The mechanical being was nothing short of a marvel. The machine was clearly the work of a master craftsman, with a design so complex it could almost be considered ornate. Even at rest, its small brass frame was buzzing with motion, the multitude of sprockets and cogs performing a myriad of tasks that Langston could not even begin to fathom. He stared in awe, entranced by the mere concept of the creature, swaying slightly to the rhythmic ticks and hums that emanated from deep within its frame.
With a quick halting motion, the being turned its head to face him. In all his years of study Langston had never encountered a machine that seemed so animate, so human. He could sense a mixture of curiosity and fear as the faceless being seemed to stare deep into his eyes, or perhaps something more than fear... was it pain?
Pinions and gears burst into a frenzy of motion as the unnamed creation lurched forward, wires pulling back and forth through its joints like silvery sinew. It kept it's gaze fixed on Langston, staggering towards him desperately.
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BANG"
A dark plume of smoke burst from one of its knees. It raised its hand toward Langston, pleading for help. Langston quickly began to move to the machine, speaking gently in an attempt to ease both of their fears, "It-It's okay. I'm Langston... I'm here to help."
The creature tilted it's head in response, throwing off its own balance. The bad knee bowed inward awkwardly causing the mechanical man to begin tipping over,
'Oh dear!'
Langston sprang towards the being, grabbing its hand in his own, and pulling forward, "It's okay, I-I got you." He tried to console the creature noting its increasing concern, "It's all going to be okay, I am going to bend down and have a look at your knee." He placed one of the being's hands on his shoulder, "Here, uh, hold... here, and just try to keep your balance. Okay?"
Langston slowly sank to one knee, allowing the machine to lean heavily upon his shoulders. He drew his face in close to the afflicted knee, immediately identifying the problem. One of the silvery wires had come lose and snagged in the knee joint, jamming the hinge and displacing a length of tubing. He looked up at the frightened machine a light reassuring smile spreading across his face, "It isn't bad friend, I can fix you."
A pleasant serenity washed over Langston, after having such an outlandish day it was nice to return to something familiar, something he was good at. He carefully began to pull on the problem wire, shaking it lightly as he coaxed it out from in between the hinged joint. He let the silvery wire dangle, instead focusing on moving the tubing back in line with its bolt. He kept his eyes on the silvery thread as he tightened the bolt around the tube, letting his mind wander.
Once the bolt was tightened he reached for both ends of the dangling wire,
'Alright, now all I have to do is tie this webbing together'
He paused confused by his train of thought,
'Webbing? What- I mean rope? No. Wire. I need to find a way to fasten this wire together. hrrmm....'
He bent the wire slightly in his hand, he didn't recognize the metal he was working with, but it seemed about as malleable as copper. Perhaps it also shared a similar melting point? Langston searched his pockets for his favorite lighter and found nothing...
'That's odd... I always have a light on me.'
Langston raised his hand to his forehead, pressing his fingers into his furrowed brow. He hadn't realized it before, but his head felt heavy, his thoughts were sluggish, shrouded in a thick fog.
'No- Langston, they took it when you came to the Drowned District. Just like that brute took your torch earlier today....
Wait, where's the brute? Is- Is this real?
The machine's hands tightened around his shoulders, causing pain to shoot up his neck and down his arm. Langston looked up quickly, sensing a dramatic increase in the creature's anxiety, "So-Sorry! I got distracted, I am almost done... I-I just need to connect this wire."
He pushed the thoughts aside, this 'man' needed his help right now; he could think of the brute later. Besides he has seen stranger things today- a man eating lizard, an unexplainable "portal", wind in the catacombs, and a floating ball of fire, was this really any more unbelievable.
He took both sides of the disconnected wire and began wrapping then ends together, without flame to mend the wire it was the best he could do. He began squeezing the wire to flatten out the awkward knot."I think that should do for now, it isn't a permanent fix so... please, be careful."
