Even though i may be suffering from some anxiety or something, and I constantly belittle myself, I am very happy with my life. In college. Busy as heck. Maybe if I spent less time on this site... or something. But everything I've had in life has been great, I feel that I have grown up with a silver spoon in my mouth, but that I've realized it for what it is. I have a twin brother, how awesome is that? When I screw up in a class, he helps me out, and I return the favor. On top of that, I've always had someone to hang out with since I have him.
I'm going to be a residence assistant at my college, so I'll get 400 bucks a month and free room and board. My dad works at the college so I get free tuition, so I should be able to pass college with them paying me. No, wait, check that. There is still the board meals. My dad is offering to pay for those though since his parents paid for his.
However I'm unsure as to what to do with my life. I'm currently going for a science degree, come back for a masters in business and attempt to get a job as a manager in a hospital, but I've dreamed of games all my life and the designing of them. Though I'm trying to realize that that job is not for me, it is very, very hard to let go. Its just that I have to try to realize that the people that come out of college looking for a job in the game industry know more about the current technology and are willing to work for less. I'm worried about oversaturation, and I have to give up the ideology of what a game job actually requires, whether its design or programming, it is a job. It is not what I dream it to be.
How odd though, that for how cool free college sounds, if I were to chase that dream of being a programmer and hope to one day become a designer, my free college feels like chains. I will be bound for years under debts, and if the job fails... well, I'd be screwed.
And now I'm typing on a thread, half asleep when I should be working on an essay. Overall though, I'd say my life is pretty good. I mean, geeze, I look at people in some other countries, or heck, look at other time periods. I have nothing to complain about. Sorry if this has interupted the flow of the thread, I just felt like posting all of this.