It started out good...buuut (WARNING incoming story)
so first thing in the morining, Im at my desk minding my own buisness when I get an emial (It felt a little condecending) from the woman who sits near me...about somthing embarasing/stupid...aparently she didnt like me blowing my nose loudly at my desk, I had been getting over a cold latley..so yeah I somtimes did...aparently I wasnt really aware that it was rude...mabye I should have known, it wasnt like I was doing THAT often
at first I was just like....what....the...fuck? I actually couldnt belive what I was reading, THEN I'm kind of freaking out...you know that feeling of embarassment? like the worst kind? yeah I wanted to go hide under my desk...or jump out the window,
and then I Tend to get paranoid about thease things who "else" noticed my disgusting habit? were they talking about it behined my back? so like a good little girl I apologise mention my cold and leave it at that when what I REALLY wanted to do was...well anyway I value my job too much, now I know this woman probably ment nothing by it, but yeah then she replies "thanks

" part of the insult being is that....wellas far as the office hireachy goes Im near the bottom more or less
so then I'm thinking YOU SMUG *****!!! reason being that to me that stupid smily face and everythign comes off as terribly incincere and smug (I mean also the impression I get from certain types of people), because its the same reply you use for anything (again lookign back its not like you could reply any other way, it was just how I was reading it at the time, she probably ment nothing by it)
so I run off to the bathroom to have a good cry (mistake mabye I should have stayed at my desk) because Im so embarrased/angry at nothing in particualr..also the irony is that she made the situation worse because my nose is running like niagra falls so I have to keep going to the bathroom to get tissues...and people notice
so one person notices I'm a little upset...the EVERYONE notices..the problem with me is once people start being "nice" it just gets worse and worse untill Im blubbering so much I cant physically speak...well you get the Idea
so I'm in the toilet again trying to pull myself together, then I have to co workers asking me "..is that you? c'mon..come out here, whats wrong?" in a tone of voice you would use for somone threataning to kill themselves...so now Im at the "I cant physically speak" stage oh god...
ANYWAY back to the woman who caused it in the first place....Its terrible because she KNOWS why Im like this, and its not like I should/do care what she thinks but now I come across as some kind of metally unstable retard who cant take the smallest amount of criticizm...and now I knwo she's gonna be talking to her girlfreinds about it....
so anyway later on I'm ok..and then near the end of the day she apologieses..I just mumble thats ok ad get away as fast as I can feeling terrible because I've been refering to her as "smug condecending *****" in my mind all day....*sigh*
yeah I needed to vent that