The reason I'm writing this is because I have been talking about this with my friend and I really need to get it off my chest. Before I start this though, I would like to make clear that I am in NO WAY anti-religious. I would also like to note that I have just turned 15 and I have not planned this post, I'm just going to write from the heart, which is why I'm going to have horrible grammar (and I do apologize) and why this is going to be totally unstructured.
I have been depressed for a long time, mostly because I don't like school and I never really "fit in". I always pondered life, which made me more depressed thinking that there is no meaning to life. I see life as a congregation of the damned (love that song by the way) and I think the writer of that song explained it perfectly:
"It kind of feels like in a lot of ways that we, as members of a society, are just gathering around and collectively getting fucked over. When you look at what's going on in our economy and how other people treat each other, it's kind of like we're all just lemmings. We're lined up blankly staring blindly at nothing and just going along with the flow like a congregation of the damned" - Alex Varkatzas
And this got me thinking a lot. Most people spend their life just waltzing through life, having a family and making some fucker richer while they struggle with bills and work. That made me even more depressed. I'm scared that's what my life will be. That's what society tell us to live. Whats the point in life, then? If that's all we do. We play video games, watch TV and listen to music to escape life. While that's something we pretty much all know and accept, its only a temporary escape (again, obvious) but eventually we face life. This is whats happened to me. Sure, we may ask ourselves "What is the meaning of life" but no one really gives an answer, and most of us turn to religion.
I see too many flaws in modern religion. It worked in older centuries, but religion hasn't conformed much into the 21st century. religion can be a beautiful thing, but I see it as restricting freedom. Sorry if this is becoming offensive to a religious person, but just let me explain. In MY OPINION, there are two types of religions; a moral one that teaches us how to live and a religion that tries to explain the universe. The problem with the latter is science has come up with hundreds of theories that makes sense. The first one is what all religion's SHOULD BE and while most religions are like that, they haven't conformed to 21st century. I'm starting to get off topic, but one of the main flaws I see in religion is how they see sex before marriage and masturbation is sin (At least that's what they tell us out our school, seriously). Anyways, most, nearly all religious people see sex as "temptation". This doesn't make sense to me, if it's temptation then whats it got to prove? I know that argument has probably been used before, but I just thought of it myself. Why is something so pleasurable a sin? I know sex itself isn't a sin, as it is a necessary step in reproduction, but why is masturbation or sex before marriage a sin? Our bodies (or at least my body) wants it 24/7 , and if that's temptation then, well, fuck I failed it. And masturbation has a lot of benefits, and please, I am trying to be mature. My friend also made a good point; 'How is it possible to believe in 2 religions since both say do not worship in any other?. It's a sin for both religions'
OK, I have gone way off topic, but hey, I just love typing (hearing those clicks forming a pattern turns me on
)and voicing my opinion. Continuing my exploration for the meaning of life, I turn to my parents. I ask them "Why are we living, why is working many hours of the day just to come home for a few hours, sleep and repeat a life?" they're reply was "That's just life, their are highs and lows, but ultimately you will enjoy life". this didn't sell it either, doing that is not life, and how are their highs and lows if that's all we do? Society is too structured now days, why is their a proper way to live? We are conformed to fit in a society.
This made me realize the best part of our life is in our teenager years. Being a teenager is the closest we will be to freedom. We rebel and that is what is expected of us. We have room to experiment, make mistakes, fuck up and it doesn't generally ruin our life (not all the time, at least). But the problem with being a teenager is we are easily influenced and manipulated. A lot of people never see the beauty in life. Sure you can say the best part of life is life because its a magical thing blah blah blah too mushy and boring for me. I don't think that's the meaning of life. To be honest, their is no meaning of life. We are just a mistake, our planet was lucky enough to have the right temperature, atmosphere etc for bacteria to thrive (and out of the billions of planets, its BOUND to happen). The meaning of our life, our existence is the same as every other animal. To survive. To reproduce. So back to my original point, the beauty of life is what you make of it. We are just a sub-total of decisions we make from when we where born and that is the beauty of life!!
If you read the whole thing, congratulations and I hope you have got something out of it. While this post may seem pointless, I want to see your opinions. Writing about this had made me feel better and I see life differently now, and I will enjoy it more. This article is riddled with mistakes, errors or maybe even contradictions, but I wrote this at the heat of the moment and straight from the heart. So yeah, DISCUSS!. I'd also like to give credit to my friend who is also 15 and a gamer, who has been polite and reading all of my conversation. props to him, plus he helped come up with some of points. He wanted me to use his name, so the nice gentleman who put up with my rant is Jayce.
