Aspects about yourself that you simply hate

[Justyn Stahll]

Lists are fun and I have a good deal of things...
1. Shut in
2. Insensitive Ass
3. To Lazy
4. I blame others alot...
5. Can't talk to people about...anything really

 

[cerealnmuffin]

I've been suicidally depressed most of my life. Though I'm now changing that around thanks to getting back into running (happy endorphins) and beating negative self talk.

I hate how I shut down in groups. With one person, I'm quite loquacious, but add in a couple others and I become effectively mute. In addition, I feel pressure to not be myself. History is a huge passion of mine. I'd love to talk about French Revolution, Chinese dynasties, rise of popular culture in Edo, the fate of Crete, on and on. I get really giddy and happy when visiting museums or blabbing about the latest scholarly paper I have read or documentary I have watched. Yet, I feel unable to express those feelings and I end up feeling pressured to pretend to like what others like. I'd much rather talk about the fallout series over cocktails than feigning interest in TV.

Though I'm very much like Hanako or Yomiko Readman in life, my smile isn't cute and shyly sweet like theirs. Rather it looks like a devious smirk as if I had just slipped arsenic in someone's drink. I smile through one side of my mouth but when I try to smile with my whole mouth it looks just stupid.

My voice sucks. It is too androgynous and nasally. Thanks to my deviated septum (which I'm fixing) I always sound like I have a head-cold.

I wish I was hyper or something, because supposedly shy nerdy girls like me are high in demand. Yet, even with my decent looks (I keep in shape and have very feminine style) I just blend in with the wallpaper. The hyper active, look at me, nerd girls get tons of attention, but I have always been ignored.

I've attempted suicide, too. Turned my life right around and got into spiritualism! Hopefully you keep on your path and only get better and better ^^

Well, I tried drowning at 7, sleeping pill od (34 pills) at 13, hanging at 17 (which almost succeeded but rope slipped a bit when blacked out), hypothermia at 20. I've finally moved on from actively pursuing suicide. In an odd way, it helps to know I can always escape life if things ever hit rock bottom.

As for my depression, I'm realizing I need to actively do something about it myself. Talking to countless counselors hasn't helped, neither has medicine. I just need to break free of habits (negative self talk) and use feel good chemicals from exercise to help jump start my mind out of the depressive loops it goes into. I have actually been feeling way better and seeing possibility of life without depression, but I got screwed over by a friend a week before really invasive surgery so I'm looking at 4 days in hospital without computer or mp3 player just because my friend is too lazy to mail a cord that is mine (cant find replacement in time since they are sony products and korea is understandably anti Japanese products)

 

[afbrien]

Well I'm incredibly shy, hate the feeling of being judged and that last little bit of 'New Zealand syndrome' that I still have.

If you're interested 'New Zealand syndrome' is an issue most New Zealanders have but won't admit to. It generally consists of:
1. Its always someone else's fault
2. Being complacent on almost every issue
3. hating anyone better than you

 

[Vhite]

I have terribly weak will and self controle which most often results into lazyness.

 

[Alternative]

I am lazy as shit and will usually go the easy route in all things. Quite annoying. What's worse is I know when I am doing it. Trying to make a change >.>

I need to write more

I second this.

A lot of the time, I'm just not willing to put the time and effort into things that I simply don't enjoy.

This.

Mixed with a health dose of narcissism and depression.

 

[Ljs1121]

I need to go outside more often and do... Well that's the thing, what is there to do outside that I don't suck at?

You could breathe. Ooh, but then you'd be sucking oxygen...

[sub]I thought it was funny shut up[/sub]

I'm really antisocial and I distance myself from others. It makes me sad because I want to have absolutely amazing friendships with people but my brain says "lolnope this person is the enemy and you will not socialize with them".

 

[Filiecs]

I see myself as pretty much perfect.
I'm well educated and enjoy learning, and am an optimistic, friendly individual with a very strong control over his emotions.
If I want to be social, I can make myself social. If I want to be supportive, I can be supportive.
If something would make normally make a lot of people angry, I can stay calm.

I only see myself as having one major flaw, and that flaw is the last thing I need to overcome to become a successful person.

