Yes I do. My "real human name" has never formed the core of my identity, because there have always been so many other people around me who share it (seriously, we're talking five girls with the same name in a class of 30ish), so the name alone has never been enough to distinguish me from others. Hence the appeal of coming up with a name that was uniquely mine (yes, I was a teenager when I came up with it, and I no longer feel the same desperate need to be "unique"). And it's not about cutting myself off from humanity or my human identity - note how much thought I put into creating a name that's linked to my real name in terms of appearance/sound/meaning. As I said in another post, think of it as me customising or expanding upon my real name.CloudAtlas said:I want to ask you an honest, non-judgmental question: Do you, as a human being, genuinely feel more connected to a fictional name that is not human, decidedly not human, than to your actual human name?
The other thing to bear in mind is that, in my mind, the name has become much more than just an Elvish name. I guess you could say it's the name of my heroic alter ego, and as such it's linked to all the (human!) qualities I aspire to: justice, strength, selfless loyalty etc. I just don't get that from Emma.
And sure it's fictional, but so are most nicknames so I don't really see why that's an issue.
I completely agree with you about how beautifully Tolkien writes about the human condition. And yeah, I think it just comes down to experiencing the books differently, as I've just never had any difficulty identifying with the Elves myself. Yes, they're different but they're certainly not perfect, though admittedly they can come across that way in LOTR. The Silmarillion and the other History of Middle Earth texts, on the other hand...snippy snip
Oh, and I could point out that entire human cultures in Tolkien's books use (Sindarin) Elvish names. Numenor for example, and Gondor, including wonderfully human characters like Boromir and Faramir.
I'm well aware of those points, I have been living with the name for the last 22 years after allAnyway, I think Emma is a beautiful name. It has a nice sound, it's short, you won't have to explain the spelling to anyone, and nobody will ever have any troubles with it, not even abroad.