Muted on xbox. Can't talk to anyone anymore. Got me depressed.

[Doclector]

A couple of days ago a person I hadn't talked to before came into the party. He said about ultimate mvc3, and I simply said I heard about a month ago. Like that, he muted me. Now the only people who regularly come on xbox anymore can't hear me, because he's constantly talking over me without me knowing.

I don't even know what help I'm supposed to get. I feel like crap when I'm alone for too long. Now I only have a month before I go to uni, where I may not be able to go on xbox live, and I can't even enjoy that. I'm so f***ing sick of pricks stealing the slightest happiness I have. I'm fed up of the other friends I have on xbox who only seem to be there when they need a pick me up. I'm fed up of looking to uni and seeing three years of isolation and misery stretching out before me, but it being the only distant shot at some kind of life I have. I'm so goddamn sick of it all. I'm so tired too. There's never been any extended period in my life when things stopped being sh**. I'm tired of making jokes, pretending I'm okay to everyone but a damn screen, and sometimes pretending even then.

So yeah, I'm p***** at the moment. Sorry for being emo, but I'm at my wits end with everything.

 

[Doclector]

Please help. I just can't f***ing take it anymore. I've always been alone and I've always been up against the worst odds, I'm so damn tired of all of this. Please I think I'm just gonna get really upset or something, and I don't want anyone else to find out I'm upset.

 

[Doclector]

Was he talking about the game in general or announcing it like it was new?

He was saying like it was new. Why do you ask? I even apologised to the guy. Now he's f***ed with the last semi-"nice" days I'll ever have, and I can't even attack him for it.

 

[Emperor Platypus]

You do sound really upset....

Alright first of start seeing some kind of therapist or at least start talking to someone you trust. At times I feel exactly what you're describing here and just talking to someone is helping me a lot in untangling myself.

Second Uni is pretty cool. I think the only way you will actually end up alone whilst there is if you go in there thinking you'll be alone. You're setting yourself up too fail right from the get go as it were.

 

[Doclector]

You do sound really upset....

Alright first of start seeing some kind of therapist or at least start talking to someone you trust. At times I feel exactly what you're describing here and just talking to someone is helping me a lot in untangling myself.

Second Uni is pretty cool. I think the only way you will actually end up alone whilst there is if you go in there thinking you'll be alone. You're setting yourself up too fail right from the get go as it were.

But what's my alternative? I can't go there thinking I will have friends, because it just never works out. I need to to stop needing people.

I just went back in to the party to say my goodbyes. They didn't give a sh** about me anyway. They laughed. I just wanted them to know why I wouldn't be around anymore.

I can't go to a therapist. My parents will find out. I don't want them to know.

 

[LetalisK]

So...his talking distracts you when you are trying to talk? Mute him, then.

 

[Doclector]

So...his talking distracts you when you are trying to talk? Mute him, then.

No, he's muted me. He can't hear me, I can't hear him. He constantly talks, meaning I always get ignored.

 

[tharglet]

When you go to uni, the console players do seem to try and band together, so chances are you'll find a community.

If there's no xbox live access, then chances are there'll be people looking to do co-op. Keep an eye out on notice boards and stuff, you might find something. If you're feeling enthusiastic, you could arrange your own regular co-op xbox sessions.

In a community, the average person won't care about you all that much - you're just another avatar... easy come, easy go.

If I were you, I'd just leave the community quietly, and try and find another one. Yeah, there's a period of "mourning", but it's usually best to leave, go find somewhere else where you can settle, and maybe visit again at a later date.

 

[tharglet]

I need to to stop needing people.

One thing you can't really do. I have similar issues (hard for me to make friends, get paranoid that nobody likes me) and I have bad days. Usually I either distract myself, or just ride the wave through it.
For me, I tend to hang out on The Escapist's IRC and play MMOs.

 

[aba1]

So...his talking distracts you when you are trying to talk? Mute him, then.

No, he's muted me. He can't hear me, I can't hear him. He constantly talks, meaning I always get ignored.

So go play another game... complaining never got anybody anywhere you say your life is shit but lifes only as good as you make it so do somthing about it rather than sitting and complaining like your entitled or somthing.

 

[Doclector]

So...his talking distracts you when you are trying to talk? Mute him, then.

No, he's muted me. He can't hear me, I can't hear him. He constantly talks, meaning I always get ignored.

So go play another game... complaining never got anybody anywhere you say your life is shit but lifes only as good as you make it so do somthing about it rather than sitting and complaining like your entitled or somthing.

These are my friends, or were. It's not as easy to replace them as that, and besides, no one seems to speak in game chat anymore.

And entitled? I guess I am. I feel entitled for life not to treat me like s*** for once in a while, so sue me. As long as I remember things have never ever been easy for me, when most people at least get breaks from things being s***. yeah, you're just going to tell me to go get real friends like it's easy. It ain't. Everyone hates me no matter what I do. Don't think this is just one thing that I've gone emo about, I hate that assumption, it's just the straw that broke the camels back. What the hell am I supposed to do? I've tried so hard to fit in, and it never works nothing ever seems to get better. Twenty years of this crap, damn right I feel entitled to something better.

 

[Doclector]

This is Xbox Live Correct? Can't you just play with Random people? I am so confused

Barely anyone uses game chat anymore, and most of the people that do tend not to be friendly. I just want people to talk to.

 

[aba1]

So...his talking distracts you when you are trying to talk? Mute him, then.

No, he's muted me. He can't hear me, I can't hear him. He constantly talks, meaning I always get ignored.

