Mnemophage said:
Sort... of.
I have an idealized version of myself, a Mnem that would be if all factors of my existence were under my total control. She is, of course, brilliant and alluring, with a quiet poise that intimates a deep well of timeless wisdom. Her whipcrack intellect would spend a fragment of its focus on emotion - not making the mistake of assassinating her natural emotional drives, but understanding them, controlling them, and using them to not only gain better insight into herself but entice the proper responses from the outside world. She would be a master manipulator - not a malevolent one, but apt and practiced at making mankind and all its tools function in the harmony she craves. Details of job, acquaintance and money would be in flux, as I respect the chaos of the universe and hunger for new and varied input. Not God, perhaps, nor the king of wealth; no 250-IQ supernal genius or avatar of strength and power. A poet, an explorer, wise and gifted enough to convince the world to take her where she wishes.
The rest of my thoughtpower is spent making myself into that person.
I like this; that's actually pretty cool. You sound like a very introspective person. I think too many people simply accept they are all they are ever going to be and give up on trying to find a way to better themselves; even in the smallest of ways.
Unusually_Witty_Name said:
Sort of. I'm a very different person IRL than on the internet.
But equally awesome in both.
Isn't everyone different on the internet? Or maybe I'm thinking just a little more 'opinionated'... Yeah, let's go with that....
Cavan said:
I would say that if you have to pretend you're a man called Dan with a vastly different personality to get through the day, then that's something that you should look at in depth for your long term mental health :/, that's not meant to be offensive or supposed to scare you though, and I am not a doctor of any kind so make of my advice what you will.
I actually expected a comment like this to pop up sooner in the thread. I happen to be responding to these in the order I'm reading them.
I won't deny a psychiatrist would probably love to see me walk through the door, just to tell me what I already know; that alot of shit that happened in my past that has pretty much given me a post tramatic stress syndrome of sorts, take some pills, and keep coming back until I'm broke and am miraclously 'cured'. Hm, just saved five years worth of threapy bills there. Next?
Cavan said:
Unfortunately i'm so far on the other side of the scale and have such difficulty understanding how anybody else thinks or looks that I literally cannot be anything but myself, and while I come across differently through text than I do in person and different places will make me more or less comfortable and able to speak my mind, they are all me.
I have real difficulty hiding my emotions or not saying what I see as the truth, and I cannot act to save my life..it's all just very difficult and I find myself forgetting the parts that contradict the truth or what the hell this character should be feeling at the moment :<.
I ask people constantly what's on their mind to try to compensate for all this and take what they say literally most of the time aswell :/
What you are describing is called 'behaviour blind'. This affects a great number of men and a small percentage of women because they are trying apply the logic/problem-solving side of their brain to social settings; which run off of subtle movements and verbal emotional cues.
So, you're stuck being a bad liar. Not the worst fate in the world, I suppose.
The Wykydtron said:
Gah why did you have to pick my name?! Now my paranoia's acting up again XD. Why not something like... Dovahkiin! Noones gonna have that name (well until 11/11/11 when that lolage contest starts)
Uhm, I hate to break this to you; but 'Dan' is actually a very common name. Besides, its not short for 'Daniel'; its short for my user tag. So, unless your real name IS 'Illesdan', you're safe; no one's taken your name.
Cavan said:
OT: This thread worries me a little regarding multiple people and the overall stability of the population :<
You'd be surprised at the number of people with mental and social disorders you interact with on a daily basis in life.
jakko12345 said:
by night i'm a rapist/harpsichord repairman named hoyt
Well, I'm sure this is a jest; but it made me laugh all the same because it reminded me of an early '70s Marvel comic called 'The Son of Satan', where said Son's human cover was that he was a milkman.
benzooka said:
Most people, if not all actually, behave and see themselves a lot differently, given the situation, environment and people around them: Children might make you act more like a child to be on the same level. Around family and friends you feel like you can be yourself. Around strangers you'll be more reserved. You'll be more formal when dealing with a delicate situation. You don't take things so seriously when you're with people who are fun and so on...
That's perfectly natural, as everyone does that and sometimes those differences can be so vast that you'll almost feel like a different person, if you reflect on it.
Yes, what you are describing are normal social cues that are expected of us.
benzooka said:
It's quite a lot stronger to make up a whole character like that, and without some kind of mental issues, I can't see that happening in any other way than it being a joke of some kind.
You obviously didn't read the post thoroughly.
As I said in my original post; this character was developed through gaming (table-top role-playing) sessions. And, after I severely lost my temper at work (I should have been fired) I saw that my Alpha, get-it-done-right-and-get-it-done-NOW personality was not going to mesh with the people who were content to let everything go to heck in a hamster bowl until a supervisor arrived to fix everything for them. I wish I was making that up; but that was the work environment I walked into seven years ago.
I found that once I drastically changed my mentality and handled my co-workers differently, we began to accomplish a lot more and didn't have much down time. I was made assistant floor supervisor my seventh month on the job; then I was moved up to manager of my crew three months later. So, while I will admit to alot of mental and social shortcomings; I do have to ask this question: What did your post have to do with my question?
