"I'm An Asshole"

[Colour Scientist]

I had some time to myself today and I was thinking about places I'd gone and people I'd met when I was younger (about ten or so) and a particularly fond memory came back of my time in what was basically a summer camp came back to me.

Throughout all this I also remembered a girl there who I had completely forgotten about. She was about the same age as me, really friendly and I was a total asshole towards her. We had to eat together, she was a little on the chubby side, and I used to make quite snide comments about her weight. It probably sprang from my own insecurities at the time but I look back now and feel so ashamed. I honestly want nothing more than to apologise to her although, maybe I don't deserve to ease my conscience over it.

Looking back on it now I can't believe that I would be that horrible to someone else for no reason.

So, what about you? Have you ever looked back on a moment and realised that you had been a dick over something or unnecessarily cruel? Moments that made you think "Wow, I am an asshole".

 

[Redlin5_v1legacy]

I remember once just ditching a friend who had a wasp nest fall on him when I was twelve. In my defense, I stepped on a wasp nest when I was four and still feel the effects of that massive phobia. Still, now that I think of it, I was a jerk for not even looking back. I just ran straight home.

Thankfully he forgave me.

 

[neonsword13-ops]

I told my mother to "Shut Up!" when she told me I had to finish my fish before I could have more Orange Juice.

I was 6. It still haunts me to this day.

 

[Fiz_The_Toaster]

I was mean to a girl in my elementary school and really for no reason. I was just as miserable as she was and instead of banding together I made snide remarks directed towards her. I never saw her again now that I think about it. I feel like total shit for being such a ***** towards her, and I would love to apologize for it and let her punch me in the mouth for it.

 

[emeraldrafael]

Oh im always a dick. like last night, my room mate asked me to borrow a fork and I just looked at him and said he wasnt going to give it back. Of course Im usually humorous when Im a dick.

though I guess my best moment of being a dick was my friend said he could hop from a moving car onto the trees and grab the branch. So i drove the car.

you know, instead of the rational people who would tell their friend, "hey, maybe yo shouldnt".

 

[Mr Thin]

Yes! And I mentioned it in a different thread. But because you asked so nicely, I'll put it here as well.

During the early years of high school, I used to spend most of my lunch breaks in the library. There was a girl who sometimes spoke to me. I was more interested in reading, so I was quite rude to her, and she left. I regret this for three reasons:

a) I was unnecessarily rude, which isn't like me at all;
b) It was a girl, and I knew few enough of those as it was;
c) I lost a potential friend, and I had few enough of those as it was.

I still recall it from time to time, and flush with shame.

Also:

I told my mother to "Shut Up!" when she told me I had to finish my fish before I could have more Orange Juice.

I was 6. It still haunts me to this day.

I once told my mother to go to hell when she asked me to clean up my room.

The shame. THE SHAME! IT STILL BURNS WITHIN!

 

[Sjakie]

hmmmm, insecure shit aside: nope

Don't look at my avatar or i'll release the hounds.

 

[Ulquiorra4sama]

Several times.

Being an asshole as a child and then looking back on it afterwards is what's made me pretty introverted now. I guess i'm just afraid to seem like an asshole to people.

 

[OmniscientOstrich]

Basically in my entire time at primary school (that ends when you're 11, basically elementary for you yanks). I was an asshole, a real obnoxious little shit. Some of the things I did include putting 2 of my friends in the hospital; putting one in a neckbrace and the other in a concussion, pushing a girl against a wall and making her head bleed, spitting at a teachers face, skyving off from classes, being recalcitrant and unco-operative with teachers, I was too lazy to bother with some of the most rudimentary of tasks (while still coming out with good grades) and picking on kids out of peer-pressure to gain acceptance and approval from the older kids. And generally being a vociferous, hot-headed, belligerent, immature, inflammatory, indolent, unlikable prick. I'm really glad I'm not that guy anymore, I suppose I was just a kid and therefore increadibly thick, but I have matured quite a bit since then and looking back I do feel guilty for all of the shit I gave people. I really was an asshole.

