It was a bit of a paradox really, something that just proved to me that I'll never understand females.
We were walking around the town of a saturday afternoon, spending time together and window shopping (by her request). A subject we talked about was how I apparently don't share enough of my feelings with her, because I don't tell her all the details of my dreams and what I think they mean etc etc. So later, after we're at a beach, sitting in the sand in a out-of-the-way spot and no others in hearing range I begin to talk to her. I mention some of the fears I have and some personal hopes and goals for the future.
Apparently, I suddenly wasn't masculine enough and had somehow gravely wounded her when I said that I someday wish to have kids of my own. She just sat up and began to briskly walk away. I catch up, trying to see if somethings happened or what she was suddenly about. She was nearly in tears, saying stuff like' Don't you dare hold my hand after that. Do you think I want to walk home with you after you said that?'
I had no idea at the time of what precisely I had said to upset her so.
Months later, after we were no longer together (as she ditched me for my best friend as I was about to propose her) I found out that she absolutely detests the idea of getting pregnant and only children of her own she want's to have would be adopted.
Sp yeah, I should have been able to apparently read her thoughts on the subject and not mention anything of it, instead choosing to keep my feelings and thoughts inside me and piss her off that way.
One of these 'Damned if you don't, twice damned if you do' situations.
Later, once the pain of not being togerther with her had passed somewhat I realized just how differing our stances were to some basic questions of marriage, family and love. After that I actually felt glad she had dumbed me before I could propose her, because there is no way we could have been truly happy in marriage with eachother without one of us radically changing their attitude. Hindsight is 20/20, but in this case things ultimately worked out for the better - for me at least.
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