Burntpopcarn said:
a few years back i was diagnosed with extremely mild asperger's disease. I'm not completely socially deficient, i've got lots of friends (yes, i'm talking about people i know, not people whom i only know via PSN and have never met in person), but still, i feel..depressed. like nobody really cares about me because i'm retarded. at least, that's what i bet everyone who doesn't know me well enough thinks. so tell me, people... do you think i'm in any way a freak? perhaps a retard? maybe a genetic offshot? or a mutation? keep in mind the disease is MILD, not BIG.
Asperger's is not a disease, it is a condition. I have Asperger's, no one noticed it until a year ago when I got severe pain condition and it came up during the pain psychological treatment.
Asperger people are not retarted, we are most of the time smarter than the average person.l Asperger's is not a mutation or a genetic mistake, it is a random occurance in which the neurological patterns in your brain have organized in a fashion that will give you a behavior pattern that is called Asperger's. It is no different from people who have cognitive behavior issues, their brains are wired so that they are unable learn as others do.
I have quite strong form of Asperger's, I am a person of solitude and intellectualism, I avoid people because I do not meet people who understand me or people who are smart as me. I own extremely broad band of knowledge and skills, I got ability to learn musical instruments with extreme haste.
Do not get destroyed by your Asperger's, embrace it, use it to your benefit, find out what your perks and obsessions are and wield them as a weapons against others, get a uppercut on them. We Asperger people rarely have friends or long lasting relationships, we usually enjoy only our obsession that bring us great deal of enjoyment, I get more enjoyment from music than I do from anything sexually oriented, it is the only thing that ignited emotions in me, otherwise, I am cold as a stone, solid and rough.
EMBRACE IT AND NEVER CALL IT A DISEASE!
If you do not recognize yourself from these simple "perks" then you do not have Asperger's. You need to have a Obsession, Natural talent to something, you require logic and patterns around you, you partly lack from basic primitive abilities of social interaction - may it be understanding sarcasm, inability to read faces, inability to "read between the lines". If you do not possess these then you have been misdiagnosed.
And to help your pain if you do have Asperger's so did:
Ludvig Wittgensteinin
Alan Turing
Albert Einstein (most likely)
Steven Spielberg
Also suspected cases in history:
Isaac Newton
Charles Darwin
Syd Barrett
Now tell me these people were retarted.