okay, what i'm going to say here is going to be controversial. it's going to make some people mad. it goes against everything i believe in, and fills me with self-loathing. however, i'm going to stand against my own comfort and identity and be honest about my observations. i will attempt to be fair, and try to explain in detail as much as i can to prevent anyone being able to cry foul. let me be clear here: I HATE RACISM. nobody is above anyone else. HOWEVER, through social and societal issues and pressures, certain patterns emerge that when viewed attempted to be viewed objectively, can make you reassess yourself. Luckily I always found myself landing on the reasonable side of the fence, however scarred. Enough Pussyfooting, these are my true stories and observations...
1.While working in a restuarant on the outskirts of my home-city of Harrisburg, Pennsylvania, it becomes hard not to notice the emergent patterns. I will start by saying that ANY RACE OR CLASS can be either a good or bad customer, and i've seen every combination of these factors imaginable. You try to be fair, but still... there are things that you can't help but notice. If a server gets a shitty tip, or no tip at all, the offending party was generally black. That's not to say that White people didn't pull the same shit, because they did, but statistically, it was predominatly the black customers. And not only that, the attitude towards their server was generally more rude. If you've ever been in this kind of scenario, you know that even the black servers don't want to get sat with the black customers, because experience has taught them as much. Also, anyone who has worked in a restuarant can tell you that the people who come in 5 minutes before close are the worst type of people. And in my experience, well over 3/4 of that customer were inner city black people.
2. When it comes to respecting women i've had more problems with black guys being overtly crude to my fiancee than white men. That's not to say that white men don't hit on her too, she's sexy as hell, so I expect that. But the attitude and approach behind it is generally more respectful than when a black guy is hitting on her. Two examples: While she and I were running the merch table for a friend's band, I had to use the bathroom. While i was gone, a kid came over and said "your boyfriend is really lucky, you're cute." presumably to hope to hear "oh he's not my boyfriend" or something along those lines. when she just awkwardly responded "uhh, thanks...?" he got the point and left. Example two; while at her job, a black guy came in and asked her to get something from a high shelf behind her. As she did he very vocally said "daaaamn girl, you got a real nice ass!" and proceeded to have her put that item back up there and act like he was interested in another type of the same product from that shelf. after doing this 3 or 4 times, he purchased nothing, but commented on her chest tattoo, asked to see it (which goes fairly low, and it's obvious when you look at it that showing more of it would be innappropriate) and then asked for her number. when she said she had a boyfriend, his response was "that doesn't mean i can't get your number." these types of things happen frequently.
3.When it comes to violence I've been in fights with people out of different races and backgrounds, and in fact the group me and friends fought with the most were the local Nazi shitbags. (KSS, Keystone State Skinheads). However, these fights were always two groups fighting for their ideals and principles. Fighting for what they believed in. I've also been jumped quite a few times, by the groups of wanna-be hood black kids. They didn't jump me because of our principles, they didn't jump me because we didn't get along. The first time I was jumped was in 8th grade by a kid who i had grown up with and was cool with until that year when he felt the need and pressure to prove himself. So he ran up behind me and i was walking down a hill shortcut path and shoved me to the bottom, where he and 4 of his new friends ran down and started stomping me. I grabbed one by the leg and dropped him then rolled away, picked up my skateboard and prepared to swing, at which point, one of the kids lifted up his shirt to show the pistol he had tucked into his pants. Me and the kid I knew were in 8th grade, the others between there and 16 i'd say. So I just walked away as they all laughed and called me a pussy and a fag, because I wouldn't fight in an unfair fight based on nothing at all.
So what am I saying?Now, as i've always been an anti-racist, anti-sexist, anti-homophobic, anti-douchebag kind of person, as I got older and experienced more and more of this, as I fought against the reality around me, it became impossible not to admit that there was some validity to the issues racist people bring up about black people. I never allowed it to sour me though, as I still approach every person of every race with the same respect until I'm given a reason not to. But I also cannot deny that the statistics prove that more often than other groups, it's a black person that is doing something to lose my respect.
But who's fault is it? I'm always an advocate for personal responsibility, however there is more going on there than individuals making choices. The American system was built from the ground up based on the premise that White Anglo Saxon Protestant Males were the superior people. It was only 60-70 years ago that black people were openly hated and discrimenated against. It was only 130 years ago that black people were literally the property of white people, and then suddenly thrown out into the world with no prospects or education, with little hope. And from that point for the majority of the next century, they were still treated as lesser people. And it's a vicious cycle. To quote Everlast "you know where it ends, well it usually depends on where you start." and that is so true. it's been shown that people born into poverty are more likely to resort to a life of crime and drug use than those born into a more comfortable situation. And because of the actions of the government in the past, the lower class and inner city is generally black. (but it's worth noting that the people of all races in that economic start are likely to end up in the same position, but again, there's more black people starting there, so there's gonna be more black people ending there.)
But why isn't progress being made? I strongly believe that "black" media is operated primarily for the purpose of keeping black people oppressed and ignorant. One of the most intelligent and important shows on television, The Boondocks, has attempted to address this issue and has hopefully opened some eyes along the way, while hiding it's messages behind entertainment. If you've never watched it, do so, and you'll see what I mean. Black popular culture seems to be for the purpose of motivating it's customers to buy useless shit like rims and necklaces, and whatever other useless materialistic shit they can trick people into buying for the sake of "cred" on this topic, i feel it is important to link this video. this is exactly what I'm referring to.
tl;dr=i won't bother. what i said carries too much weight to be summed up. if you can't bother to read something important, your input is unnecessary.
captcha: push on. it was a truly inspiring message as i wrote this, because i frequently got the urge to just stop, for fear of people not understanding what i was trying to say, or just assuming me to be an ignorant bigot from skimming the post. also an important message i would like to relay to the intelligent black community and it's voices like Aaron McGruder who are attempting to rise from a hard past and rise through difficult present racial-identity.
okay... deep breath, here goes... gonna post...