run out ideas. i was just hoping mayhbe finaly someone would give me something new to try to find peace. agiain hammered and stupid. sorry escapists if this is dumb just ignore it.

 

[AnOriginalConcept]

Sorry man, that sounds tough.

My recommendation is to get a good nights sleep and then get some vigorous exercise. Alcohol will probably make it worse. See some of your other friends and you'll get over it faster.

Hope things look up.

 

[koops]

Happy birthday man, we share it. Wait untill you're sober to deal with this stuff, I personally have made sme terrible choices while wasted. Drink a bucket of water and go to bed, it will do you good. Talk to us again in the morning man.

 

[Infinatex]

Happy Birthday! Reality is that people suck. I've been to a point where I was very much like how you sound now. What you need to do from here on out is whatever pleases you. 21 seems a good landmark to do this at too. Move somewhere new, get a new job just start doing something completely different - something you've always wanted to do. Something like this can shift your perception and things will look better from a different angle.

 

[GameSlave15]

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Happy Birthday! Reality is that people suck. I've been to a point where I was very much like how you sound now. What you need to do from here on out is whatever pleases you. 21 seems a good landmark to do this at too. Move somewhere new, get a new job just start doing something completely different - something you've always wanted to do. Something like this can shift your perception and things will look better from a different angle.

well the issue is ive always wanted to be a dr of pharmacy. on the side i wanted to be a game designer but that like going to holiwood to be an actor, realisticly its not the safe choice. but turns out my school is pro adversity and is a chief foreign student admitter. i mean i pro non racism but it sucks that most of the people in the program are going back to their home country once they graduate. but where im at right now doesnt allow me to just up and move ( take your choice money issues, grade issues, etc.) so i dont even know what to do with school i havent been motivated to do anything in a long time. i wnated a stable career to support a family but without her it seems pointless. ik that logicly its retarded but emotionaly i cant get over the fact that i miss her.