Air hissed through the pipes in the machine's chest, sounding more like a sigh. Langston rose to his feet, looking intently at the creature as it 'sighed with relief'. He receded back into his mind tackling the next problem,
'Now... Where am I? The others? Well, we all walked in th-'
The unnamed creation lurched forward once more.
'Swhwiiicht, kerkerkerker'
'CLANK'
The machine emitted a shrill sound akin to a pained scream as a section of gears in its torso were brought to a grinding halt.
the humanoid form fell heavily on Langston, almost pushing him over. He grappled the mechanical creature, slowly lowering it to the ground.
' Wha- What happened? I did everything right, didn't I?'
The creature looked up and Langston quickly averted his gaze, instead looking for the problem area. He dared not meet his gaze... he could already sense its fears as if they were his own. The knot had been drawn up deep into the creature's pelvis and had caught itself on a cog. The cog was completely stopped up, rendering the entire leg useless.
Oh, no. no. no. I- huh..... Langston, It's going to be okay. You can do this. I can fix this- it's okay. I can fix this.
"It's all going to be okay - uhm- just stay calm and try not to move," he mumbled aloud, in attempt to reassure himself more than the suffering machine. He pressed his fingers into the gap where the leg and torso met. Sweat began to bead on his brow and drip down his face, his hand sinking deeper into the mechanical labyrinth. The 'man' began to jar and convulse violently emitting a high-pitched squeak. Langston let out a surprised yelp as a variety of gears began moving, tearing and pulling at the flesh from his hand and fingers. He gritted his teeth, letting his hand take the brunt of the damage as his fingers pressed against the knot, slowly sliding it off the problem gear. The gear snapped back into action, pulling strips of skin along with it. Langston quickly pulled his hand out of the labyrinthine network and drew it toward his chest. He gripped it tightly with his other hand, trying to numb the pain and stop the bleeding.
He closed his eyes, focusing on the low hum that reverberated from deep within the machine's chest, attempting to ignore his throbbing mangled hand. The smell of blood reached his nostrils and an image manifested beneath his shut lids. The disordinate humming lost its metallic edge, taking on an organic quality... it wasn't coming from the robot, but from a greenish figure who danced, bounding gaily around a sacrificial font. Shadowy forms writhed close by... perhaps they were broken as well? Or perhaps they were the others. That's right! Those he had travelled with, they needed his help as well.
Langston extended his arm, his hand grazing across the floor as he tried to reach out to the struggling figures. His hand was meet with what felt like a hot grimy liquid...
His eyes snapped open to see the machine laying on it's back sputtering weakly, a crude oil flowed freely over its neck and chest. It turned to face Langston, the rhythmic ticks becoming fast and short as the helpless metallic creature was gripped with terror. It tried to reach out to him once more- stopping sort as it's pistons became stuck, their fast pumping motion curdling the grimy substance into a thick paste.
'DAMN IT, GODDAMN IT!'
Langston scrambled over to its side, his voice thick with desperation, "I'm so sorry! Please forgive me, I-I'll try to stop the leak, but you're going to have to work with me. Please...please stay still, it's all going to be okay." He scanned it's chest, searching for the source of the nameless sludge. A tube at the base of the neck had come lose, probably a result of the robot's thrashing about. Langston put his raw hand over the pipes in an attempt to stem the oozing, using his good hand to frantically pat around the ground for the missing piping. The dark oily crud engulfed his injured hand, seeping into the exposed muscle and burning deep in the wounds. Langston's breathing became labored, the sting from the oil was too much to bear. Anger rose in Langston's throat, he became distracted by his contempt for the creation, becoming so frustrated that he found himself blaming the victim.
'If only he had listen! I told him not to move! This isn't right, he should have been fixed. If he had listened I would be able to help everyone else. I'm not going to leave anyone behind.'
Ticking increased and greater amounts of sludge spilled from the pipes, Langston's anger dissipated, immediately replaced with acute distress. He lied between gritted teeth, his voice faltering, "Don't worry, I almost got it. You're going to be okay."
'He doesn't have much time left. Come ON- Where is it?'
