So background info, I am terrible at relationships, terrible at reading women and what they want/need. Now there is this girl I work with, attractive and very nice. One day we just start messaging over work chat. She sends me this song from the little mermaid in chat, I ask what that is supposed to mean and I get this:"I wanna be apart of your life Matt 
". Now, not knowing her very well, I had no idea if this was serious or not. So I am trying to contemplate my response because to me, this kind of thing had NEVER happened before, and I mean ever, a couple minutes later she says jk. Now normally when I joke with someone, I will add the JK right after to make it clear, but that's me so who knows. I did ask her face to face and she did just say she was kidding.
So eventually we start taking our lunches together and officially become friends. So yesterday, she has the duty of "floor walker" to walk around and offer assistance when asked. Well a few times when she walks by me, she casually plays with my hair, or rubs her scarf on me(which is 3 feet long but I digress). So I kinda take this as a sign. At lunch she tells me she is going out for shwarma after work, so I offer to go along and she agrees. End of the shift comes, I ask her if she still wants to go. She says not tonight. So I go home.
I cannot get this girl out of my head and it has been distracting me for 2 weeks now. I am having difficulty concentrating in schoo(part time) and work because of this. I know that I need to ask her out, but I have not done so. The reason to that is because rejection is the one thing that can hurt me really. I can't take it, I've had to much pain in the past and it's holding me back.
EDIT: Turns out I was wrong. No girl can ever like me. I just drank 2 3rds of a bottle of mixed scotch and whisky, then broke some old shit no one uses. Not suicidal or anything. Just a mix of angry drunkeness. F.M.L. As for the girl, she said some crap as to how she was bi or something. Whatever, all I read was:. ``You`re fat, no way can I go out with you.``
". Now, not knowing her very well, I had no idea if this was serious or not. So I am trying to contemplate my response because to me, this kind of thing had NEVER happened before, and I mean ever, a couple minutes later she says jk. Now normally when I joke with someone, I will add the JK right after to make it clear, but that's me so who knows. I did ask her face to face and she did just say she was kidding.So eventually we start taking our lunches together and officially become friends. So yesterday, she has the duty of "floor walker" to walk around and offer assistance when asked. Well a few times when she walks by me, she casually plays with my hair, or rubs her scarf on me(which is 3 feet long but I digress). So I kinda take this as a sign. At lunch she tells me she is going out for shwarma after work, so I offer to go along and she agrees. End of the shift comes, I ask her if she still wants to go. She says not tonight. So I go home.
I cannot get this girl out of my head and it has been distracting me for 2 weeks now. I am having difficulty concentrating in schoo(part time) and work because of this. I know that I need to ask her out, but I have not done so. The reason to that is because rejection is the one thing that can hurt me really. I can't take it, I've had to much pain in the past and it's holding me back.
EDIT: Turns out I was wrong. No girl can ever like me. I just drank 2 3rds of a bottle of mixed scotch and whisky, then broke some old shit no one uses. Not suicidal or anything. Just a mix of angry drunkeness. F.M.L. As for the girl, she said some crap as to how she was bi or something. Whatever, all I read was:. ``You`re fat, no way can I go out with you.``
