Your tale gives us inspiration and understanding.summerof2010 said:You like it because it's god damn hot that's why.Gxas said:I like biting.
I don't know why, I just do.
OT:
1. Yes. Light domination, upskirts, and... well, loli, but I don't like to indulge that one....
2. A lot of it probably comes from my social awkwardness throughout school. Without any outlet for my romantic and sexual desires, I wound up obsessing over certain things. The upskirt thing is probably just a left over from elementary school, and maybe my first goal for exploring my desires while in secret (no I never went around looking up skirts -- but I thought about it). Now that all I have to do is ask, it feels sort of like a personal victory.
The light dom thing is also related to my unsociability in school. Even now I sometimes feel like my efforts at interaction and friendship are presumptuous. It was crippling in high school. I held on to a crush for the same girl for 7 years because I just knew that if I asked her out I'd mess up and ruin it. Or because I wasn't good enough and she'd laugh in my face. So when someone else is in control, I can't possibly mess up. I'm not even doing anything, just taking it. And I know she wants everything that's happening because she's the one forcing it on me.
I've always felt more comfortable around people younger than me; I feel like I have the upper hand, you see, where I usually feel inferior around my peers. This was true when I was about 10 too, and through various channels I'd rather not talk about I was given a crash course in sex and sexuality, mixing probably inappropriately mature desires with a crushing need for a attention. I may have misplaced my newfound desires on chicks that I wasn't so threatened by... but of course those feelings remained unrequited, so, in a manner similar to the upskirt thing, I now see the idea of getting a young girl... as sort of a long awaited victory... but my girlfriend shows me that I don't need that kind of childish fantasy anymore. She satisfies me. And I don't think about that stuff so much anymore.
Well that was story time with Summer. Hope you enjoyed it. Because that's all you're gonna get.
Thank you Summer, see you in the Nitosphere.