[the eternal narrative.]
[written by enigma.]
Once upon a time, a man named Robert was born. Height: Average. Weight: Unassuming. Shoe size: Nothing special. Everything about him was average...except it wasn't.
His adult life was somewhat special. He had a big house, a nice car, a well-paying job, and an enormity of books to read. So much books, in fact, that his love for literature has began to wane. Too many he has read, and thus, he has waited for the one book to replenish his age-old hobby. Maybe today will be the day, he thought.
As always, the bookstore was still there. Two levels of books to read, and he has read almost all of them. He strolls straight to the "new release" shelf, and nothing has been shipped today. Peculiar, but not enough to shake off his unimpressed feeling. Disappointed, he exits the bookstore, and heads back to work.
Next day begins. Robert wakes up. As always, he grabs a cup of coffee. As always, he reads some of the news. As always, he starts the car. As always, he drives to the bookstore first.
He knew there wouldn't be any new releases, but there's always something he might've missed. He looks at non-fiction. Fantasy. Dark humor. Romance. Horror. Young Adult. Graphic Novels. Foreign Imports. Children's (In an act of desperation). Finally, biographies was last. Each one just as bland as the last. The Biography of Ronald Reagan. The Life and Times of Lewis Carroll. An Unauthorized Biography of That One Guy Who Was In The One Movie About...Whatever. Biographies were the worst. It was the hardest to find the true gems in what seemed like a septic tank of bland unoriginal life stories. Each person's life just another bland empty life, no matter how famous they've been. The interesting bits have already been done before and better, the writing sub-par, especially the auto-biographies written by people who don't know a damn about writing.
Finally, he finds one book he hasn't read yet, and surprisingly in its unsurprising-ness, its title is the epitome of blandness. The Official Unauthorized Biography by Joseph Kessler. That was it. Who this biography was about, it didn't even say. No synopsis on the back, the cover flaps were blank. There wasn't even a description of the author on the last page. Paradoxically, the amount of mundanity crammed into one book just by looking at the cover interested him. He decided to read a few pages, and if it all ended up being shit, he would just put it down. Page one begins...
The following is a work of non-fiction. Any sort of resemblance to people - living or dead, names and locations is purely un-coincidental.
Now it's trying to be funny to him. "Ha-Ha", he muttered aloud with an expression of angry boredom.
Once upon a time, a man named Harold born. Height: Average. Weight: Unassuming. Shoe size: Nothing special. Everything about him was average...except it wasn't.
He flipped the page. Robert then looked at the page and read it.
His mother gave birth to Harold at Our Lady of Hope's hospital wherein she died giving birth to him. He spent years K through 12 kissing everybody's ass because he believed it worked on his father. His father only pretended to love him. He always blamed the little snot-nosed prick for the loss of his wife, and now he's alone, and stuck with him.
Robert dropped the book. He took a gasp of air. What on earth, he thought. A state of paranoia ensues him. He picks the book back up, and reads the next page.
Harold's father always hid his over-wrought hatred of Harold under a facade of warmth, for it was all he could do. He believed that it would be what his wife wanted. But he still kept that hatred burning inside him. She was gone now. All his fault. Too much to bear. Oh, how he missed her.
What followed was two whole pages describing some of the things the father pretended to care about. The fishing trip. The birthday parties.
The young Harold thought that his father's silence was a sign of care. He had no idea of the black fire that burned inside his father. His father did everything in his power to control this hatred. Young Harold did everything in his power to keep disillusioning that his father actually loved him.
Robert, feeling confused and angry and uneasy all at once, skimmed through everything quickly until he finally hit a crucial moment.
At 18 years of age, he was finally ready to graduate, and he was given the honors of giving a speech. "Before I begin," he proclaimed, "I'd like to start with a few words. I wouldn't have made it this far, if it hadn't been for the greatest man I'd ever known. My dad."
Everyone clapped, and the father tried to smile...but he couldn't. Too long had he endured the pain he felt. Too long had he hid his true feelings for the young boy. He just wanted to take that kid's smug face and beat it. The clapping engulfed the man, everyone thinking he loved the very thing he secretly despised.
"ENOUGH!" he finally yelled. "I'VE HAD IT!!! SHUT UP! ALL OF YOU!!!"
"Dad, what's going on--"
"YOU!!" he said in a voice that sounded like it came from a separate entity.
"IT WAS ALL YOUR FAULT!! IF IT HADN'T BEEN FOR YOU, SHE WOULDN'T HAVE DIED!!!"
"Dad..." he uttered pathetically.
"DON'T CALL ME THAT!!"
Everyone stared at him. Harold. Both of them. All of them puzzled. Unsure to feel sympathetic to one or the other.
"I'm sorry son...but I never loved you. And I never will."
He exited the room, and everyone in the ceremony was just baffled.