So go play another game... complaining never got anybody anywhere you say your life is shit but lifes only as good as you make it so do somthing about it rather than sitting and complaining like your entitled or somthing.

These are my friends, or were. It's not as easy to replace them as that, and besides, no one seems to speak in game chat anymore.

And entitled? I guess I am. I feel entitled for life not to treat me like s*** for once in a while, so sue me. As long as I remember things have never ever been easy for me, when most people at least get breaks from things being s***. yeah, you're just going to tell me to go get real friends like it's easy. It ain't. Everyone hates me no matter what I do. Don't think this is just one thing that I've gone emo about, I hate that assumption, it's just the straw that broke the camels back. What the hell am I supposed to do? I've tried so hard to fit in, and it never works nothing ever seems to get better. Twenty years of this crap, damn right I feel entitled to something better.

Ok you say your life is crappy but whats so crappy about it and give better answers that my friends are jerks or my parents hate me

and if you want to make friends to play online with so badly why dont you make a thread seeing if anybody would want to add you making friends can infact be that easy.

btw if I have learned anything nobody is entitled to anything unless specified before hand specically.

 

[Doclector]

So...his talking distracts you when you are trying to talk? Mute him, then.

No, he's muted me. He can't hear me, I can't hear him. He constantly talks, meaning I always get ignored.

So go play another game... complaining never got anybody anywhere you say your life is shit but lifes only as good as you make it so do somthing about it rather than sitting and complaining like your entitled or somthing.

These are my friends, or were. It's not as easy to replace them as that, and besides, no one seems to speak in game chat anymore.

And entitled? I guess I am. I feel entitled for life not to treat me like s*** for once in a while, so sue me. As long as I remember things have never ever been easy for me, when most people at least get breaks from things being s***. yeah, you're just going to tell me to go get real friends like it's easy. It ain't. Everyone hates me no matter what I do. Don't think this is just one thing that I've gone emo about, I hate that assumption, it's just the straw that broke the camels back. What the hell am I supposed to do? I've tried so hard to fit in, and it never works nothing ever seems to get better. Twenty years of this crap, damn right I feel entitled to something better.

Ok you say your life is crappy but whats so crappy about it and give better answers that my friends are jerks or my parents hate me

and if you want to make friends to play online with so badly why dont you make a thread seeing if anybody would want to add you making friends can infact be that easy.

btw if I have learned anything nobody is entitled to anything unless specified before hand specically.

I know no one IS entitled to anything. It doesn't mean you can't feel like you should be.

My life is crap due to a childhood stolen by intense bullying, including attempts on my life, I have never had many friends for an extended period of time, no matter how hard I try. I can't get a job, I can't even get an interview. I see the brutalities of the world that everyone else finds easy to ignore. I'm still a virgin and by this point always will be. Twenty year old virgins are hardly attractive. I feel like no one understands me unless I put it into a piece of film, because I find it hard to communicate. Probably because I have aspergers, but f*** that. I hate people who use such things as an excuse. I suck because I suck, not because of some diagnosis. Worst of all, this never stops. I just have to cope alone, and I have, mostly, but dammit I'm tired. I want things to get better, but every time I have tried I have failed. I hate the fact that it all comes so easy to everyone else. The job, the girlfriend, the social life; it all seems to fall into place for everyone else. I've put in so much more effort than anyone I know and I've come up with nothing. I gave up on going out in my own town, one of my failures left me too shamed.

I know things could be worse, but like I said, it's the fact that it has never stopped for long. It's rarely gotten much better.

Make a thread? "keep a wreck company for a few weeks!" I can see that going down well.

I'm sorry if I've seemed aggressive. I am obviously not in my right mind about now. Thanks for the help.

 

[Lavi]

You do sound really upset....

Alright first of start seeing some kind of therapist or at least start talking to someone you trust. At times I feel exactly what you're describing here and just talking to someone is helping me a lot in untangling myself.

Second Uni is pretty cool. I think the only way you will actually end up alone whilst there is if you go in there thinking you'll be alone. You're setting yourself up too fail right from the get go as it were.

But what's my alternative? I can't go there thinking I will have friends, because it just never works out. I need to to stop needing people.

I just went back in to the party to say my goodbyes. They didn't give a sh** about me anyway. They laughed. I just wanted them to know why I wouldn't be around anymore.

I can't go to a therapist. My parents will find out. I don't want them to know.

Most Unis can help you get a therapist or have one at the campus. Your parents don't have to know and the therapist is basically unallowed to contact them unless you agree to it. Since you are an adult, it ain't their damn business, though this probably should be their business (depending on what they're like of course).

Looking to another post, you need to not act like Asperger's is an excuse for having difficulties. It just is what it is. You aren't it either, but you gotta recognize that it is a part of you that you need to deal. You sound a lot like a friend I have. He has Asperger's, was bullied out of schools, and has never dated, but he's got friends, is in Uni, and has a good life going on. It's not impossible. He doesn't tell a single person he has Asperger's. It is none of their damn business. It isn't an excuse, it is a reality. You gotta learn to deal, and talking to a counselor or therapist is a good way to start.

Yes, it is shitty that everyone else has got it easier, but you can make it easier for yourself. There is help out there. Seek it out and you'll come off way better than not.

Also, there are quite a few older virgins. Lots of people just don't give a crap.

 

[LT Cannibal 68]

i have a fucking brilliant solution! add me on xbl my gamertag is: LT CANNIBAL 68
My friends and i play most of the time. were waiting on space marine right now so if you're getting that we can spill blood for the blood god!