The first.
Despite being a absolutely f*cking crazy, I believe I am a good person. I have rarely done anyone ill, and occasionally prevented it. I see myself excellent at judging peoples current state and what makes them uncomfortable and try to avoid it.
But alas, beneath the exterior I am pretty messed up. That is, mentally. On occasions my thoughts scare me (but just a little). However, it's mostly just weird as in banana-on-top-of-a-painting-in-a-micro-oven weird. It's not like I have frequent sinister plans laid out in my head or something...
Interesting thread, though, props.