Anyone else feel this way?

[delanofilms]

By this I mean a complete lack of self esteem.
I hate myself. When I was a child I had an IQ test and was told a minimum of 140, but I have severe dyslexia, and it really fucks me up. I recently looked in the riddles thread and found myself utterly unable to answer any of the riddles at all, save for those that I had heard before. It made me feel like a complete intellectual failure and utterly depressed me.
Anyone else get like this? I feel this way nearly every day and often am left yearning for death.
Am I the only one this fucked up? It really seems this way considering the fact that I have to take Zoloft in order to keep from snapping in a massive anxiety attack and killing so many of the assholes around me.
And a quick preemptive note to all those why will inevitably say that this is just a desperate plea for attention - NO SHIT!

 

[BlumiereBleck]

yeah i do. u just need to find someone or something to love

 

[Avaholic03]

Accept the things you can't change, change the things that you can, and be smart enough to know the difference.

Everyone has their problems. Don't let it hold you back from enjoying life.

 

[Jedoro]

I used to. Back in middle school, my life sucked ass, and I did try killing myself (cut down, but it didn't kill me).

You should read Fight Club. I apologize to anyone who thinks I mention that book too much, but hell, if it changed my life, why not recommend it?

 

[Dr.Poisonfreak]

yeah i feel like that when i see all my mates driving and i can't even pass my theory -_-, the fact that i cant do anything without rushing it, if i go slower it turns out worse! but then i found playing guitar, and i can rush that as much as i like coz theres no pressure, the key is finding something you like and enjoy doing.

hope this helps

 

[matnatz]

Of course I do! Hence why I play video games. But y'know, I have a talent for drawing and painting, I want to use it one of these days.

It's pretty much a normal feeling for every human being who has ever existed. The ones who genuinely never get this feeling are people who are too stupid to be bothered by anything. Ignorance is bliss, right? Y'know, just fight through it, stick around for the good times. I knew somebody who once attempted suicide, now he needs a walking stick, but since, he's met somebody, had children an d he's one of the happiest people around.

And if it's any consolation, I couldn't do those riddles either, they just didn't interest me. And some of those who answered probably used google .

 

[Casual Shinji]

Atleast your avatar is still happy.

 

[matnatz]

I 2nd that you should read/watch Fight Club. It's a great book/film, a very fun read or watch.

 

[Booze_Hound]

By this I mean a complete lack of self esteem.
I hate myself. When I was a child I had an IQ test and was told a minimum of 140, but I have severe dyslexia, and it really fucks me up. I recently looked in the riddles thread and found myself utterly unable to answer any of the riddles at all, save for those that I had heard before. It made me feel like a complete intellectual failure and utterly depressed me.
Anyone else get like this? I feel this way nearly every day and often am left yearning for death.
Am I the only one this fucked up? It really seems this way considering the fact that I have to take Zoloft in order to keep from snapping in a massive anxiety attack and killing so many of the assholes around me.
And a quick preemptive note to all those why will inevitably say that this is just a desperate plea for attention - NO SHIT!

Be happy with your superior IQ - mine's a piddly 110-115

 

[manicfoot]

Sure. I punched myself in the face out of sheer frustration when I couldn't sing in tune. Must have looked fucking hilarious to someone walking past my house. I'm also the king of self-sabotage. If I ask for directions, I'll intentionally walk the opposite way and get myself lost. Because of this I was once an hour and a half late for my uni induction. This also holds true when I'm leading my friends somewhere - I'll get us lost despite knowing exactly where to go. I don't follow any kind of logic. I guess I have many reasons to hate myself

 

[Jedamethis]

I know what you mean
have a cookie to make you feel better

Spoiler

 

[The Infamous Scamola]

Riddles are stupid, and no proof of one's intelligence, if it makes you feel any better. I doubt it will, but one can always try... right?

