Hello Escapists. So, I got the interview for a job I REALLY want: campus security at my Uni. It's my second time applying - first time was about eight months ago, and I was just too nervous and inexperienced during the interview (it was my first job interview, and I didn't practice or prepare myself for it at all beforehand), as I was told today during this one.
This time, though, things went perfect - I talked to some friends, had a several hour conversation with a local judge on what to expect and what I should think about in regards to answers, and I don't believe I have ever been this confident before in my life, to be honest. By the end of the interview, it was actually a pretty casual affair; we were all laughing, talking about things that my job would involve - talking about what THEIR jobs involved.
Then the interview ended, and they showed me around the police station, introduced me to some of the officers. All-in-all, I think it went better than I could have possibly expected. Then I went back to a friend's dorm-room and hung out for an hour or so. But then I went over the interview, and I realized my mind had betrayed me.
One question, terribly ironically, was about a previous ethical conflict I had faced in my life and how I dealt with it. And I started off explaining how a friend had brought pills to school one day; and they weren't prescription or anything, and when I started getting a bit nosy, he said they were "caffeine pills". I had no idea, and the school was already in a bit of a "lock-down" mode, and I was PISSED, that he was going to risk getting even harsher punishments brought down on the students as a way to stop any further..
But it doesn't matter, the point is I was willing to "snitch" on him to a teacher. And I fully intended to. I went to the teacher.. and then I froze. I just couldn't do it. I wanted to, I REALLY wanted to, but I couldn't.
Fast forward to the interview: "and I went to the teacher and told him. It turned out they were essentially just sugar/caffeine pills, so he didn't get any in any real trouble - but he was pissed at me. Didn't talk to me for several weeks."
WHY!? I didn't even think about it while I said it - I didn't go into that interview intending to lie.
I'm not a liar; in fact I'm stupidly honest. First day of Uni. Army ROTC, I raised my hand and admitted I was, at that moment, medically disqualified from military service due to medication restrictions. And of course, the Sergeant promptly told me to fuck off, by way of saying "Okay, you can attend all the exercises - but you won't get any equipment, gear, or anything else, aside from verbal instruction."
I'm so pissed off and disgusted with myself; so I'm going back to the station first thing in the morning, and I'm apologizing in person to each person involved with the interview for wasting their time and being unhonest with them.
I've already decided that. But I guess.. I just need a push. I need someone else to tell me that in this situation, being honest WILL end better than letting them find out themselves via back-ground check. That I'm doing the right thing. Or hell; maybe you guys have some proof that I should just keep my stupid mouth shut.
TL;DR = I want this job. SO BADLY. And I need the money. But I'm not a liar - and I don't know why I lied to these guys. I'm going to go back tomorrow morning and tell them the truth. Worst (most likely) case, I probably don't get the job. Best case (impossible chances) - they don't get any better applicants, and feel that my honesty slightly reverses my previous lie. I've already decided to tell them - I just, apparently, need someone to tell me "Do it. Just do it."
Ugh. Maybe I'll wake up, and it has all been a terrible dream.
This time, though, things went perfect - I talked to some friends, had a several hour conversation with a local judge on what to expect and what I should think about in regards to answers, and I don't believe I have ever been this confident before in my life, to be honest. By the end of the interview, it was actually a pretty casual affair; we were all laughing, talking about things that my job would involve - talking about what THEIR jobs involved.
Then the interview ended, and they showed me around the police station, introduced me to some of the officers. All-in-all, I think it went better than I could have possibly expected. Then I went back to a friend's dorm-room and hung out for an hour or so. But then I went over the interview, and I realized my mind had betrayed me.
One question, terribly ironically, was about a previous ethical conflict I had faced in my life and how I dealt with it. And I started off explaining how a friend had brought pills to school one day; and they weren't prescription or anything, and when I started getting a bit nosy, he said they were "caffeine pills". I had no idea, and the school was already in a bit of a "lock-down" mode, and I was PISSED, that he was going to risk getting even harsher punishments brought down on the students as a way to stop any further..
But it doesn't matter, the point is I was willing to "snitch" on him to a teacher. And I fully intended to. I went to the teacher.. and then I froze. I just couldn't do it. I wanted to, I REALLY wanted to, but I couldn't.
Fast forward to the interview: "and I went to the teacher and told him. It turned out they were essentially just sugar/caffeine pills, so he didn't get any in any real trouble - but he was pissed at me. Didn't talk to me for several weeks."
WHY!? I didn't even think about it while I said it - I didn't go into that interview intending to lie.
I'm not a liar; in fact I'm stupidly honest. First day of Uni. Army ROTC, I raised my hand and admitted I was, at that moment, medically disqualified from military service due to medication restrictions. And of course, the Sergeant promptly told me to fuck off, by way of saying "Okay, you can attend all the exercises - but you won't get any equipment, gear, or anything else, aside from verbal instruction."
I'm so pissed off and disgusted with myself; so I'm going back to the station first thing in the morning, and I'm apologizing in person to each person involved with the interview for wasting their time and being unhonest with them.
I've already decided that. But I guess.. I just need a push. I need someone else to tell me that in this situation, being honest WILL end better than letting them find out themselves via back-ground check. That I'm doing the right thing. Or hell; maybe you guys have some proof that I should just keep my stupid mouth shut.
TL;DR = I want this job. SO BADLY. And I need the money. But I'm not a liar - and I don't know why I lied to these guys. I'm going to go back tomorrow morning and tell them the truth. Worst (most likely) case, I probably don't get the job. Best case (impossible chances) - they don't get any better applicants, and feel that my honesty slightly reverses my previous lie. I've already decided to tell them - I just, apparently, need someone to tell me "Do it. Just do it."
Ugh. Maybe I'll wake up, and it has all been a terrible dream.
Edit: Alright, thanks for the help guys. I obviously overreacted to what *I* felt was a big deal at the time, but I guess it's all good now.