I've never had any faith in the public schooling system. Sure, it's taught me a lot, especially about social interaction, but it never taught me to learn, to study, which should be the most important thing to learn.
Now that I'm looking at trying to get more advanced education I find myself uncapable, not because I lack the knowledge I require to understand the courses, but because I was never taught to study. I am highly intelligent, and a very quick study. I read very quickly, and I can understand new concepts very easily. I'm not saying this to brag, I'm just stating a fact. The way public schooling looks today, this seemed to serve me well in the beginning, I had a very easy time in all subjects, my teachers joked I could skip ahead several classes and not miss anything, I could ace tests without opening the class literature, and this was all great for a while.
Unfortunately, since all my teachers did was praise me, I never learned. I never learned to do homework, to study, to finish up a lot of projects. My teachers knew I could do it, and much better than most anyone else in my class, or school for that matter. I was never asked to, and I never needed to.
Now, with university and similar, I have to study, I have to finish reports, quickly, I have to prove my knowledge. Even if I can understand most of the material of the course in days, I still have to sit there for all lectures, I still have to take notes and present them, I still have to write reports, write essays, about things I've already discounted, and moved on from. I still have to do all the assignements meant to teach, to get a grade. I'm not interested in grades, I'm interested in learning, but I'm not allowed that, because I new grades for more advanced classes.
Being a quick study has become a learning disorder, in the current system. I'm stuck. I can't get a job, I can't get grades. This isn't just whining, I'm as incapable of it as someone with any other learning disorder. I'm not lazy, I'm just not wired that way. What we learn when we're very young stays with us. I was literally taught in school that I didn't have to do anything, that all I had to do was learn. Now, when learning isn't enough, when understanding isn't enough, I don't know what to do. I was never prepared for this situation. I'm currently a drop-out, with several failed classes, and slim chances of finding a job, much less a job I could do. I'm currently out of options. So much for the great public education.
One of the annoying things is that, there's no one to blame. If it was my fault, it would be good, but hell, when this would have mattered I was between 6 and 14. I was too young to understand what the consequences would be. I could blame my teachers, but they tried, and they only followed the rules they had, and they tried, at least some of them. I could try to blame the school, but it has very limited funding, and not enough resources to do anything. I could, and probably should blame my parents, but they are very unintelligent. They are unable to understand cause-and-effect, and it's not their fault they are unable to understand the consequences of their actions, or that they weren't intelligent enough to see, or fix the problem. It's not their fault, it's a genetic fluke. They've tried their best (and failed miserably, without accomplishing much) in raising me and my sister. That their best meant I had to take care of them, explain things to them, is not their fault. They're not to blame. And since I don't believe in a higher power, I can't blame God either.
Thanks for providing a place for my rant.

I know this sounds like arrogance, and pride, but honestly, it isn't. I'm past that. I don't take pride in my intelligence, I'm not responsible for it, it would be like taking pride in anything else I can't control, like that I was born with brown hair, or that the sun rises. I see a problem, one that I know will affect other people as well, and that's the more serious part. I know first-hand what will happen to them, and that their potential will be as squashed as mine. I've given up for myself, I often dream about going back, about finding a way to get the education I deserve, the kind of education that would help rather than hinder, like when you see those "super-smart" "gifted" kids on tv, and they get sent to special schools, but I know I can't. The only thing I can, at least try to, do is make sure no one else has to go through the same thing. I know people will just think I'm being a jerk trying to make myself seem smart, and that I'm just whining when I should just do something about it, believe me, I know how this sounds, and believe me when I say I really don't care if that's the case.