I need to cheer the hell up.

[Fawcks]

No, seriously. I am sitting here, at 4:22AM, awake. I wake up at 6:00AM every weekday.

I like the night, and rarely sleep, because it's the only time I have to myself.

Tomorrow I will be pre-disposed all morning, and come home just in time to eat, then I'm off to work until 11PM. My weekends, I spend at work, nine or more hours of the day.

I can't stop thinking of my ex fiance who left me, either. She left without a word about a year and a half ago, assuring me up to the day she left that she loved me and she'd be back. It was originally supposed to be a temporary thing, but she never did come back. I'm still, in the deepest parts of my mind, "Waiting" for her. It's not healthy. It's not right. It makes me depressed just thinking about it. At work I almost broke down because I couldn't get her out of my head.

Now tomorrow, and for the next week, I'll be going through the same cycle. Wake up. "School". Home. Work. Stay up all night because the idea that you have to do the same thing tomorrow terrifies you. Sleep, eventually, for 2-4 hours. Wake up. Rinse and repeat...

I hate it. I've lived like this for far too long. My fiance made it bearable, but since then... I don't have any more friends, aside from ones I talk to about games we play. Exclusively ABOUT the games we play.

I need something to distract myself. If I'm left to myself, I'm not sure what might happen.

Anything good to occupy my mind?

 

[Ziadaine_v1legacy]

Firstly, how old are you anyway?

Moving on depending on age, try and get into a group activity like a sport, a hobby or something. She obviously isn't worth it, no one who walks out on someone without talking for 18 months. Obviously it'll be hard but you deserve better then some chick who's just going to walk out.

 

[Bambi On Toast]

Jesus, I thought my life was miserable.

I've been watching ZP since the beginning, so I finally decided to join the forums. I was shocked...

There seems to be a depressing post almost every day. I know people have tragic things happen to them, but do you really want to drag us down into your misery with you?

I'm not aiming this directly at you though, your post is much more controlled and understandable. I'm mainly talking about the slightly more angsty suicidal threads.

I'm bad at giving advice, but I'll give it a shot!

Life is like... a pot noodle. You kind of know it is junk... but you are hungry so you begin to eat it anyway. You like the taste of it, but you feel guilty because there's a creeping feeling that you're killing yourself. Then you reach the bottom and you start getting all the horrible bits of... carrot and peas.. and erm, you don't like carrots and peas... OK I GIVE UP.

I'm 19, and I have a lot more to learn about life. My main hope it that I never become as depressed as you lot.

 

[DarkishFriend]

Sounds like you got the life blues. The only thing that I can only say is to try changing things. Routines are boring, safe, but boring.

 

[Svenparty]

You need to cheer up but don't feel guilty about your misery. What do you spend all this money you must be earning on? Sounds like you have gone through a difficult relationship and need to start meeting people and breaking your routine. As I always say : Life is a zoo, except the bars serve drinks. Bars you need to prop yourself up to and meet people.

 

[mikey7339]

Get a doggie! Seriously, the amount of good they do for a persons psyche is unbelievable. If you have a lot of spare time get an active breed like a German Shepherd so you will get a ton of exercise too.

 

[xcgillx2]

Except the Ex fiance you and me both But i get up at 7

 

[FilipJPhry]

Jesus, I thought my life was miserable.

I've been watching ZP since the beginning, so I finally decided to join the forums. I was shocked...

There seems to be a depressing post almost every day. I know people have tragic things happen to them, but do you really want to drag us down into your misery with you?

I'm not aiming this directly at you though, your post is much more controlled and understandable. I'm mainly talking about the slightly more angsty suicidal threads.

Yeah, I've noticed that too. I'd have thought that the escapist forums would be filled with nice stuff, and some posts are from people who are depressed and vent out their frustration by telling us their problems, but I'm more than willing to help.

Except the Ex fiance you and me both But i get up at 7

Seriously!!

OT: And this goes to xcgilx2 as well. First of all, how old are you?
If you are between the ages of 14-19, cheer up. Once high school is done, a metaphorical universe opens for you. You will have a good life if you look at it through optimistic eyes. Avoid cynicism! You think your life is shit? Compare your life to someone living in a slum or the streets. Be grateful that you have a house and loving parents. Speaking of parents, tell them your damn problems! They will help.

Fawcks: Go work out. Seriously, no joke. It helps. You need to find motivation, though. If you feel any anger or hatred for your ex fiancee, use that to pump yourself up at the gym. Join a martial arts club: Kickboxing, tae kwon do, anything. Lets you vent out your frustration on people! A work out friend is also a good motivator. No friends? Ask a relative. Shy around gyms maybe? Buy or download a workout video like P90X or something. A pet dog can to be your greatest workout asset. Get a small sized one, like a chihuahua or pug. Take it out for walks on a regular basis. Also, take a picture of yourself before and after, maybe 2 months. It helps.

Those friends you have gaming discussions with? Ask them about anything else besides games. I'm %90 sure they'd be willing to talk about anything else. You have a common interest, so join up for multiplayer. Give them your Steam/XBL/PSN account. When you guys are chatting: tell jokes, mess around, not taking the game seriously. BTW, this is how I met my last now-ex-girlfriend. If you have ANY interests besides gaming, this would be the time to bring that up.

Getting over your fiancee will be a huge obstacle. A surprisingly good way to get over someone is through sex. Yep, Whoo-hoo time. Since you were already engaged once before, I'd take it you're not ugly. Go out! You'll need some help, and you said you have social problems. Ask a relative if they want to go to a bar to find women or something. Don't need to drink either. Just ask a pretty girl if you'd like to buy them a drink and have a talk. Hell, just talking to a girl might boost your confidence.

Finally, your job. You feel like this has become a rut and find yourself thinking "Is this what I'm doing for the rest of my life?". I'm assuming you graduated from college or at least high school. Jobs are hard but fun to find. If you have an account on a job website, look up what jobs seem interesting, but do more research on it. If it hits your criteria of WANTS, not NEEDS, it would at least make your job more interesting.

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