WALL OF TEXT AHOY
The call came through early this afternoon, it wasn't one i was expecting but i should have been dreading it's arrival.
"The University sent a letter, it says because you failed a module in a re-take year you don't get another shot at it and regardless of any other results you'll be off the course by summer"
I had been in a good mood up until those moments, the words struck me dumb, occasionally saying 'right' or 'yup' to let my mother know i was still listening as she went over the details of the letter. My whole world was crumbling, my lower lip was trembling as i grasped with the reality of the situation.
Thoughts springing up
'don't cry you're on the phone'
'don't cry she hasn't finished speaking'
'don't cry YOU'RE IN PUBLIC'
'what do i do?'
'what do i say?'
"erm, i don't know"
"i'll email them"
"call me back at about 6 or 7"
I hung up the phone, put it down calmly, picked up the towel from my lap and buried my face in it.
Basically i'm lazy and can't get motivated to do any work for my course so i've failed this year of university for the second time. I'm 99% sure that my parents won't pay my rent for more years of failing uni regardless of whether the uni will have me back or not. I've completely fucked this up and the only person to blame is me.
Stupid useless me.
So that's it, laugh at me, cry with me, whatever, it doesn't matter. I just wanted to put this out somewhere without making an enormous fuss in front of people i'll actually have to talk to in the near future.
The call came through early this afternoon, it wasn't one i was expecting but i should have been dreading it's arrival.
"The University sent a letter, it says because you failed a module in a re-take year you don't get another shot at it and regardless of any other results you'll be off the course by summer"
I had been in a good mood up until those moments, the words struck me dumb, occasionally saying 'right' or 'yup' to let my mother know i was still listening as she went over the details of the letter. My whole world was crumbling, my lower lip was trembling as i grasped with the reality of the situation.
Thoughts springing up
'don't cry you're on the phone'
'don't cry she hasn't finished speaking'
'don't cry YOU'RE IN PUBLIC'
'what do i do?'
'what do i say?'
"erm, i don't know"
"i'll email them"
"call me back at about 6 or 7"
I hung up the phone, put it down calmly, picked up the towel from my lap and buried my face in it.
Basically i'm lazy and can't get motivated to do any work for my course so i've failed this year of university for the second time. I'm 99% sure that my parents won't pay my rent for more years of failing uni regardless of whether the uni will have me back or not. I've completely fucked this up and the only person to blame is me.
Stupid useless me.
So that's it, laugh at me, cry with me, whatever, it doesn't matter. I just wanted to put this out somewhere without making an enormous fuss in front of people i'll actually have to talk to in the near future.