I am lazy as fuck. I am terrible at self motivation. Once in a while, when I try and be productive, it sometimes feels as if my computer slaps my and says "NO!", "NO PRODUCTIVITY FOR YOU!".
It's gotten a lot better over the years, I have practiced preparing myself mentally for the burden of BEING productive and that seems to have worked. I pretty much have everything going for me, I just need to make sure that I reach out and take it.

 

[Setch Dreskar]

It's my voice, it drives me insane, I am almost 24 now, and I sound like a damn 16 year old, and it just wears thin, granted in real life it's easier as people can see me, can tell my age, yet in all other aspects it just digs at me, especially trying to prove not only am I 23 but my experience within the Marines.

 

[Frybird]

I'm lazy, socially awkward AND anxious, and i loathe myself.
And thanks to the former and the latter, i don't do anything about it since i either bring myself down with constant "You suck" inner dialogue, or i immediately feel like an idiot whenever i am anything less than invisible in a social situation.
As such, i'm pretty miserable and apathetic most of the time.

 

[Vanitas likes Bubbles]

I have a lot of flaws, (don't we all?) but I don't hate any of them. My laziness pays off as much as it causes me problems, my forgetfulness can't be helped, and my lack of social skills doesn't really bother me either because I prefer to not need social skills in the first place. I'm pretty happy with who I am, and if other people don't like it, well, who cares? I am who I am, and that's all that I am, trying to be anything else would just make me unhappy.

Fuck yea! I see my flaws as a positive rather than a negative, it's what makes us all unique, in fact I hardly even see them as flaws.

List of "flaws" I have would be too long for me to list but one of the big ones I like is my ego. Seriously, it's huge and I love it.

 

[A Satanic Panda]

I hate the fact that I am content at being average in life. I'm just terribly lazy to do anything.

Learn a programming language? Later.
Study for school work? I'll pass one way or another.
Exercise more? I'm young and thin, don't need to.
etc. etc.

 

[Astoria]

I hate that when I stress I just seem to shut down and can't think. Not a good thing during job interviews or exams.

 

[General Twinkletoes]

I'm horrifically lazy, which has proven irritating, but I'm far to lazy to do anything about it. It will never end D:

 

[Artful_Gamer]

I'm a bit too amazing for other people to handle
Seriously though I have been told (on quite a few occasions) that my ego can be... overwhelming to put it kindly.
You know how it is though, what I call a simple rendition of the truth other people label as bragging. Can't a guy just tell it like it is without being labeled as "big-headed"?

I try to make an active effort just to talk about myself less to avoid bragging too much because I'm fully aware of exactly how obnoxious I can be sometimes when I'm just in one of those moods. I find myself almost with the cartoon style angel on one shoulder and devil on the other. (hmm... My friend failed his driving test the day after I passed mine, maybe I won't tell exactly how easy I personally found it)

Not sure if I'd go as far as to say that I hate this aspect of myself because it does give me the confidence to do a lot of good stuff. I'll just tone it down and keep some of my least considerate/blatently egotistical thoughts in my mind when around pleasant company.

 

[Patrick Buck]

*Flexes hands*

I'm lazy, anti-social, rude, smartarsed, low self esteem, angry, selfish, shit at telling if people are upset about something, a MASSIVE procrastinater, I over think everything, paranoid, also kinda shy with people I don't know, and hate disappointing ANYONE, unless they're a MASSIVE dick, and I mean massive.

Wow, that's quite a list. :/

 

[Moonlight Butterfly]

I don't know when to keep my mouth shut about things. If I don't agree with someone I will tell them. It doesn't exactly make you very popular.

I also have physical problems caused by a serious illness I need an operation for. I only recently found out I have it and it's affected my entire life since I was 9. I'm not very amused by that.

Oh no

I hope you get better :/

Thanks it can't be cured but it can be treated. Afterwards I should have more energy and not be in pain all the time. I'm just looking forward to feeling better and being more myself.

 

[ssgt splatter]

I personally hate my digestive system. 80% of the time I go to the bathroom, I feel like I'm shitting diamonds. Seriously, ask me to swallow a lump of coal and I could pass a 10 karat diamond after 2 days.

And I'm someone who's taking all kinds of fiber pills and probiotics.

 

[Sean Hollyman]

I have the directional sense of a banana and I have never dated