How's life recently for you?

[Headsprouter]

1. Applied for course relevant to my interests that begins in September. Hopefully I'll be consistently doing something next year, that way.

2. Kicked off of jobseeker's allowance due to poor choice of words. Truthfully, I might have had en excuse for only having applied for one job that couple weeks. God forbid I say I might have been a bit lazy. Sadly, I did.

3. Applied for moar jerbs, anyway!

4. Appeal to get back on jerbseekers, waiting for more info.

5. Manning my mum's work while she's on a course in the meantime.

6. Bad day, today. Mind went to a dark place. Wrote a short story about it, though. Feeling better.

Overall, nope, still no idea where all of this aimless nonsense is headed.

 

[Parasondox]

Fairly great to be honest. Was told today that my interview yesterday was successful and I GOT THE JOB!!!

Now I can stop complaining about the government treating me like crap to how much my job sucks. British complaining at its best

Nah I am messing, I can't wait and finally will get money to sort a lot of stuff out and get back on track. Being unemployed can be really depressing.

 

[Armadox]

If I had to complain right now about one thing it's that I feel like I can never go home. To the city where my family is, that I grew in. It's a big city and I miss it. Long story short my ex met someone there while at a family gathering and broke up with me. It was actually pretty traumatic. Broke up with me at the airport when I flew in. The whole thing was bad and chaotic. Everyone in my hometown disowned her and told me it was my home and I should always feel welcome but I don't. Not as long as she's there. It's been a couple years now and I know I should have moved on but just the thought of her physically causes me pain in my chest. I'm afraid if I actually run into her I'll just have a heart attack and die on the spot.

With few exceptions I'm reasonably happy now, but I'm too beaten down to even try and get into another relationship again and I tell myself that maybe its best that I just be alone. People try and attach themselves to me now and then, but I run away or ruin it by purposefully being a jerk.

I feel like one of those lab rats who have been shocked so many times they just kind of give up and sit in the corner being afraid of everything.

I don't really know what to do now. I'm working really hard to find that place in life where I can feel free of those feelings and be happy with myself. It's tough going of late.

I actually know how you feel, I had an ex-fiancé that decided to find another while we was living together, and then when I finally left the town and moved, she did the same damn thing to him. I haven't went back to the one town I actually cared for knowing she'd be at all my haunts with some other.. or many other people.

*shrugs* Point being, she's not hurt for your absence. She doesn't care for or against your decisions from here on out. Love sucks when it's broken that badly, but if you don't scar that over, you'll be finding yourself checking her statuses on Facebook daily and killing yourself by inches. That is a phantasm that will drive a man to the ground if left to haunt your skull to long.

It's going to be hard, man, but hang in there. One day you'll wake up, and the ache'll be less and you can finally go out and work on your needs. It's not ever going to go away, but it can be something you can use to fuel your resolve to be that much better to your next partner...

 

[Harleykin]

mr. pratchett died today. i'm sad.
other than that i couldn't complain...well ok i got bad teeth and i'm fat but guess who's fault that is. also i'm balding (i won't take responsability for that though).