That really brightened my day!Shockolate said:I know the feeling. Being unable to live up to my own standards is a cornerstone of my depression.
What makes me feel better? Old videos of Whose Line Is It Anyway?
Pure gold in my opinion.
Loool
I am sorry about your car... =/Jumplion said:I've probably been in that situation for the past couple years, and going through it now as I consistently call myself a dumbfuck after wrecking my car recently (literally about 2 hours ago, nobody got hurt, my hood got bent, that's really about it).
With school, I beat myself up over getting a 90 in a course or test, and god forbid I get an 89. I expect only the best from myself, or at the very least the best that I can do, and when I don't achieve that expectation of myself or I don't do nearly as good as I know I could/should have it infuriates me. I will definitely drag myself in a circle of self-doubt, constantly worrying over every little thing that I'm doing wrong instead of thinking of the things that I can do right in the situation. And this whole situation of getting worried and hard on myself makes me worried and hard on myself, as if I know I shouldn't be doing this shit in the first place but I'm doing it anyway, which in turn pisses me off even more.
I'm working on it, but I end up dragging myself back to the doubt circle. Good thing I'm stubborn or I would have given up a long time ago...
When it comes to the grades, though, I guess we both need to stop being so harsh on ourselves, even if it sounds dumb.
I think it isn't just our perception of ourselves, at least I know it for myself...
The older I get, the more people look down on me, I believe. I guess it is because I tell them that my hobby is playing video games, which automatically means I am stupid.
The smart people nowadays are just the ones that randomly state random facts; at least my classmates that are considered smart around me are just like that - spamming information.
I know I should just ignore idiotic statements like "Video Games are only for stupid people lolol" but I just can't. It is very depressing, especially when I think that I do know more about certain topics than my classmates. They think I am a no-life (whatever that means nowadays) and that I am anti-social, even though I just try to be polite...
Oh I forgot, if you aren't a Gangsta and do not just call a girl that you met yesterday at a party while you were drunk your girlfriend, you are considered anti-social.
So much prejudice in today's society, its crazy. They aren't bad people at all, they just don't understand how sad I am when I am just being categorized as ignorant and closed-minded.
What I was trying to say was that getting bad grades only makes them belief in their stupid theory, and I don't like that...
... I would prefer being better than them... Even if its a stupid source for motivation