atombeast707 said:
i have been depressed recently. like strangely often during the last 2 weeks or so. its basically caused by shit i wont go into right now, the jist being that i have never had a true functioning social life.
but anyway, i was wondering, escapists, have you felt depressed for a strangely long time? if so, why? and how did you get over it?
For a girl or because of my own social anxieties.
Don't get me wrong, I have friends and when I'm around them they seem happy enough, but I always consider myself a hinderence, the moment I'm no longer with them I hesitate, if ever, to make contact because I'm afraid of being unwanted and I tend to read alot into messages and even body language, of course this is a huge problem with making new friends as well as I tend to keep my distance and don't really like starting a chat as I'd hate rejection, particularly since most people already know others and are happy to stick to their own groups.
The most troubling part for me is that when I'm around people I always act pretty happy, which means that no one really knows what goes on inside my head and that gets me wondering, are people friends with me or simply my persona?
Anyway that's about it, I've currently got a friend who I talk to all that stuff about who's great, but at the same time I'll still always read too much into anything she says etc.
So... why not get more specific with your issues?