A panic attack from a youtuber.

[Leoofmoon]

But recently Iv been thinking about being a game reviewer/artist and I had a mini panic attack because for one I often over think and phyc myself out by just thinking too much about it, also because I'm worried Ill just be like someone else on youtube or will get laughed off because I mainly want to do Lore gaming for MMO's like when FFXIV is fixed in 2013 and do some FPS on both console's and PC. I wanted to be a reviewer so some people could come to me and ask "Is this game any good and is the story great?" but FUCK ME there's a shit tone of them on youtube and I see horrible ones that have over 50,000 reviews and really good ones that only have like 500.

I also want to be a great artist but my current work keeps be busy for days on end and I have one day off a week(soon I'll be going 7 days without a break thank you holidays.) and I'm one of those artist that think everything I make is complete shit! AHHG I'm still currently building money for a new PC and equipment to record from my Xbox and PS 2 and 3 but I'm pretty much going nuts over thinking about, what to post, what to say during video's, how do I rate them, what will my channel name be, what will the title cards look like, will I have contest for the fans and AHHHG!

Just posting this I checked over how this would read 3 times!

 

[Giftfromme]

lol what's happening here? Please explain it to me brother, I wish to be enlightened

 

[Fappy]

I don't know what I just read, but there needs to be a youtube series based on it. That much I know.

 

[Spambot 3000]

Why yes, agfraogomononk and other moonspeak to you too good sir.

 

[username sucks]

Just posting this I checked over how this would read 3 times!

Really? No offence, but if you want to make proffesional reveiws, you should probably invest in improving your grammar and puntuation.

I'm one of those artist that think everything I make is complete shit!

Self doubt is not neccesarily bad, but don't let it stop you. So just do your best, and show it to people.Likewise, don't become so confident that you think you are above critisism. Use critisism. I cannot stress that enough, It allows you to know what needs improvement and in what way. Good luck.

 

[Leoofmoon]

Just posting this I checked over how this would read 3 times!

Really? No offence, but if you want to make proffesional reveiws, you should probably invest in improving your grammar and puntuation.

I'm one of those artist that think everything I make is complete shit!

Any good artist does, in music, painting, or film. If an artist thinks that he is good at what he does, that usually means he isn't. So just do your best, and show it to people. Also, use critisism. I cannot stress that enough. It allows you to know what needs improvement and in what way. Good luck.

I don't see how my post are hard to read, really I know I ramble in both talking and writing but I just don't see them as hard to read and most people I know have no problem reading my stuff. its only on Escapist that people have a hard time reading.

And I know that but I'm NEVER happy with it I'm a critic of my own work and I hate myself for it too.

 

[an annoyed writer]

Just posting this I checked over how this would read 3 times!

Really? No offence, but if you want to make proffesional reveiws, you should probably invest in improving your grammar and puntuation.

I'm one of those artist that think everything I make is complete shit!

Any good artist does, in music, painting, or film. If an artist thinks that he is good at what he does, that usually means he isn't. So just do your best, and show it to people. Also, use critisism. I cannot stress that enough. It allows you to know what needs improvement and in what way. Good luck.

I don't see how my post are hard to read, really I know I ramble in both talking and writing but I just don't see them as hard to read and most people I know have no problem reading my stuff. its only on Escapist that people have a hard time reading.

And I know that but I'm NEVER happy with it I'm a critic of my own work and I hate myself for it too.

Dude, your grammar is not very good. You began your first paragraph of your original post with the word "but". You realize that implies that some point came before that, right? Not to mention numerous spelling errors... forget being laughed off of youtube for being too generic, you'll receive the same treatment for having the writing ability of a six-year-old. If that's what a triple-check does for your sentences, do a sextette (or more) of checks instead.

Also, first thing's first: lose the "it's your problem, not mine" mentality, and quick. If you want to improve, listen to criticisms such as ours. If this is how you write on other forums, and other people can read your posts, they're either "being nice" or they have the same grammatical competence as you. So shape up, because trust me, it'll help no matter what you do be it video reviews or otherwise.

I used to write reviews of Machinima films a few years back. Various people regarded them as pointed and incisive, but very useful in improving their work. I'd get requests to review films from the creators themselves like some creative criticism hitman because my reviews were that helpful. I can provide the same service to you, provided you don't mind your work being cut apart like mincemeat, Zero Punctuation-style.

It might sound a bit harsh, but that's simply how I review things.

 

[Leoofmoon]

Just posting this I checked over how this would read 3 times!

Really? No offence, but if you want to make proffesional reveiws, you should probably invest in improving your grammar and puntuation.

I'm one of those artist that think everything I make is complete shit!

Any good artist does, in music, painting, or film. If an artist thinks that he is good at what he does, that usually means he isn't. So just do your best, and show it to people. Also, use critisism. I cannot stress that enough. It allows you to know what needs improvement and in what way. Good luck.

