It's actually really wierd and ironic that I just found this thread, because I'm having a particularly, really horrible day today, even for a moody 15 year old in high school. I woke up and went through school, which wasn't that bad, but since we have no school tomorrow my teachers are loading us up with homework to keep us busy from playing Gears 2. Speaking of which, I have barely gotten to play since I've been really busy lately. Been really busy since school started, and for some reason today was the day I've just about finally decided to drop out of this Science Research Program I'm doing. It's probably because I'm in an advanced science course and advanced English and unlike many of my peers I actually do my homework, but I've been feeling pretty overwhelmed and I think I'll drop out of this before it gets even worse. Note that this isn't just a class, it's an actual scientific school program you do throughout high school and you do actual work and go work with actual professors and write papers and get college credits and shit...but I don't think I can do it. So, yeah, I feel like a failure. And now I've wasted all the work I already did in it. Sucks.
Now, besides that, and thinking how much it'll suck when I have to go tell my teacher and everyone that I'm quitting, I also have a doctor's appointment in about 2 hours. Besides the work and wanting to play Gears, of course. And I feel horrible because I just got overwhelmed with some wierd nausea and stomach pains and had a sort of diarrhea experience and I still feel horrible and I can't believe I just wrote that but I'm just going to keep typing and forget about it (I already had to pause too long to figure out how to spell diarrhea). I hope I'm not getting (another) stomach virus, my mom thinks and I agree that it's because of all the stress I'm putting on myself and being overwhelmed and nervous about the doctor and all that...my mind really controls my body and it sucks. And I'm not even (consciously) nervous about the doctor!
So yeah, now I have shitloads of work to do, a doctor's appointment (why can't I just check myself for testicular cancer?) and a science program to drop out of. I doubt anyone's reading any of this, and I really hope you don't, if you're thinking about it don't do it, and if you already did then why? WHY? but writing it down does maybe make me feel alittle better. I guess. I would say my life sucks but being a teenager no one will take me seriously and I like to think I'm smart enough to realize that things will get better. They'd better.
PS: Did I mention my dog who's had cancer for a few years is about on the verge of dying? My parents are waiting for her to get weak enough for us to put her down, it'll probably be any day now. Atleast that's a valid complaint.