 

[UltraXan]

Yes, at the beginning of the summer, I looked at myself in the mirror and realized that I had to shave really bad because I thought I looked like an asshole.

But in all seriousness, I probably do, I just don't remember them right now.

 

[Blow_Pop]

Yeah most of the time when we let me outside of the house without a handler

ok only half kidding



don't need a handler though if I have to interact with others apart from a cashier then it helps to have my best mate around to stop me from being a ***** just because i have to be out of my room

 

[tobi the good boy]

Aye, I know the feeling Mr OP, When I was young I was friends with a lovely girl who was nothing but nice to me. But I remember when we were playing together some other boys made fun of me being friends with a girl. From that moment on I was always trying to distance myself from her and pretty much, like a complete asshole, ended up abandoning her when all she wanted to do was be my friend. I wish I could meet her and apologise, I know it wouldn't change anything because it was so long ago, but It has taught me to never give a fuck about what others think cause it could ruin something great.

 

[FernandoV]

Let's see: In elementary I made fun of an Indian girl and made her cry on a regular basis, called another girl trash everyday, and constantly reminded kids that due to my socio-economic situation I was likely going to be more successful than them.

In middle school I regularly called my friend a slut and picked on all the black, dominican, and mexican kids in my school.

In high school (currently) I remind people that due to my socio-economic situation I am likely going to be more successful than them. Snap at people for asking questions in class, etc etc etc, there's a lot of shit.

But I'm pretty okay with it.

 

[Rawne1980]

Basically from the age of 9 up until 24 I was a dick.

Not going to go into what i've got up to, if someone telling their mum to "shut up" is deemed as bad or mocking an overweight person then i'd be looked at as Satan incarnate.

 

[josemlopes]

We are all assholes

 

[Azure-Supernova]

This is where I really fall apart. My mother bought me Spiderman 3 (the movie, the game) for the Wii for my 15th or 16th birthday. My mother isn't one of those parents that buys any game, she knows me pretty well and at the time I was into Spiderman and my Wii, so logically it was the perfect present.

Except I hated the game. First of all when I unwrapped it and then removed the plastic film there was no disc (she drove to Tescos that morning with her reciept and demanded a new copy) and then when I finally did play it I was forced to put on a fake smile and waggle with false enthusiasm as I 'slung webs' with the Wii remote and nunchuck. I traded it in a week later and saved the GameStation credit to buy Resident Evil Umbrella Chronicles later that year. It sounds really stupid now I've explained it, but the moment I turned over Spiderman 3, a birthday present my mother had bought safely in the knowledge of her son's love for Spiderman and his Wii, for a mere £17.50 in GameStation credit I felt like the biggest arsehole on Earth.

I still haven't had the heart to tell her that I didn't like the game, nor that I traded it in. Though I'm sure she wouldn't care...

 

[Irridium]

Yep, children are assholes. And don't realize it until they're older.

Did quite a few things as a kid that I hate myself for. I was actually part of a group that bullied a kid. Right after I felt really, really bad. Fuck I still feel bad, even though I apologized to him and he forgave me. Can't believe I did that, just despicable.

Everything else is the usual rebellious bullshit that I did for no damn reason. Seriously, I can't remember why I did all the things I did, and it really pisses me off that I was such an annoying prick for no good reason. Wasn't anything that bad, mind you, but still would have been better if I never did the stuff.

 

[Terminate421]

I stole snacks from my elementary school when I shouldn't have, I was 6.

Also I dropped a kid on his head, for no reason. (He called my hat gay). I still question how lucky I am that he didn't break his neck or get a concussion or something else serious happen.

 

[Kuroneko97]

The first time I made fun of someone for being fat, I felt my humanity drop just a bit.

I have so many instances of being an asshole, but that's the one that truly made me feel inhuman.