After another moment of searching he found the missing piece floating in the puddle of oil that now surrounded them. He quickly grabbed it, jamming it back into place under the robotic man's chin. Once the tube was in place he recoiled from the machine, whimpering as he drew his injured hand into his chest. He took deep breaths, drawing the air in slowly and closing his eyes once more. He couldn't see the others this time, there was nothing but blackness. The pain was overwhelming, so overwhelming that he sense anything else.
The crude substance began to feed behind the glass face plate of the nameless creation. The mutilated form choked and sputtered as it's small mechanical parts were drowned in the thick fuel. It's gears and pistons were completely coated in the liquid, making them stick and slow. In his haste, Langston had mistakenly connected the fuel line to the wrong tube, effectively destroying the rare creation, this work of art. The creature kept it's gaze fixed on the man who had lead it to ruin..
'Ticktick.. tick, ti-ck... tick.....tic.....................'
The silence was suffocating, so crushing that it snapped Langston back into this "reality". His pain forgotten he gasped in horror, looking at the expressionless broken machine.
He crawled through the thick sludge to kneel beside the mangled form. Lifting its head gently, he spoke to it in a hushed breaking voice, "No,nononononononononononononono... I didn't mean to, I was- I just wanted to help, please don't go. I can fix it, I-"
The tears that had welled up were now streaming down his cheeks. He cradled the once perfect creation, staring deeply into its now black and featureless face. His reflection stared back at him, "... I'm sorry friend, I lied... I can't fix you, and I never really thought I could." He smiled weakly letting out an unsettling laugh, "I don't know why we fooled ourselves, I never do anything right.' He paused locking eyes with his reflection, " Now you and I are one in the same. Broken and useless." He rubbed his nose roughly against his sleeve... smelling blood, but feeling no pain.
His nose was suppose to be broken, or was it his hand that was mangled...? He shook his head, realizing that he didn't know what was real anymore- and it didn't really matter. Tears collected in the corners of his lips as they curled into a light smile, "I suppose it doesn't matter what we are though, does it? So what if I'm a fuck up... at least I still try." He rose to his feet standing over the humanoid form that no longer had any specific characteristics, "I'm sorry friend, I can't be of anymore help to you, but perhaps I can be of use to someone else, maybe-maybe even helpful somehow..." He liked the idea, he didn't need to go into hysterics every time he faced a set back and this was just a broken object- why let it hold him back?
Mustering a little resolve he rose his voice and yelled at the form, "I'm leaving, those people need me, my family needs me."
He turned away from the wreckage of his failure, to see the glowing orb in the distance. "'The light! That led me here, surely it will lead me back."
He took his first step away from the now unidentifiable mass and a poisonous thought stirred in his mind,
'But what if you're wrong?'
Langston halted and the orb grew dim. He stood still, his mind spinning, "Wha-what? But-"
'What if it doesn't take you back? What happens then Langston? What if you are wrong about everything?! Not useful, but a burden. Not helpful, but harmful.'
Langston turned back to the broken mechanical figure, it was no longer faded but completely corporeal. He walked to the edge of the grimy puddle, raising his voice at the dismembered pile, his resolve dissolving as he tried to yell, "I told you, I'm sorry- What more do you want from me?!"
Once again Langston fell short, tripping up right before the finish. He fell back into the dream completely wrapped up in his doubts.
The other voice chimed back in, no longer within Langton's head. He ignored question, instead posing others,
"What makes you think "they" need you, and what makes you think your family needs you? Yes, your family, weren't they trying to get rid of you?"
"STOP IT, Please stop... " He wanted to say more, but he could no longer form words. His breathing became short and erratic, he felt like he couldn't breathe at all. He doubled over hugging his chest tightly, is face becoming drenched, coated in a viscous mixture of sweat, tears, and mucous. The reaction was so immediate and powerful it caught Langston by surprise, scaring him witless. Between coughs and gasps for air, he managed to croak out, "Am I dying?!"
The voice replied mockingly,
"It's all going to be okay, I can fix you"