I've never done any kind of straight up self-mutilation. However, I was part of a sort of "fight-club" in high school. We'd fuck each other up pretty badly, but the rush it gave me seemed worth it. I would also punch hard surfaces a lot. Technically it was for training, the calcium deposits in the micro-fractures you create make your knuckles like brick, but I'd be lying if I said the pain wasn't cathartic.
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I started cutting when I was 15. (26 now) I recently broke a almost 3 year "clean" streak.
I hid it for awhile...Finally confessed to my grandmother, who assumed I was doing it for attention and ignored it.
I have a couple different reasons for doing it, but they're not anything I'd be comfortable discussing in a public forum.
I hid it for awhile...Finally confessed to my grandmother, who assumed I was doing it for attention and ignored it.
I have a couple different reasons for doing it, but they're not anything I'd be comfortable discussing in a public forum.
I haven't myself, nor have I known someone close to me that has, but I wouldn't knock someone for doing it. While it's obviously not the solution to any sort of problem, it is something people do deal with, so insulting them or otherwise for it seems rather counter intuitive. Kudos for managing to get past it though. <3Digi7 said:For those who haven't, what do you think when you see someone with scars or cuts? How do you feel about this topic?
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Have I hurt myself on purpose? No... but as I am not the brightest person I hurt myself quite frequently.
Self Injury is something i never understood to much but i have done some self injury involving my knuckles which are pretty badly scarred. I use to punch wall doors *Which still have holes i have yet to plaster* and more Walls. I took anger management and started to release all the stress through weight lifting, Music and Hanging out with good friends.
i do 2 things one when im thinking deeply i chew the joint where my left pointer finger meets my hand so much so now i have a large callous there that is somewhat odd to explain lol, and two sometimes to clear my head i peels the sin on my lips to taste the blood.
I used to all the time, got bullied so much in middle and high school and cutting just felt like a way to get all my emotions and stress out. When I stopped doing it for a while because I felt it was a bad habit I ended up sticking a .22 pistol to my head because I couldn't take being bullied so much. Now I don't cut, I just smoke cigarettes and drink occasionally. Guess I'm just haunted by the memories of my past.
I guess it's not completely the same but my sister was obsessed with getting skinnier. I remember her strapping belts around her stomach really tight and later learned she was also bulimic. I don't know if everyone feels this way but for her it was definitely the self loath that drove her into doing these things.
I myself have dark thoughts from time to time, but I never get around to actually harm myself, or anyone else for that matter. I've not been in a physical fight since the 9th grade in school where I had to use force to get out of a beating. That was over 4 years ago now.
But I'm curious though, what is the sensation just before you actually make that first cut?
I myself have dark thoughts from time to time, but I never get around to actually harm myself, or anyone else for that matter. I've not been in a physical fight since the 9th grade in school where I had to use force to get out of a beating. That was over 4 years ago now.
But I'm curious though, what is the sensation just before you actually make that first cut?
I dunno, sounds crazy to me, but I have a few friends that cut, and besides me trying to gently wean them off of it, I don't judge or get up in their face about it. The only good side I can think of cutting is not minding when you bail hard or get in a fight. Enjoying pain would have it's perks.
I -would- if I didn't wuss out every time and wasn't worried about getting an infection or something, although I do occasionally slap or punch myself. The most I've done in terms of "cutting" is just making faint marks on my arm.
Many people don't understand self-harming because they've never been really depressed, or believe that their self-harming friend is just doing it for attention. Ignorance is bliss.
Many people don't understand self-harming because they've never been really depressed, or believe that their self-harming friend is just doing it for attention. Ignorance is bliss.
To those who don't understand cutting, as far as I can tell people do it because it gives physical manifestation to their emotional pain and provides a sense of cathartic relief. Almost like releasing a poison that's inside their body. If someone wants to correct me on this feel free, but that's always been my understanding.
When I cut, it was because I was in a crappy situation for a long time and every bit of power over my own life had been taken away from me.. so, by cutting myself, I had control over something. It also cleared my head and allowed me to think straight and made my outside match my inside.
I don't hide my scars. They're part of me.
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"Everyone looks at you and thinks you're fine. Nothing's fine and no one understands. But, if someone's bleeding, something has to be wrong."
I don't hide my scars. They're part of me.
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This. One of the most powerful quotes I've ever read was something a friend of mine wrote:axlryder said:
"Everyone looks at you and thinks you're fine. Nothing's fine and no one understands. But, if someone's bleeding, something has to be wrong."
During the most desperate and sad time in my life I did consider doing it, but I just couldn't. I'm physically unable to do anything on my arms due to a strange phobia and I just couldn't get it together. Thankfully things got better and I'm glad that it didn't come to that.
But a few people that I care about have dabbled in it more seriously, of course it saddens and worries me, but I just choose to whole-heartedly support them when they are having such a bad time. Being judged by how you cope with whatever is going on in your life is terrible and those who end up cutting and then manage to give it up, have nothing but my respect.
But a few people that I care about have dabbled in it more seriously, of course it saddens and worries me, but I just choose to whole-heartedly support them when they are having such a bad time. Being judged by how you cope with whatever is going on in your life is terrible and those who end up cutting and then manage to give it up, have nothing but my respect.
Not being a troll, but I always thought that slitting wrists to kill oneself is completely inefficient, there are much better ways to do it but still... I have suffered with depression for quite a few years now, and numerous times have considered suicide, but the thing that keeps me from doing it is the fear of oblivion. I am Atheist, and I could not fathom killing myself in reality, I always think "Today was horrible, but if I just keep going, maybe tomorrow will be better." I'm not trying to lecture you, because I know what you are going through. Just think of all the things you haven't experience yet.Aetera said:
I once contemplated it, decided against it because I'm a wuss in all fairness. However...I have seen marks on my little sisters arm, not cut marks but burn marks...And then I found my penknife in her possession and my dad's lighter. I figure she cut herself then cauterised the wounds
ThankyouDr. Pepper Unlimited said:I haven't myself, nor have I known someone close to me that has, but I wouldn't knock someone for doing it. While it's obviously not the solution to any sort of problem, it is something people do deal with, so insulting them or otherwise for it seems rather counter intuitive. Kudos for managing to get past it though. <3Digi7 said:For those who haven't, what do you think when you see someone with scars or cuts? How do you feel about this topic?
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I did take up smoking for a while when I was trying to quit. Funny actually, trying to quit one self-destructive habit by picking up another c; I smoked for about eight or nine months and am in the process of quitting right now. So far so good!Well for me I always felt a kind of apprehension and longing for the release. Often I'd have to make myself cut because self-preservation would kick in.Mayhaps said:
I had a wierd way of cutting. Often I would cut in cadence with the music I was listening to. So when it hit a crescendo or on the beat of the chorus I would make the cut in time. It was a pretty amazing feeling, I'm not going to lie. Fucking terrible, but amazing.