Yes, I am right now

for the first time! The first 2 times was hormonal lust with mean girls that played me like a guitar and cut my strings. I'll just copy and paste a message I sent to my friends when I told them about my girlfriend:
Let me start by saying that I am one of the many quiet nerdy guys that has never ever been in a real relationship ever (even though I am 20) and thought I would never be in one in a million years. I am somewhat of a typical quiet, nerdy, nice guy gamer and I've noticed in the past that a lot of guys like me are single (some are fine with it, others are not).
So awhile back (months ago) I made a new friend through playing games on PSN that is female which is not that unusual since I've had and do have female friends. However, I got to know her a lot more. We chatted via PSN messaging pretty much daily after playing online. After a while, I thought I would ask if I could know her outside of PSN and asked her what name was, a very bold request. As a gamer girl, she was constantly being messaged by creepers so she has trouble trusting guys online, which is understandable. So she said she was going to be cautious but that I seem like a good guy so she would give me a chance; and to my surprise she told me her name. She is half Mexican like me and lives in Texas also so I thought that was awesome. We talked more, very casually and I earned her trust as friend and eventually was dumb enough to ask for her phone number XD and why I didn?t ask for her e-mail first is beyond me lol.
She said she would call me eventually which was awesome, but then her phone got deactivated and by the time she was going to call me she had no phone; just my luck. So to make up for lack of phone, she gave me her e-mail address and yahoo messenger ID so that we could talk online and have fun. And that?s exactly what we did! Had fun and awesome conversations since we have so much in common and we were becoming good friends with nothing else beyond that on our minds, just two good friends chatting it up. Eventually she got her phone back and she called me for the first time and it was awesome, since then we?ve talked on the phone all the time.
And again, I wasn't looking for a girlfriend or anything at all so I never had any of that stuff in my mind. And when I got to know her from talking on the phone and online, I realized she has everything I like in a girl and is extremely compatible with me.
After becoming good friends with her, I started developing romantic feelings for her over the course of a few weeks and then one day I decided I was brave enough to tell her.
I pretty much poured my heart out and confessed my love and all that stuff. What happened? She turned me down and said she didn't feel the same and wasn't ready to have a relationship. Needless to say, I was crushed and felt very sad. Why is this message about happiness when she turned me down? Well keep reading!
We remained friends like normally and I waited patiently. After turning me down she later told me she would give me a chance and that she felt there was a possibility of us being together. Hearing all that gave me hope so I kept my chin up and just acted like a normal friend around her without talking about anything more and not having ulterior motives in my mind since there was no guarantee that she would develop feelings for me. She greatly appreciated my patience and understanding.As she got to know me further, she realized she was just scared of opening up to me because she wants a good, stable relationship (which is exactly what I want). I don?t know how it happened, it was all so sudden and amazing but it turns out I am everything she loves in a guy as well and said that she loved me to

So now our relationship is coming along great and the step of meeting the parents and knowing each other?s family will soon be at hand! But the obstacles that remain are:
1) She lives far away on the other side of Texas
2) My very religious and old fashioned father who would want me to marry a devout Muslim girl even I myself am far from devout.
But I am not stupid; I plan things out and think things through. I am 20 years old and matured, so this time I am not thinking with hormones, but rather my heart and mind. So I have been seeing this clearly and know that this girl is perfect for me because she makes me happier than anything else in the world and I have never felt this happy until she came into my life
We are planning the steps ahead, and at first she will be long distance with occasional visits but eventually we will be together after each of us has done the schooling that we want. And I know it will all be worth it! I will gladly wait and so will she and I will finally be truly happy.
I am texting her as we speak telling her that I love her
