Luftwaffles said:
I have a friend in the hospital with a failing liver. My blood type matches, so if i volunteer i MIGHT have a chance of going under the knife. But it means putting my life on hold for 3 months or so, which means i will be set back a semester of my studies......I want to help, but theres a bit of me screaming "what about uni!!" Not to mention my family and all..The hardest decision i have to make in my life so far....
Dude....think of it this way. 3 months of your life. Or someone else's......lets face it. You know what to do.
I think this is what this topic could be for....people vent there problems...and if anyone has a solution...to throw it out there
Another thing......
Sweetie. I still love you. And i know..or at least hope you still love me...but i miss you....and i know we've broken up more than once...only to get back together. Every time we get back together im just....happy. If were in person, We never have a problem...something I normally would punch someone in the face for...when you do it...like...half on purpose...i cant help but smile. You are my drive...You were my drive to go to the gym. to get back into shape, To join the Army...and ive only ever told you...and i guess the whole Escapist now...the only reason im really joining is for you. If we cant be together for now....i want to make sure you are safe. And knowing as paranoid and crazy as I am...I cant live really without being either next to you to make sure your safe... or somewhere else making sure no one from anywhere else trys to hurt you and the whole damn city....i know im probably wrong..and dumb, and immature for making this decision. but, I have to...I cant stand that you take relationship advice...for a real relationship.... from Friggin Hook-up artists, they make out with someone who they have never met..then let them go as soon as there done. I dont want that with you. Id rather sit and laugh with you like we always do...well did now, than not talk to you at all and not even be going out...and i worry about you....way too much. sometimes tho....i dont know. we are always happy as can be when were together... Im sorry...I know it was all my fault. I told you i would never let you go again, I told you forever and 2 days because forever just isnt long enough...I just hope. One day..you can just wipe all these feeling of worry, and regret,...and everything away from me. And for once...all i want is for once...you to show me you love me. I know you say it. But....i need to see it. And i know your neve going to read this...but..mabie someone will...and it will somehow get to you...and..i dont know. something........
But at the same time. There is someone else, who ive never met..because i met her over the internet....but everytime im down...which is normally your fault..she asks if im ok....and she knows everything...ive told her everything....and she thinks your a crazy *****, and an asshole for breaking up with me on my Birthday....after being oversea's studying for a month. And even tho ill probally never meet this girl...she's my age...and one of the most fantastic people i know...and whenever ive needed a shoulder...you would give me the best one you could...even if i couldnt see it. And i know you liked me...and i like you...i still do. But...your just too far away...mabie one day...idk..but all i know is...if i ever do get to meet you in person...im giving you the biggest hug ever. And believe it or not...i think i... i think i love you more than her.. you just...make everyhting happy...
THAT did feel better.. I feel like...someone is going to read this. Someone...somewhere will read it and mabie undestand..hell have an idea what to do. Either way..im glad i posted this...Thank you OP. Thank you