I don't see how my post are hard to read, really I know I ramble in both talking and writing but I just don't see them as hard to read and most people I know have no problem reading my stuff. its only on Escapist that people have a hard time reading.

And I know that but I'm NEVER happy with it I'm a critic of my own work and I hate myself for it too.

Dude, your grammar is not very good. You began your first paragraph of your original post with the word "but". You realize that implies that some point came before that, right? Not to mention numerous spelling errors... forget being laughed off of youtube for being too generic, you'll receive the same treatment for having the writing ability of a six-year-old. If that's what a triple-check does for your sentences, do a sextette (or more) of checks instead.

Also, first thing's first: lose the "it's your problem, not mine" mentality, and quick. If you want to improve, listen to criticisms such as ours. If this is how you write on other forums, and other people can read your posts, they're either "being nice" or they have the same grammatical competence as you. So shape up, because trust me, it'll help no matter what you do be it video reviews or otherwise.

I used to write reviews of Machinima films a few years back. Various people regarded them as pointed and incisive, but very useful in improving their work. I'd get requests to review films from the creators themselves like some creative criticism hitman because my reviews were that helpful. I can provide the same service to you, provided you don't mind your work being cut apart like mincemeat, Zero Punctuation-style.

It might sound a bit harsh, but that's simply how I review things.

I always head about the damn spelling errors WHERE!? I used spellcheck! I have the words right! if its a grammar thing yeah I can see that Fuck is dyslexic as hell and I don't mind people correcting me but yet its just that "haha you fail" end. I do agree I started this post badly but I did right then wile I was still thing of the hole panic youtube thing! I do agree sometimes what I type is hard to understand but that dos not pardon what people fucking do in response to this stuff, hell sometimes I feel like I'm on LOL or DOTA and I'm the new who don't not know how to play the game well and no one whats to tell the noob what to do!

 

[SJXarg]

Punctuation, please. The "I never pause or stop for anything because punctuation is for suckers" niche has been filled. It's quite hard to read what you're writing, because it just never stops, never pauses, never stops to take a breath. You write in the same way Yahtzee talks in his videos. Hopefully what I've just said here helps you out.

 

[Best of the 3]

What? I read that 3 times and I'm still confused.

So you you want to be a game reviewer and an artist? Or is it you see game reviewing as an art?
So you want to review game's lores? That's fine. That's like reviewing a story and that's already being done, albeit for other mediums such as film or books. Review what you want.
Also you're thinking way to far ahead with competitions. You don't even know if you'll get fans, and sorry to say this even if it's harsh, chances are you won't. The probability of anyone making it big on youtube is slim. So work on the basics first, like grammar, spelling and all that jazz before you worry about what you will do for fans.

 

[RhombusHatesYou]

And people say dadaism is dead.

 

[Headdrivehardscrew]

Hm, that's a bit of a tough one.

You seem to have a severe attention problem going, which is bound to make pretty much everything hard, or at least harder than it actually is (or should be).

But you also seem to be aware of it, to some extent. You know you're in full Ramblomatic 5000 mode. Now, that's just the part of language, messaging and communication you externalize. Unfurling the epic yarn in your head is probably the hardest, and I hope you got help for that.

The way I understood your message was that it contained two issues:

1. You intend to do game reviews on youtube, and you are worried about how people will respond. You do not have the required hardware yet to record your various console A/V outs, but you will get them (soon).

2. You are drawing/painting and you think it's all a bit crap, but you intend to become better at it

So... boiled down, I think it's important to get to something we can all agree with, and that would be this: No matter what you do, practice makes perfect. If you want to feel more secure and more certain about your drawing skills, there's really only drawing lots and drawing more that can help. Eventually, you'll need to show your art to someone to make sure it's not just in your eyes and your head that your art is crap or good. Drawing is one of the skills that really becomes second nature once the basics are set, and, much like driving a car, it eventually doesn't take up that much CPU time once the hand on the trigger, uhm, pen goes into at least semi auto. The only way to get there is practice. Oh, and it really all starts with lines and circles. I hope you got that, and you're not tracing. Tracing is the death of all art. Tracing does not allow you to understand.

I think pretty much the same goes for the Youtube project - you practice, you record, you edit your videos... dub over someone else's video or just use crap phone footage for practice. Work on your writing, work on your timing. Right now, I have very little to go on but you feel like a free radical, pure chaos, the son of random. You can't go into most projects without having at least a basic checklist of what you want to do, what specifics you want to cover. I'm a pretty emotional type of creature, and if I would't prepare, wouldn't have a plan going into (new) things, I can assure you I would panic. Knowing that, I tend to lose quite some time and sleep preparing, going over some things I know I suck major hairy donkey balls at a dozen times, until they almost become boring because I know everything by heart. If I wouldn't prepare, my speech or presentation could still do the trick, or it could sink like the Titanic did, with catastrophic outcomes clocking in at a probability of 50/50, which I consider to be too high when there's money, mortgages or careers involved. Even for a fun project, I really try to enjoy myself and have a good time, which I wouldn't be able to do if I was in constant fight-or-flight survival mode, prone to rip anyone's face off that dared to get too close to me.

