It occurred to me that for me posting threads and commenting on threads here is no longer an "uplifting" experience. You see when I pour my heart and soul into a post and nobody responds (most likely because it is a wall of text and nobody bothered to read it, or because it was decently written/didn't have any typos so they couldn't make fun of it.) it makes me feel like crap. There have been several times when I feel like I made a serious contribution to a thread and then nobody replies to me.
There are also times when I post something that wasn't very long in the hopes that somebody will actually read it, and then I get four replies picking it apart and calling me stupid, because I didn't write a wall of text to explain/support/prove my point/opinion. I am sick of seeing that I have four replies and knowing that most if not all of them are negative, and then feeling crappy and not wanting to read them. That isn't how forums should work, but maybe that is just my idealism kicking in.
The worst time is that on the Every time I have felt concerned for somebody, and posted to them voicing my concern about whatever they had posted about; they never responded. When I show that I care, and that there is another person on the other side of the monitor, I get shut down. That sucks. Plain and simple
I would like to imagine that someone will read this and then look through my past posts and try to figure out what drove me to this point, but nobody will. Or that they will look through my badges and wonder what kind of person I am, but nobody will. What will probably happen is that as you are reading this if you even did, you will think "well there goes another pussy that couldn't take it. Good riddance."
Nobody cares anymore, maybe they never did, either way idealists like myself can't exist in an environment where nobody cares. So goodbye. Ill stick around for ZP and Movie Bob, but I'll never post again. In conclusion I am leaving because Posing is no longer a positive and uplifting experience, because the few times I get a positive/encouraging response are overwhelmed by all the times I get ignored/ridiculed, and because I have come to believe that the vast majority of you no longer care enough to look for the person behind the monitor.
tl;dr
This was for me, not for you, respond if you like I won't read it. Goodbye escapist forums, I won't miss you. The last interaction I will have with you is when the mods delete this thread. This will be my 129th post. To all the other idealists out there (you know who you are) Stay strong, and never stop caring or hoping. Now I'll sat it one last time... Goodbye.
There are also times when I post something that wasn't very long in the hopes that somebody will actually read it, and then I get four replies picking it apart and calling me stupid, because I didn't write a wall of text to explain/support/prove my point/opinion. I am sick of seeing that I have four replies and knowing that most if not all of them are negative, and then feeling crappy and not wanting to read them. That isn't how forums should work, but maybe that is just my idealism kicking in.
The worst time is that on the Every time I have felt concerned for somebody, and posted to them voicing my concern about whatever they had posted about; they never responded. When I show that I care, and that there is another person on the other side of the monitor, I get shut down. That sucks. Plain and simple
I would like to imagine that someone will read this and then look through my past posts and try to figure out what drove me to this point, but nobody will. Or that they will look through my badges and wonder what kind of person I am, but nobody will. What will probably happen is that as you are reading this if you even did, you will think "well there goes another pussy that couldn't take it. Good riddance."
Nobody cares anymore, maybe they never did, either way idealists like myself can't exist in an environment where nobody cares. So goodbye. Ill stick around for ZP and Movie Bob, but I'll never post again. In conclusion I am leaving because Posing is no longer a positive and uplifting experience, because the few times I get a positive/encouraging response are overwhelmed by all the times I get ignored/ridiculed, and because I have come to believe that the vast majority of you no longer care enough to look for the person behind the monitor.
tl;dr
This was for me, not for you, respond if you like I won't read it. Goodbye escapist forums, I won't miss you. The last interaction I will have with you is when the mods delete this thread. This will be my 129th post. To all the other idealists out there (you know who you are) Stay strong, and never stop caring or hoping. Now I'll sat it one last time... Goodbye.