Harold. He whimpered pathetically. Then sobbed pathetically. Finally cried pathetically. And knelt down on his knees in surrender. Words rushed through his mind like a storm. Words like, 'Father', 'Dad', 'Guardian', and 'Papa'. They whirred in his head as he drew out those pathetic little tears, until finally...the words died down.
No.
Robert knelt in the bookstore. He felt like crying and he knew exactly why. Robert was Harold. That pathetic little boy whose father never loved him grew up into the successful but emotionally distant man you see today. Ladies and gentlemen, give a huge round of applause for Robert.
Robert then snapped. He blitzed to the cashier, paid for the book, and drove his sorry ass home. He finally entered the house. Slammed the door shut in fury, then sat on the couch trying to make sense of what just happened. He grabbed the book, and opened it up for another torturous stroll down memory lane. He flipped page, by page, until he would find something of noteworthy interest.
Page 46
...and after he had sex with her, losing his virginity for the first time, they never saw each other again. The ultimate anticlimax. The first woman he could call his lover never loved him.
Page 57
"The truth is, Robert...I never thought this relationship would work out."
"I'm sorry what?"
"I never loved you."
Page 120
Congratulations, Harold. You are now vice president of Signature Publications. Welcome to the team!
Page 267
Harold felt a perpetual sense of déjà vu when Holly broke up with him. It mirrored Stacey, which mirrored, Kourtney, which mirrored Penelope, which mirrored...his father.
Page 294
Harold stood right at eye level to the new tombstone. Father finally passed. He wished he could do that one thing in that one movie, where he could plant a seed in his grave, so that a tree would sprout from his father's corpse, but when he looked back at the urn, he realized that wouldn't work either. He opened the urn and took a good long look at the pile of ashes, and he got the strangest feeling that even the ashes of his father hated him. "Just dump me in the river you little punk" they seemed to say. "Nobody loves you. Nobody ever will."
And after that...four blank pages. The End. Nothing else happened after that moment. It was just a barrage of day in day out work attendings. Robert needed to rest. He had to lie down. It'll all make sense after some rest.
Robert woke up. Groggy and delirious, he stepped out of bed and proceeded to change and get ready. He ignored the coffee maker and didn't check his porch for the newspaper. After putting on his tie, something glimpsed his eye. He missed it for half a second but finally looked back. On his reading chair was the book. He missed at first because it didn't look like the book at first. He finally realized that it was the same book he read yesterday...but it had gotten bigger. It looked like more than 1000 pages were added.
Page 312 described his job.
Page 341 was just more of his day to day drudgery.
In fact, it was like that from Pages 295 to 437. The mundanity, the book reading, the job attending. He skimmed through everything in that allotted page frame and finally made it to Page 438.
He knew there wouldn't be any new releases, but there's always something he might've missed. He looks at non-fiction. Fantasy. Dark humor. Romance. Horror. Young Adult. Graphic Novels. Foreign Imports. Children's (In an act of desperation). Finally, biographies was last. Each one just as bland as the last. The Biography of Ronald Reagan. The Life and Times of Lewis Carroll. An Unauthorized Biography of That One Guy Who Was In The One Movie About...Whatever.
This was exactly what happened yesterday, in an amount of frightening detail.
Page one begins...
The following is a work of non-fiction. Any sort of resemblance to people - living or dead, names and locations is purely un-coincidental.
Now it's trying to be funny to him. "Ha-Ha", he muttered aloud with an expression of angry boredom.
No..., Robert thought. Dear God, no.
Once upon a time, a man named Walter born. Height: Average. Weight: Unassuming. Shoe size: Nothing special. Everything about him was average...except it wasn't.
What the fuck? Robert thought. He flipped a page, and it went on.
Harold then looked at the page and read it. In it, Walter looked at the page and read it. In it, Gregory looked at the page and read it. In it, Fred looked at the page and read it. In it, Regis looked at the page and read it. In it, Edward looked at the page and read it. In it, Alan looked at the page and read it. In it, Timothy looked at the page and read it. In it, William looked at the page and read it. In it, Jim looked at the page and read it. In it, Morty looked at the page and read it.
It went on and on like a mirror looking into its own reflection.
For how long? Robert skimmed through as many pages as he could. And the book didn't end. Page after page after page was a new name looking into the page within a page within a page within a page within a...
He began to notice something. As he was looking more and more into the book, it got heavier. It was getting bigger. Right before his very eyes. He's frightened now. More than he's ever been his whole life. He's experiencing something that wasn't written by human hands. He needs to find out what is happening. He must find Joseph Kessler.
At the bookstore, he quickly looks through the database, and much to his surprise, there were no authors named Joseph Kessler. He was wasting his time. He looked at the Biography shelf and there were no other copies. For all he knew, there weren't any other copies. For all he knew, maybe it was all just a groggy dream. He had to get a grip on his sanity. Going to work will do the trick.
Back at the Signature Publications building, Robert quickly went up the elevator and onto the 8th floor. Just act natural, he thought. Say hello.
"Hello, Dave," he said.
