I just can't do it anymore. (Quite depressing stuff here, you were warned)

[cswurt]

In the almighty words of my hero, Bender:

 

[RustlessPotato]

My father was diagnosed with cancer (lung), but he made it, so I can't really imagine what you're going through. I can't tell you what I would do in your situation, because I just don't know. There was one thing that has helped me through my depression. Watch this please http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9D05ej8u-gU (i don't know how to emb video's). It's a quote by Neil deGrasse Tyson.

Just don't give up and honour your mother by living the life she wanted for you. Take care and you can always PM if you need a random dude to talk to.

 

[Relish in Chaos]

I think you need to speak to a counsellor or go through some cognitive behavioural therapy to help deal with the grief and stress in your life. Just try to get some professional mental health advice on your situation.

But I think the best thing for you is to focus on your education and, if your mother needs help, see if a friend or member of your family is available to do it. Like someone else said, your mother won't want to feel like she's a burden on you and prevent your university chances due to her, because then her guilt will make it even worse. Obviously, that's easier said than done, and even then, stress can pile on. But you should just continue speaking to your counsellor and getting some advice, because it's absolutely horrible to suffer in depression without anyone to talk your emotions over with. It makes you hate yourself and it might even make others hate you (because humans are...well, humans).

I'm no expert on this, and I can scarcely imagine how painful that must be to have a loved one, especially your mother, suffer due to such a somewhat random disease and it feels like the walls are closing in on you. It's unfair and it sucks, but you've just got to try and work through your routine, and push those thoughts to the back of your head. Again, it's easier said than done, but...well, I hope that gives you at least some sliver of consolation.

 

[Burn2Feel]

I can't vouch for the cancer, but I know the feeling. It's tough, and you'll want to just give in to it all but just keep pushing that little harder; everything will turn out for the better in the end.
Besides, you've managed to get an offer from Cambridge based on your math skill alone! Don't let your pride take a blow for not getting an A*, keep in mind of the chance you have to be the best you possibly can be. Hell, I've retaken a year of A Levels and I can safely say that I won't get a single A (probably because I spend too much time on this, but meh, worth it).
In the end, your family can only be proud of who you are, and they always will be proud because you are who you are. No one on this Earth can ask for anything more than that.

 

[thisbymaster]

Stop thinking in terms of yourself. Think about what she would want for you. She wouldn't want to sit around and make yourself depressed. Focus and push past it, keep going and make and complete goals. I had it far harder then you by a mile. My mother had breast cancer, which after years of battles turned into lung cancer. It took this power house of a woman down to the point where she had to be carried up and down the stairs. She wavered and I was the one who took care of her throughout middle/high school. She died after 2.5 years and I felt much like yourself, depressed. I realized that sitting around and being depressed wasn't what she wanted to do with her life, and it wasn't what she wanted for me. Stand up, face your troubles, face yourself and then stride out into the world without fear or regret.

 

[ChildishLegacy]

Sadly though, in the last month, my mum has been getting worse, and very ill, even struggling to get out of bed, and it pains me to see her in that state because she is the strongest person

my grand mother had ovarian cancer which spread, she was as good as ever for about 7 years, when she got to the state described above she only lived a few months. for what its worth im sorry.

Although I really don't like to think about it I'm aware, but I wouldn't want my mother to be in a state like this for more than a few months anyway, she is really trying but I can see how hard it is for her.

 

[RaeveSpam]

I lost my father the day after my 15th birthday, 8 years ago this April. So I know it's hard, and I'd want to tell you that it's going to be better. Yes, I still cry sometime when I miss my father, and you will too, the first year or two wont be easy, but remember that people around you are understanding. If you really fear you can't keep your grades good enough for Cambridge, contact them and tell them what you're going through, and if you haven't already tell your school.

Hope some of this helps, just never give up