Dent in my head, likely brain damage. A variety of recorded but un-labeled mental and emotional problems. In the past I've been diagnosed (incorrectly) as things like Bi-Polar, Borderline Personality, and Manic-Depressive. I have symptoms of all these things but none of them really fit, especially seeing as a lot of my problems are doubtlessly the result of damage to my brain (and honestly the only way to tell would be to cut open the top of my skull where it's dented and look, but even if they did that what would they do about it?).
As a kid I was in a lot of residential placements, and I've had numerous problems. I do things like talk to myself, pace continously, and even have bouts of paranoia, depression and extreme anxiety. I take drugs to control these tendencies and it works okay I guess.
The severity of my problems have changed over the years. I was really bad as a kid, got okay for a while as an adult (though was very wierd and did things like talk to myself and have wierd mood swings), then got pretty bad again and after being fired and finding it nearly impossible for a guy who talks to himself and has a record of periodic "attitude problems, and aberrant behavior) to find employment, I retired on disabillity with no questions due to my truckload of documentation going back to a very early age.
That's my wonderful "defect". Unlike the truely delusional I realize I have serious problems which helps to deal with them. However needless to say my life is generally far from happy. Whether it's brain damage, or my mind/thought processes were just borked from an early age, I have no idea.
Now that I've shared, anyone else want to toss it all out there for a group therepy session? (I'm frank about this kind of thing because it seems like I've told half the world already, and it's not like I really care anymore).
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