So is it....intrinsically Wrong that I enjoy speaking English more than my "Mother Tongue", Bangla? And I don't mean I enjoy speaking in English when I'm forced to. I mean I Literally THINK in English. That's right. My "thoughts" aren't in my native language. So, is that Wrong? Does it make me a....*gasp* Pretentious ponce? (which if you can't tell is my irrational fear. Pretentious-ponce'ophobia, I call it)
I DO have my reasons, mind you. Bangla, my mother tongue......is EFFING hard! To speak AND to write. It's also quite dated as most new Technical concepts (and by new I mean post 1950) have no equivalent words. So everyone here(and I DO mean everyone) does speak a kind of patchwork language with many English words stuck in to fill gaps.
Also. Bangla has no concept of Sarcasm. No joke. You cannot IMAGINE how much this irritates a Self-titled Cynic such as myself...
So, anyway, yeah? Is this "immoral", in your opinion?
Also, any other ESL speakers with the same Dilemma? I'd love to know.