my last resort

[Abseith]

yea i think the title is kinda self explanatory but ill give a bit of detail

im 18 and i should be the father of a 3 week old son right now but i lost my child to hydrocephalus (which is a build up of fluid causing the brain not to form for anyone wondering) now this was with a girl i claimed to love but she got pregnant by throwing away the pill without telling me which has destroyed me in ways i cant even explain

i was never exactly a happy person but now im suicidal to say the least i have 3 people stopping me my 2 best friends and the girl who stands by me through everything but now ive fucked things up with that girl because monday night with a drink in us we went further than friends in a way i hoped never to go

so to all the people here who read this and have gone through any kind of suicidal phase and has survived it please i need help or i wont survive this much longer how did you do it

 

[Emurlahn]

Therapy.

Really, that's your only safe bet.

What you need is someone to talk to, and someone who can help you understand.
And friends are really bad at this, cause they are not trained to cope with others problems, specially not problems that belong to their friends.

So, find a therapist.

 

[Zoe Castillo]

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[Abseith]

thanks guys i went to a doctor today cos therapy here i need to be reffered and theyve said they will make a decision in the next week but also not to get my hopes up ill get it so ill just have to wait and see i suppose

 

[xXGeckoXx]

thanks guys i went to a doctor today cos therapy here i need to be reffered and theyve said they will make a decision in the next week but also not to get my hopes up ill get it so ill just have to wait and see i suppose

Good to know you are seeking help. I hope that they can provide it for you.