Aspects about yourself that you simply hate

[piinyouri]

My anger issues, certainly without a doubt my anger issues.
I tend to never really let things go, thus I am always loaded with stress, but don't tend to know it till someone points it out.

I used to be sweet, quiet and shy.
What the hell happened to me?

 

[Chemical Alia]

I wish I was more assertive. There's so many times when I wished I had brought things up or not done something that I should have, whether in my job or in another respect. I'll often feel terrible over it and know what the right thing is to do, but I always seem to justify unfair things with some excuse about why it was done, usually downplaying my abilities in the process. Which is weird, because I'm otherwise pretty confident and level-headed and stuff. Being able to speak up for myself better is something I really need to work on, especially in my field. I was raised to be so polite and well-mannered, it's a hard habit to break. Having read some studies and articles about women in the workplace and the negative aspects of this behavior trait in particular have made me realize this a lot more clearly recently.

I also have a really short torso. Like, disproportionately to my legs, which are really long. This creates the double problem of trying to see over the dashboard while driving, and having no "curves" to my figure.

 

[guidance]

I can't get motivated for shit. I know when something is important but it just wont hit me how important, so I never study enough and generally let things slide.

I am very indecisive. I will decide to do something and then psych myself out of it, no matter what it is. I even find myself skipping out on gaming cause I convince myself it's not worth the effort.

I can not remember spelling rules when typing. Your, you're and there, their always slip past me. I also have no idea how to use commas, I just hope that I am putting them in the right area of a sentence.

I look way younger than I am. I used to think it was because of my height, but now I am average height even taller than some of my friends. I got asked for my I.D. when going to watch fucking Chronicle a 14A movie, I was 18.

 

[scorptatious]

I too have pretty low self esteem issues. I feel bad when I make a mistake, I can't bring myself to confess to a girl I like, I don't usually like to express certain opinions about certain things because I'm afraid I may say something stupid, and I'm somewhat paranoid about what people think of me, in real life and on the internet.

I also hate how I don't have a job or a driver's license. It feels like all of my friends have these things and have the ability to do and go wherever they want. Meanwhile, I have to rely on my parents to get me to places I need to go.

I also seem to have this thing where I just mentally compare myself to somebody. I see someone about my age, he looks bigger, stronger, has a lot of friends, probably a girlfriend as well. I know it's a stupid thing to do but I can't help but do it to myself. I don't know why.

At the very least, I respect myself enough to have good hygiene and make myself look decent. Then again, if I'm trying to improve myself and find a job, what choice do I have?

 

[BoredRolePlayer]

Lack of motivation for things I wanna do.
I get distracted eas, what the hell is this on tvtropes

 

[SaetonChapelle]

I don't like things about myself physically. But we'll stay on the psychological.

I get angry at people way too easily. I work in a deli and people just piss me off really quickly. I am kind to them, but in my head I'm ready to strangle the next asshole who wants their ham just above shaved at 9pm.

 

[Stormz]

My inability to say no to people and not being able to stick up for myself, Low self esteem, no motivation for anything even when it's something I actually want to do.

I'm also scared of making mistakes, which is partly why I don't have a job, I don't want to make a mistake because I'm worried I'll get in shit for it and/or look foolish.

 

[DEAD34345]

I hate that I'm superior to mere mortals in every way, as it has the unfortunate side effect of creating self esteem issues in the lesser beings I come into contact with. For that I apologise, members of The Escapist... Clearly I've been spending far too much time on this forum. Perhaps you might feel better about yourselves if I gave you my own personal stamp of approval? It's available on request.

[sub]Ok... maybe I have a slightly inflated view of my own importance. Perhaps. Probably not.[/sub]

 

[Moonlight Butterfly]

I don't know when to keep my mouth shut about things. If I don't agree with someone I will tell them. It doesn't exactly make you very popular.

I also have physical problems caused by a serious illness I need an operation for. I only recently found out I have it and it's affected my entire life since I was 9. I'm not very amused by that.

 

[soren7550]

I just flat out hate myself for a wonderful variety of reasons.

*sobs in a corner*

 

[Squilookle]

Honestly? I waste so much time on forums and in games when I really should be out there creating some artwork of my own. Really gets to me sometimes.

