You fool! You were winning! XDsteeple said:well this moves slower then a snail on a turtles back
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well, do you have a long-term goal or dream? something you always wanted to do (like a certain career choice or something)? because long term goals can help motivate...The Clown said:My apathy is getting ridiculous among other things, and I can't motivate myself to do anything that would possibly make me happy. Even though I want to do things and know I should I just don't, there's a part of my mind which niggles at me and tells me not to do anything and that it's my fault, the only things it allows me to do without niggling are things I know won't benefit me in the long run. I have self analysed myself quite severely and from what I can understand t he part of me which niggles is very illogical and doesn't really know what it's doing other than it's making me dig myself into a depressive hole, I've searched and thought for a while and I still don't know why it does it, maybe out of fear of leaving friends or something... I don't know, all I know is if I don't get it sorted I'll end up dead somewhere in a gutter.
I have been seeing one for a while, and yes I had long term goals, but that part of me just tells me I'll never achieve them and tat I wouldn't be happy even if I did. I am also on medication which still isn't having any effect.steeple said:well, do you have a long-term goal or dream? something you always wanted to do (like a certain career choice or something)? because long term goals can help motivate...The Clown said:My apathy is getting ridiculous among other things, and I can't motivate myself to do anything that would possibly make me happy. Even though I want to do things and know I should I just don't, there's a part of my mind which niggles at me and tells me not to do anything and that it's my fault, the only things it allows me to do without niggling are things I know won't benefit me in the long run. I have self analysed myself quite severely and from what I can understand t he part of me which niggles is very illogical and doesn't really know what it's doing other than it's making me dig myself into a depressive hole, I've searched and thought for a while and I still don't know why it does it, maybe out of fear of leaving friends or something... I don't know, all I know is if I don't get it sorted I'll end up dead somewhere in a gutter.
also, it really sounds like you could go speak to a psychiatrist about it.
I'm not saying this in a bad way, but it justs sounds like something that talking with a person who understands these things can really benifit you (as long as you dont feed them bullshit, like I did when I was younger...)
I know its easier said then done, but you need to convince yourself that there's no reason why you can't achieve them, as long as you try. also, I'm guessing your goals are in a field you're really interested in, so thinking in the lines of "just trying to get there should be enough" could be an improvement...The Clown said:I have been seeing one for a while, and yes I had long term goals, but that part of me just tells me I'll never achieve them and tat I wouldn't be happy even if I did. I am also on medication which still isn't having any effect.