I suggest you practice 'fake' reviewing your favourite games in, say, 5 minute clips, then reduce everything down to 3 minute clips. You can record yourself audio only for this first step, and try and edit that into shape. Once you feel you got the hang of it, or once you realize there's really little to edit because you can stick to the plan already, add the more complex layer of video.

You can't possibly do everything in one go. You can't just vomit up alphabet soup and expect people to understand you, and you can't learn to do something just in one sitting. Have patience with yourself, but set - realistic - goals for yourself. Good luck.

 

[Yopaz]

I always head about the damn spelling errors WHERE!? I used spellcheck! I have the words right! if its a grammar thing yeah I can see that Fuck is dyslexic as hell and I don't mind people correcting me but yet its just that "haha you fail" end. I do agree I started this post badly but I did right then wile I was still thing of the hole panic youtube thing! I do agree sometimes what I type is hard to understand but that dos not pardon what people fucking do in response to this stuff, hell sometimes I feel like I'm on LOL or DOTA and I'm the new who don't not know how to play the game well and no one whats to tell the noob what to do!

Well, look at this post. You head about spelling errors? Are you sure you didn't mean heard? You say hole when you mean whole, it's does not dos. Most of your sentences are also really jumbled together without any structure.

Now in your first post your major grammar error was that you started the sentence with but. Then you said Iv, IV means intravenous therapy, while I've is the one you want. I'm not sure what Ill means, but there you're also supposed to use I'll.

Honestly it seems like your entire post seems like someone trying to blurt out his current concerns in one breath. You are writing so you have the advantage to take breaths and take some time to organize your sentences. Try getting some more structure and use some punctuation.

 

[Rumpsteak]

Ok, ignoring most of the thread..

Just go for it if you want to do it. I'll be honest with you, chances are you'll live in obscurity with a relatively small number of subscribers. Most people that try this do. That's the worst that can happen though. Unless investing in the equipment is of major detriment to your financial stability then go for it.

 

[RubyT]

Dude, you need more structure to your thoughts. Not just here, but should you ever publish a review onto the world. Maybe you were trying to channel some Yahtzee, but make no mistake, he is not just blurting out his thoughts. Like the hairdo of guys in high-school t.v. shows, there is a whole lot of work behind making it look like a mess.

And yeah, your spelling is bad too. Especially watch for where you put apostrophes and where you don't.

 

[Full]

I agree with you, the reason I stopped trying to make actual videos on YouTube or anything on the internet in general is because everything has already been done. Whether they were better or worse then what I was going to make, I just don't feel like adding something that's already been done to the glutton of the internet entertainment industry.

 

[AldUK]

Just have to add my own voice to those trying to help you with your sentence structure, right now it's almost unreadable and if you want to do reviews then it is very important to be understood. Don't get defensive, people here are trying to help. My advice is slow down, read each line you write before moving to the next. Nobody is perfect, but I believe you can do better and so do a lot of others in this thread or they wouldn't even take the time to respond.

I first came online when I was 11 years old, I recently saw a forum post from my 12 year old self (I am now 25) and I couldn't make head or tails of it. Don't give up. Once you've improved your spelling and grammar, you can go ahead and review ALL the games ever made.

 

[EternalFacepalm]

And I know that but I'm NEVER happy with it I'm a critic of my own work and I hate myself for it too.

This is a prime example: commas. Rambling, sure, but at least stick to one topic and don't let a sentence run on. To let your writing flow better, it could've been written like this instead:

I know that, but I'm never happy with it! I'm a critic of my own work, and I hate myself for it too.

Personally, I understood little of what I can conclude is a rant more than anything, so I can't really help with the actual topic (whatever it is) itself. This is one sentence, and I have no idea what most of it means:

But recently Iv been thinking about being a game reviewer/artist and I had a mini panic attack because for one I often over think and phyc myself out by just thinking too much about it, also because I'm worried Ill just be like someone else on youtube or will get laughed off because I mainly want to do Lore gaming for MMO's like when FFXIV is fixed in 2013 and do some FPS on both console's and PC.

Full stops exist for a reason!

In essence, listen to criticism. Don't hide behind "my friends understand it." It's clear that the majority does not, and that is a problem that you'll have to do something about if you want to be a serious reviewer.

I don't claim to have perfect grammar myself, by the way, and I'm not saying you have to either, but at least try to structure your texts better and carefully read over them. Spell check will only get you so far, you have to put some work in too.