 

[Maeta]

Pretty much everything about me sucks (I'm awful at chatting up girls, and when I finally get there it falls apart faster than a fully-furnished skyscraper made of spaghetti, I carry an overly negative attitude about almost everything, I'm physically not that impressive etc.). The thing I have going for me is that I'm pretty smart (afterall, I'm about to start a PhD in Chemistry at one of the best universities in the UK for the course (York)), but I feel that whether it's intelligence or talent in other fields (music, pool, snooker, darts, radio) that I've wasted my potential through being too lazy, erratic and incapable of taking the slightest knock.
For a different reason, another thing that truly sucks about me is my inability to properly relax: sure I can sit around and do nothing (or at least, nothing productive) for maybe days on end but I never feel properly relaxed at any point (which bites harder than a hyena).
I always spend too much time looking at the negatives in my life, and the times I've screwed people over and/or hurt them whether on purpose or not, rather than the people I've helped, and who want me around. I focus on the guy who started a fight with me at football rather than the people who backed me up. I focus on the fact that I treated my ex-gf badly (and I was pretty horrible at times, which is something I truly hate about myself) rather than the fact that she accused me of cheating on her when I was comforting a crying friend and so she dumped me via medium of her mum texting me (no, really, and I've also taken another girl on a night out where she knew her other guy, who I knew nothing about, would be). Occasionally, I also feel pretty down, especially after I made a serious error in the lab a while back, and I cut myself, and so I have a huge scar all down my left fore-arm (which my family hasn't noticed, thankfully).

For anyone who read all this: why?

 

[UberNoodle]

I find that my awesomeness tends to alienate rather than endear me to others. It's something I really wish I could change about myself. It's a real shame that people are too caught up in whatever lame crap they are into, to realise just what they are missing. But I'm at a point where I have no other choice but to slum it just to make connections.

 

[cerealnmuffin]

I've been suicidally depressed most of my life. Though I'm now changing that around thanks to getting back into running (happy endorphins) and beating negative self talk.

I hate how I shut down in groups. With one person, I'm quite loquacious, but add in a couple others and I become effectively mute. In addition, I feel pressure to not be myself. History is a huge passion of mine. I'd love to talk about French Revolution, Chinese dynasties, rise of popular culture in Edo, the fate of Crete, on and on. I get really giddy and happy when visiting museums or blabbing about the latest scholarly paper I have read or documentary I have watched. Yet, I feel unable to express those feelings and I end up feeling pressured to pretend to like what others like. I'd much rather talk about the fallout series over cocktails than feigning interest in TV.

Though I'm very much like Hanako or Yomiko Readman in life, my smile isn't cute and shyly sweet like theirs. Rather it looks like a devious smirk as if I had just slipped arsenic in someone's drink. I smile through one side of my mouth but when I try to smile with my whole mouth it looks just stupid.

My voice sucks. It is too androgynous and nasally. Thanks to my deviated septum (which I'm fixing) I always sound like I have a head-cold.

I wish I was hyper or something, because supposedly shy nerdy girls like me are high in demand. Yet, even with my decent looks (I keep in shape and have very feminine style) I just blend in with the wallpaper. The hyper active, look at me, nerd girls get tons of attention, but I have always been ignored.

 

[Dags90]

Probably the one that hasn't been said already by someone else is that I don't like how emotionally guarded I've become. It's really, really hard for me to trust people or to get close. If I feel myself getting too close to someone I back away.

 

[Inconspicuous Trenchcoat]

Sometimes it's impossible for me to have fun playing a game (video or otherwise) unless I'm winning. I really wish I could just enjoy myself and not worry about winning, but a lot of the time my competitive side won't let me take losing in stride. It's especially annoying when playing with friends. Just relax and enjoy their company you idiot!? You don't HAVE to win all the time! This issue has caused me to greatly dislike board games where luck is the primary method of winning.

This is probably why I like betas. If I'm brand new at something, and/or everyone else is just learning the game too, then I can just play for fun and my competitive side gives it a rest for awhile. Games I'm really terrible at have a better chance of not triggering my competitiveness. It's nice when I can just play.

This makes me think of something Genkai said to Yusuke in Yu Yu Hakusho xD... "[Why don't you try putting your whole heart into something for once instead of always holding yourself back in case it doesn't work out?!]" I feel I have this problem. I'll refuse to try my hardest, because, "what if it's not enough?" If you don't put in your all, you can't be a complete failure... It's not a great attitude to have. I sit on the sidelines and observe too much in life, I should probably try taking the field myself sometimes.

I also have problems with low self-esteem, motivation and selfishness etc.

 

[lacktheknack]

I'm very good at starting things, but have a terrible track record of actually finishing them.

Beyond that, no. I think I've got my flaws in check.