(1,110 words... Would this make a good essay?)
I have been depressed for a long time, mostly because I don't like school and I never really "fit in". I always pondered life, which made me more depressed thinking that there is no meaning to life. I see life as a congregation of the damned (love that song by the way) and I think the writer of that song explained it perfectly:
"It kind of feels like in a lot of ways that we, as members of a society, are just gathering around and collectively getting fucked over. When you look at what's going on in our economy and how other people treat each other, it's kind of like we're all just lemmings. We're lined up blankly staring blindly at nothing and just going along with the flow like a congregation of the damned" - Alex Varkatzas
And this got me thinking a lot. Most people spend their life just waltzing through life, having a family and making some fucker richer while they struggle with bills and work. That made me even more depressed. I'm scared that's what my life will be. That's what society tell us to live. Whats the point in life, then? If that's all we do. We play video games, watch TV and listen to music to escape life. While that's something we pretty much all know and accept, its only a temporary escape (again, obvious) but eventually we face life. This is whats happened to me. Sure, we may ask ourselves "What is the meaning of life" but no one really gives an answer, and most of us turn to religion.
I see too many flaws in modern religion. It worked in older centuries, but religion hasn't conformed much into the 21st century. religion can be a beautiful thing, but I see it as restricting freedom. Sorry if this is becoming offensive to a religious person, but just let me explain. In MY OPINION, there are two types of religions; a moral one that teaches us how to live and a religion that tries to explain the universe. The problem with the latter is science has come up with hundreds of theories that makes sense. The first one is what all religion's SHOULD BE and while most religions are like that, they haven't conformed to 21st century. I'm starting to get off topic, but one of the main flaws I see in religion is how they see sex before marriage and masturbation is sin (At least that's what they tell us out our school, seriously). Anyways, most, nearly all religious people see sex as "temptation". This doesn't make sense to me, if it's temptation then whats it got to prove? I know that argument has probably been used before, but I just thought of it myself. Why is something so pleasurable a sin? I know sex itself isn't a sin, as it is a necessary step in reproduction, but why is masturbation or sex before marriage a sin? Our bodies (or at least my body) wants it 24/7 , and if that's temptation then, well, fuck I failed it. And masturbation has a lot of benefits, and please, I am trying to be mature. My friend also made a good point; 'How is it possible to believe in 2 religions since both say do not worship in any other?. It's a sin for both religions'
OK, I have gone way off topic, but hey, I just love typing (hearing those clicks forming a pattern turns me on
)and voicing my opinion. Continuing my exploration for the meaning of life, I turn to my parents. I ask them "Why are we living, why is working many hours of the day just to come home for a few hours, sleep and repeat a life?" they're reply was "That's just life, their are highs and lows, but ultimately you will enjoy life". this didn't sell it either, doing that is not life, and how are their highs and lows if that's all we do? Society is too structured now days, why is their a proper way to live? We are conformed to fit in a society.This made me realize the best part of our life is in our teenager years. Being a teenager is the closest we will be to freedom. We rebel and that is what is expected of us. We have room to experiment, make mistakes, fuck up and it doesn't generally ruin our life (not all the time, at least). But the problem with being a teenager is we are easily influenced and manipulated. A lot of people never see the beauty in life. Sure you can say the best part of life is life because its a magical thing blah blah blah too mushy and boring for me. I don't think that's the meaning of life. To be honest, their is no meaning of life. We are just a mistake, our planet was lucky enough to have the right temperature, atmosphere etc for bacteria to thrive (and out of the billions of planets, its BOUND to happen). The meaning of our life, our existence is the same as every other animal. To survive. To reproduce. So back to my original point, the beauty of life is what you make of it. We are just a sub-total of decisions we make from when we where born and that is the beauty of life!!
If you read the whole thing, congratulations and I hope you have got something out of it. While this post may seem pointless, I want to see your opinions. Writing about this had made me feel better and I see life differently now, and I will enjoy it more. This article is riddled with mistakes, errors or maybe even contradictions, but I wrote this at the heat of the moment and straight from the heart. So yeah, DISCUSS!. I'd also like to give credit to my friend who is also 15 and a gamer, who has been polite and reading all of my conversation. props to him, plus he helped come up with some of points. He wanted me to use his name, so the nice gentleman who put up with my rant is Jayce.
(1,110 words... Would this make a good essay?
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