Well, as you all know to your annoyance, I'm not the most mentally healthy person. I'm paranoid, prone to violent anger, and sometimes I just plain feel like hammered shit. Recently, it's been worse than normal. Multiple things have had me unreasonably worried. By this point I've little idea what's a genuine threat, or what's just a minor problem blown outta all proportion by own by own paranoia.
This led to me actually giving in to years of holding it all back, and confessing to my friends en masse that I'm not always the jokey, comedically crazy person they all know. Honestly, it feels a lot better. The mass backlash I feared never came, and now I know that I have people who give a shit. I'm actually finally considering getting some kind of "help", with the reasurrance of a friend who suffers from similiar issues.
Honestly, when I visualise that, I wish I could draw. It's fucking hilarious. It's like a boxer keeps getting knocked down brutally over and over, and finally, only after being practically liqufied on the inside and having his bones reduced to something similiar to the little fragments you get at the bottom of a box of sugar sticks, does he slump on the edge of the ring and slur out "Okay. I may, just may, be in need of some minor medical assistance."
Yeah, so that's why I'm here. Why did I feel the need to describe? I dunno. Felt I needed context, partially. I'd say I'm attention whoring, but I'd be kidding myself if I thought anyone on here gave a crap by this point, you probably all have little "doclector" pictures stuck to dartboards, such is my tiresome bitching.
This led to me actually giving in to years of holding it all back, and confessing to my friends en masse that I'm not always the jokey, comedically crazy person they all know. Honestly, it feels a lot better. The mass backlash I feared never came, and now I know that I have people who give a shit. I'm actually finally considering getting some kind of "help", with the reasurrance of a friend who suffers from similiar issues.
Honestly, when I visualise that, I wish I could draw. It's fucking hilarious. It's like a boxer keeps getting knocked down brutally over and over, and finally, only after being practically liqufied on the inside and having his bones reduced to something similiar to the little fragments you get at the bottom of a box of sugar sticks, does he slump on the edge of the ring and slur out "Okay. I may, just may, be in need of some minor medical assistance."
Yeah, so that's why I'm here. Why did I feel the need to describe? I dunno. Felt I needed context, partially. I'd say I'm attention whoring, but I'd be kidding myself if I thought anyone on here gave a crap by this point, you probably all have little "doclector" pictures stuck to dartboards, such is my tiresome bitching.
So, yeah. Due to circumstances you probably don't care about, which completes the "bitching" part of the thread, I'm feeling like shit at the moment.
But I have musical help. So...yeah. What's your favourite cheer up music?
Before you ask, no, I did not learn of this song from "supernatural".
I learnt of it from "Happy Gilmore". Why does it cheer me up? Pretty much the whole message of the song, I guess. Carry on.
I don't know why this helps me. Perhaps I was a southern american in a past life.
It's already an awesome song, but then you realise that all the lyrics are cobbled together metal references. You can't help but smile realising that.
Because...this.
I learnt of it from "Happy Gilmore". Why does it cheer me up? Pretty much the whole message of the song, I guess. Carry on.
I don't know why this helps me. Perhaps I was a southern american in a past life.
It's already an awesome song, but then you realise that all the lyrics are cobbled together metal references. You can't help but smile realising that.
Because...this.
