Paladin and Terina conversation
(P)-----
"Things don't just go from zero to fucked for no reason, what happened?"
(T)-----
"It was all my fault. We were sent after a target. 30 years, I never lost anyone on my crew. That all changed after this mission. We were to go into the target building, plant a bomb, then leave. During the afterhours of the business, when the target would be checking her records, it would go off. That should have been a cakewalk."
(P)-----
"So what went wrong?"
(T)-----
"My job was to plant the bomb and set the timer. The other 4 with me were to keep guard, 'silencing' any witnesses. But the bomb went off prematurely."
(P)-----
"that doesn't sound like it was your fault, some bombs are faulty, hell we lost a few kids in basic to a grenade with a bad detonator."
(T)-----
"I was the only survivor in the group...and I hardly got out unscathed. We failed to kill the target, and I lost 3 good friends in the blast. The other, the one closest to me...was more than merely a friend."
(P)-----
"that's rough, I know what it's like to lose friends in action, and people you care about." Paladins voice wavered when he considered Lienne again.
(T)-----
"After that, we couldn't get any more jobs. Our reputation was wrecked, just like the building. I tried for 9 years, then gave up and left to start over here. Well, I've told you my story. Let's hear yours. 'Paladin'?"
(P)-----
"Yeah, my 'daughter' gave me the name"
(T)-----
"You have a daughter?"
(P)-----
"Well, sort of, back when I flew with the Corsairs, we were tracking down a group of Asari terrorists, they believed that since Asari were the only species born with biotic abilities, they were the only ones who deserved them. We had gone through a bunch of skirmishes, they picked us off, but we managed to take out most of the organization. Eventually only the leader was left. We tracked her to a small Asari colony where she had hidden out with her family, her sister and niece. Well, she struggled as we tried to take her into custody and we were forced to shoot her. We brought the family onto our ship, my CO needed someody to question, see if there were any hold outs. When I came later to check on them, I found my CO over the Asari woman with his pants around his ankles and a bullet in her brain, he had raped her, when she struggled, he shot her, and it looked like he was heading for the little girl next."
(T)-----
"I hope you killed that bastard. No one deserves that. Not even the family of terrorists."
(P)-----
"they were innocent in the whole thing as far as we knew, worst they could have done was harboring a fugitive, and they may not have even known that much. Anyway, I lost it, shot him and grabbed the girl, I stole a shuttle and flew out of there. "She called me her 'Knight in shining armor' I said I was a regular Paladin, and the name stuck. I raised Ashala for almost a decade as my own little girl."
(T)-----
"If you don't mind me asking, what happened to her?"
(P)-----
"While I was on Ilium I got a job as a bodyguard for a diplomat for the Asari Embassy, Quitana T'Roo. She was sterile, a fact she wasn't exactly proud of, and she just fell in love with Ashala. As much as it hurt me to let her go, I knew that drifting across the galaxy with a gun was hardly the lifestyle for a little girl, so when we parted ways, Quitana adopted her. Ashala's living on the Citadel now, working with the Asari Embassy, she still keeps in touch, in fact I got a letter from her a little while ago." Paladin brought up the video message he had watched earlier and showed it to Terina.
(T)-----
She watched it, smiling softly. "You did the right thing, for everyone involved."
(P)-----
"Yeah, I keep telling myself that, still miss her though."
(T)-----
"Makes me think, what would have happened if my partner had lived."
(P)-----
"Our lifestyles aren't exactly safe, for us or those close to us. People die, and we aren't helping anyone by asking 'what could have been', as much as we might want to know."
(T)-----
"But she didn't die. At least, not right away. Maybe it would have been easier if she had."
(P)-----
"You can't keep beating yourself up, I lost someone I loved too, I almost killed myself afterwards, it took me months to reach a point where I wasn't constantly drunk. Hell it's been two years and I still think about her. I keep going because I know she would want me to, to help people, to live."
(T)-----
"Did you deliver the finishing blow on her, Paladin."
(P)-----
"I didn't get the chance, she was a Quarian, Lienne, I had helped defend a colony from "corporate interests" and they hired a bounty hunter to go after me, a real sadistic bastard named Remus. After he beat out the information on my whereabouts, he'd send me the vids of him torturing and murdering people. Eventually I put Lienne on a ship heading for the Flotilla, I thought she'd be safe there... But Remus intercepted the ship, He cut on her, bad, ripping through her environment suit, 'death by a thousand cuts'. And then he sent me the vid..."
(T)-----
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked you about it."
(P)-----
"No, it's alright, I got the bastard back. I hunted him down, I found him in a derelict cargo ship a few AU away from where I left Lienne, when I saw him, I lost my mind, literally, I blacked out, next thing I remember, the ship was a wreck around us, Remus had the knife he killed Lienne with sticking out of his skull, my biotic implant had overloaded, almost melted."
(T)-----
"I suppose we've had it rough in different ways. You had to watch her die without being able to do anything about it, and I had to deliver a mercy kill to my lover."
(P)-----
"Best we can do is keep moving" Paladin was silent after that, he didn't want to talk anymore.
(T)-----
She nodded, leaning back and holding her shotgun close by.