Long story short: I fucked up my friendship for a girl. I made up with the friend. I got the girl. I find out girl was unhappy and cheating. I wallow in my sorrows. I make friends with new boyfriend. I make friends with some girls who I don't love but who are attractive. I sleep with girls who I don't love but am attracted to. I make enemies with new boyfriend. Boyfriend tells girlfriend to stay away from me. I wait to hear what girlfriend has to say about being controlled by new boyfriend. I still love sexually attractive, lovable girl. I b stupid dickweed.
Edit[ed edit]: Okay, so the real thing I'm trying to convey here is that I want to know what other people think about my situation [the situation being that I still love a girl who cheated on me, everything else is just some added details that may influence your response], like whether or not this shit is normal or what. The general feeling is that I'm too old for this which I never really considered before. I just assumed it was because I was a smart kid and any girl I liked growing up I knew was just a girl who I liked. I knew I wasn't capable of love at that age. But now I am and this shit is happening among adults which considering your reactions, scares me a bit. If you want the beginning here's a thread I started a few months ago:
http://www.escapistmagazine.com/forums/read/538.291052-Is-she-worth-it
Any more questions?
Edit[ed edit]: Okay, so the real thing I'm trying to convey here is that I want to know what other people think about my situation [the situation being that I still love a girl who cheated on me, everything else is just some added details that may influence your response], like whether or not this shit is normal or what. The general feeling is that I'm too old for this which I never really considered before. I just assumed it was because I was a smart kid and any girl I liked growing up I knew was just a girl who I liked. I knew I wasn't capable of love at that age. But now I am and this shit is happening among adults which considering your reactions, scares me a bit. If you want the beginning here's a thread I started a few months ago:
http://www.escapistmagazine.com/forums/read/538.291052-Is-she-worth-it
Any more questions?