"Hello, Harold."
Robert stopped dead in his tracks. Did he say what he thought he said?
"What did you call me?"
"Oh yeah, right, you hate it when people call you that. What was your nickname again? Uh...I think it was Harry or something. Am I correct?"
This had to be some sick joke, he thought.
Are you feeling alright, Walter? You look kinda sick.
Harold then grabbed Dave by the collar and proceeded yelling at him. "WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF A JOKE IS THIS DAVE? I'M SICK OF THIS SHIT! YOU HEAR ME!"
"Jesus, Rob!" Dave exclaimed. "You don't have to act like a dick all the time, I only got your name wrong.
Dennis saw that everyone was staring at him now. The same way they stared at him during his graduation.
Robert stormed out the building, and turned on his cell phone. He had to make this one call, just to make sure. He dialed the number. It was Stacey's. Surely she'd be there for him, at least for now.
"Hello?" he said through the phone's mic.
"Jesus Christ, Dennis this better be important 'cause you just interrupted my nap.
Robert grew silent.
"Hello?...Damnit, Kenneth are you even there?"
He quickly hung up. His own sanity began to tear away at him. He realized he can trust no one but himself. He had to shut off the niggling doubts that what was going on around him, was all part of his imagination because it wasn't. He read those pages, he felt the book enlarging itself, he heard everyone calling him Walter.
Harold had no choice but to do everything in his power to find Joseph Kessler.
After entering the car, he headed to his first destination: The bookstore. Hurriedly, he zipped through traffic at dizzying speeds. He didn't care about the speed limit this time. All Harold could think about was finding the truth.
"I'm sorry sir, but for the hundredth time, there are no authors under the name of Joseph Kessler," the information desk man said.
"Please, I need to find this man," urged Walter.
"Look, I'm not the right person for this shit. If you really want to find this guy, look it up on Google, or ask for some records or something, I don't know. I really don't have time for this."
His patience was wearing thin, but the man was right. He had to look somewhere else. Quickly he sprinted past the door, and out onto the parking lot. Dennis struggled to get the key from his pocket, and when he finally obtained it, he tried starting the car. Nothing happened. The car wouldn't move. The engine didn't do a damn thing.
Kenneth yelled. He screamed louder than any time he could ever remember. This couldn't happen! Not now! He had no time to waste.
Walter then decidedly just got out of the car, and ran there. He didn't stop for a bus, or a cab. He just knew that something would happen that would try and stop him. It'd be safer to just run there. The cars were too dangerous.
No. I can't let him get away. He knows too much. He's beginning to recognize what's happening. I need to stop him...but I can't kill him. God damnit what should I do...must be something. Anything that'll slow him down.........yes. That's it. I'll use this. It'll work perfectly. He will not escape. I need him. Just have to type this down...
Everything was just a blur now, almost like being on acid. The blurs kept getting stronger and stronger. Nothing looked the same anymore. People were just moving splotches of color. Cars looked like indistinguishable zipping shadows. The light. Dear God, the light. The light started getting brighter and brighter. Harold couldn't stop running even if he tried. It was like being on a treadmill. If you stop, you'll end up skidding yourself on the floor until you're an unrecognizable pile of meat and bone. The blurs became more frantic. The lights got more blinding.
Suddenly, a giant light was headed towards him, only it wasn't what he thought it was. The light was from a car zooming at him.
In just five seconds, the flash dims down. Now he's in a hospital room. Couldn't think. Couldn't...move.
"Oh, thank goodness you're up. You've been mumbling to yourself for two days now."
"I...ugh....what?"
"Oh dear Lord, don't tell me you don't remember."
He says nothing.
"You were hit by a car two weeks ago, Gregory."
"nngh...no.....not.......name..."
"Jesus, you've been saying that for two days. You've been asleep for two whole days, and the entire time you kept yammering about how people kept on saying your name wrong or something."
"please.....listen.........my name.....is....."
What was his name? Who was he now? Was he Gregory? Alan? Walter? Robert? How many levels of stories deep is he? When he was Robert, was he in reality, or was he just another story??
"AUGH!!"
"Now what's the matter?"
"Voice.......so loud.................make it stop....."
He was a quick learner. Slowly but surely, he was getting a grasp of reality.
"Too loud........turn it down...........grasp of reality.......quick learner....."
But he still knew too much...
"Make it stop...........must be real.......me........what is......."
I didn't wanna have to do this...but there is no other way.
"No........don't...............beg you......."
I am truly sorry.
His mouth completely dried up, he couldn't even speak anymore. If he was lucky, he would be able to say certain vowels, and that'd be about it. His arms and legs completely crippled from the injury, he couldn't run, nor could he write what had happened to him. A vegetable who can do nothing more but share his new-found ideas with no one but himself.
The story is now finished. Hopefully, it will sell well. Hopefully, he will never recover. Hopefully, I could keep him alive.
If only...if only...
[The End.]