Yes. I mean, I don?t know if this sounds like a Freudian Excuse or something, but basically, I?m black and was raised in a predominantly white area. When I became a teenager, I pretty much got bullied by people I thought were my friends for ? amongst other things ? my ethnicity. At first, I thought I was just being sensitive, but when I told other people and saw their reactions to the things they were saying towards me, I realised they were dicks and just started to hang around with other people.
So? yeah, now and then, I wish I was white. Because, as you said, I presume it?d be easier. I wouldn?t be so insecure about my appearance, and I wouldn?t have to put up with certain jokes that I feel forced to just laugh along and shrug over because it?s ?banter?. I just wouldn?t even have to consciously think about my ethnicity, and think about what other people think about my ethnicity. But it?s probably just my own problem anyway. It?s not going to change, and I?m not going to bleach myself, so I guess I?ll just deal with my insecurities my own way, eventually.
That?s why I can never understand when one of my friends used to say that he wished he could be black. Because, when he said, I just blurted out, ?Bullshit; being black is shit. There are NO negative stereotypes about white people that the majority hold, so just because you think you?d instantly become some cool Jay Z-type badass doesn?t mean that?s the reality.?
I?m not sure if I?ve entirely changed my opinion since. But yeah, it seems like everyone always wants to look like someone else, unless they?re, like, a supermodel or someone that has people telling them how pretty they are all the time. I guess one thing I can be glad about is that I don?t live in the US, which seems to have a much bigger issue with race than in the UK, where I live.