 

[Easykill]

I could probably list off everything that has embarrassed me ever, right now, and not because the list is small. Of course, I won't DO that, it would be embarrassing. It just helps give a sense of perspective to how prone to self-analysis and regret I am. It gives off a pretty strong sense of worthlessness, and I've said before that regret is probably the most unpleasant emotion in existence, so I think I've got a pretty good idea of what you mean- even if it isn't directly the same. There are indeed times I've felt like I should die after doing something (never just for embarrassment, but because I really fucked up), but I find refuge in the idea of self-improvement. Sure, who I am sucks now, but it won't stay that way. I won't LET it stay that way. Perhaps you should seek out a similar idea?

 

[Zosephine]

You are definitely NOT alone. I take the Zoloft so I won't become an hero, but that's pretty much the only difference.

Lots of people suck balls at riddles. I used to think that I was super good at riddles but I got a book of them and had to read the solution to EVERY ONE.

But back on topic: there are others that are just as fucked up as you are, if not more so.

(P.S. When I feel an attack coming on, I take a shower. It's relaxing enough to take an edge off, and it feels incredibly good to put your clothes on when you're all fresh ^_^)

 

[ReverendJ]

To be perfectly honest, I find it's a matter of mindset. I used to be an absolute mess- drunk, miserable, incapable of maintaining any sort of meaningful relationship with anyone, and fantasizing about spree-killing on an hourly basis. Then I woke up one morning, put on some music from the negative end of the emotional spectrum, poured myself a shot... and realized I was tired of it. It takes effort to wallow in your own misery, but when you're actually in there it seems effortless. It's not. There ARE things out there worth enjoying. Trade in Nietzche for Terry Pratchett, delete the Slipknot from iTunes to open up some room for some Scott Joplin, perhaps keep an eye out for a new crowd of people to replace those you currently associate with. Variety is the spice of life, shake things up a bit if it's not currently working for you. Oh, and always remember- Illegitimi non carborundum!

EDIT- I should note that my life is an absolute &%$@!!! mess, I'm nothing more than a gleeful loser. I call it 'optimistic nihilism.'

 

[Destal]

Firstly, not to downtrodden you, but childhood IQ tests don't mean shit. They are one of the worst indicators of any actual intelligence.

As for the rest of what you said, I would definitely reccomend talking to someone about how you feel. I would highly reccomend you take a day to yourself and do something that you throughly enjoy. Any form of exercise usually helps the body overall because of how it releases serotonin. So, try to go play basketball or something like that with friends. You will feel better afterwords.

 

[Andalusa]

I have really bad self esteem.
Any tiny thing that goes wrong in my life is amplified by about 154973% and my self confidence just shatters and makes me feel really depressed.

But as pessimistic as I am, I always try to look on the bright side and be happy. I've been to dark places and I don't want to revisit them any time soon.

OP: Hope things get better for you!

 

[delanofilms]

Atleast your avatar is still happy.

Good point - I'll have to change that.

 

[ZeroMachine]

Accept the things you can't change, change the things that you can, and be smart enough to know the difference.

Everyone has their problems. Don't let it hold you back from enjoying life.

Words of wisdom, this one speaks.

Turn your weaknesses to your advantage. Don't deny them, embrace them, just like you'd embrace your strengths.

As for the whole riddle thing, guess what? Although everyone tells me that I am very bright (and, not to sound arrogant, but I am smart) I suck at riddles. And flunked out of college. And it isn't because I'm an idiot- far from it- it's because I hate the school enviroment (other than meeting new people) and I feel like I wasn't getting anything out of it. I gave it it's fair shot and then failed, so now I am trying out other things.

Intelligence doesn't always mean you'll be able to do the stuff that is usually associated with it. You just need to find other ways to use your smarts!

 

[miso2002]

Yeah, I feel like crap sometimes and have significant enough anxiety that they put me on lexapro. What I usually do is find one friend and come straight out and explain the situation. Just talking about that stuff helps me to organize it.
P.s. don't pick a friend that you consistently go back and forth with joke insults with. They will inevitably make a joke about it in public.