Anyone else feel this way?

[Federalist92]

By this I mean a complete lack of self esteem.
I hate myself. When I was a child I had an IQ test and was told a minimum of 140, but I have severe dyslexia, and it really fucks me up. I recently looked in the riddles thread and found myself utterly unable to answer any of the riddles at all, save for those that I had heard before. It made me feel like a complete intellectual failure and utterly depressed me.
Anyone else get like this? I feel this way nearly every day and often am left yearning for death.
Am I the only one this fucked up? It really seems this way considering the fact that I have to take Zoloft in order to keep from snapping in a massive anxiety attack and killing so many of the assholes around me.
And a quick preemptive note to all those why will inevitably say that this is just a desperate plea for attention - NO SHIT!

Dont beat yourself up about the riddles thing first of all. Thats got nothing to do with IQ. if they were called questions it would be but riddles are different. Millions of people cant get riddles. I know i cant.
Also dyslexia aint a good thing, but it shouldnt hinder you too much.
Richard branson has dyslexia and left school at 16. Look at him now. hes a world renowned billionaire whos building the first ever commercial spaceship company.
cheer up.
theres plenty of oppurtunities for you.