So I'm seriously considering suicide.

[A Weary Exile]

And if My Little Pony doesn't make you smile a little, you're not human.

My Little Pony has become My Little Suicide Hotline? They need to use Fluttershy for that one

I think it's less that ponies help with depression and more that the fandom tends to attract people who are normally "Outsiders" with our generally accepting and kind reputation. Like people with severe emotional problems or loners.

OT: I can't really think of anything that's not cliche to say. "It'll get better." "There's always a way to get out." etc.

What I do want to say is this: why do your friends/family/ex girlfriend not like you? The problem either lies with you or it lies with them. If you're the problem you need to recognize it and work to better yourself. Everyone makes mistakes and, if you really were at fault for attracting their ire, they *should* forgive you in time. If they're the problem you have absolutely no reason to be sad to have lost them, you move on and find better people.

 

[oZode]

Don't do it. Just because you are in the crapper right now doesn't mean you will be there forever. Things always get worse before they get better.

This is coming from a guy who gets easily angry and possibly has depression using idiocy as a coping mechanism, trust me.

 

[Chairman Miaow]

It can always get better. Until you die. Then it can't get better. Because you are dead.

 

[Weaver]

I'd recommend playing Katawa Shoujo. It might inspire you as it has so many others.

I never felt as bad as the OP but feeling rather down and lonely and playing that game just made me note the fact I was feeling lonely even more since I was just interacting with video games characters...

Huh, I guess it has different effects on people. It helped me make some big changes for the better.

 

[Chromanin]

This is what I did. Though it was not nearly as romantic as all that. I picked up and moved out of state. What did I have to lose? Nothing, just money, and you know what they say, "You can't take it with you."

Try to stay out of your head. A big problem most people have(myself included), is they are too focused on their own pain. We all do it. Everyone wants their special form of grief to be acknowledged. I'm not patronizing you or saying you're grubbing for sympathy by asking for help; I'm saying try to focus on how you're going to fix your problems instead of how much pain you're in. It's easy to deal with the world when it's on your side. How you survive when things go to shit is what makes you who you are.

 

[Hero in a half shell]

I'm 17 years old. And I understand that these problems may seem insignificant to you but to me they control my life. The things that I care about have abandoned me and it seems like I can not rely on anything.

You need to talk to someone. Somebody physical who you trust, do not make any attempts at suicide after only asking strangers over the internet. Talk to someone.

Life will not turn out the way you plan it. To Quote Alex Trevelyn "Half of everything is luck James" But remember that you live in a first world country with a welfare state, and have a devoted family (even if they don't seem like it) and an education, you have a rich enough background to afford a computer and internet (putting you in the top 99% richest people alive on the planet) and I'm guessing you aren't disabled or mentally impaired. If you knuckle down and work hard then there is very little that can stand in the way of you succeeding in life! You have a strong, safe framework behind your life propping you up from failure, and the only way you can be brought down from it is if you jump. Your life will not fall into pieces, and you shouldn't murder yourself on the blind chance that it might.

Yes, all you may be able to see at the moment is your problems. The issues that are stressing and pressuring you, but think forward in time. What will those problems mean to you in a months time? a year? a decade? Your life has so much potential and it will get better. Our problems have a way of working themselves out. You will find more great friends, you will meet plenty of potential girlfriends, you will get better jobs, and a proper career, more freedom, more independence, you will grow smarter, wiser, less affected by stress, and your social circle will become much closer, nicer and more genuine. Your life will be so much better in a few years time, and it will keep getting better if you work at it. Don't do something stupid that will permanently mess all that up.

Some final words of advice, if you do decide to go ahead with suicide. Choose to die through starvation. Because death is permanent, you can't undo that choice, so you will have enough time to make sure it is truly what you want, and you will be able to see just how it will affect the ones who love you.
Oh, and again, most importantly I say talk about it to someone you know!

 

[UnderGlass]

If I might flip your comment around I would suggest that by posting this plea for advice that you're also considering living. Hold on to that. Hold tight to the memories, experiences and people that matter, even if they are not necessarily bringing you happiness right now. There are things in your life that you still want to stick around for.

As others have said, first things first: you need to do something about that depression. Things won't get any easier carrying that anchor around your neck. Believe me, as a long-time sufferer of depression, it feeds on misfortune and amplifies your disconnection with life. Depression is not a sign of weakness but it is a handicap, if you can see the difference. It needs to be treated like an external force the same as any disease and you do neither yourself nor your loved ones any favors by alowing it to control your viewpoint.

After you have addressed that essential problem, then the old cliche that life is always changing and things simply don't stay bad forever actually starts to make sense. Trust me

 

[Blobpie]

But if you die, the world loses you.
We lose:
A person that is like no other,
No one will be like you,
We will lose all you are and all of your potential (which is a great deal)
We will lose your experiences, as well as the experiences you will have
If you die now, you will never know what tomorrow brings.
It may be hard now but you need to hold on, just a little longer.

Remember life is a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get.

 

[Dtox333]

As some others have suggested, and this is seriously not to advertise it, try My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic.

I can't tell you how many people have testified how it has alleviated their depression, my own included, others have even stated how it pulled them away from suicide.

It's happy, colorful, and entertaining, and bronies are very supportive and comforting of their own members.

I'm serious about this, it wrecks me to hear people say they have thoughts of suicide, and the show is possibly the most accessible of stress relievers.

Just do what you need to do, see a doctor, a therapist, take anti depressants, anything.

 

[aegix drakan_v1legacy]

I'm 17 years old. And I understand that these problems may seem insignificant to you but to me they control my life. The things that I care about have abandoned me and it seems like I can not rely on anything.

Well, there's one thing you CAN rely on at all times.

Yourself.

It might not feel like it, and at time you may feel worthless (Hell, I think that about myself all the time), but no matter what happens, you will always have yourself.

As long as you can keep picking yourself up, things WILL get better. Yes, life is shitting on you at the moment. But this is one small segment of your life, there's over 70-80 years for things to get way better. If you can overcome this hurdle, then it will make you that much stronger.

I'll close with this: When I look at your posts, I DO NOT see a whiny emo kid. I see a kid who has been hurt quite badly, but even so remains intelligent and aware of himself. I don't see someone who wants to die. I see someone who can overcome this shit. If you feel your world is screwing you, turn around and screw your world.

 

[quiet_samurai]

So I know that this isn't a place where I should/can vent my feelings, but everyone on here has always helped me out before so I'm really hoping someone can now. Simply put for the past few months everything has been going terribly in my life. Girlfriend broke up with me, friends turned into enemies, parents ignoring me and favoring my brother, all the while my depression (which I though had gone away) has been growing and growing. My life, up to this point, has been relatively easy to deal with. But everything happening at once really makes it hard to cope. I'm sure that someone on here has been in a worse situation then this, so I'm asking this from anyone. How do you deal with this?

Man up, realize that life gets hard, sometimes almost seeming hopeless. Just because it isn't all sparkly and perfect now doesn't mean it won't get better later. Considering checking out early basically because of some social issues is pretty lame. People are assholes sometimes, especially those closest to you, deal with it. I might sound harsh, but that is the reality of it.

Christ, I recently lost my job due to some coorperate bullshit, my savings will be tapped in a couple of months, I'm two months behind on car payments, barely make rent.... and on top of that went on house arrest for thirty days and am still facng future legal problems and possibly a short jail sentance for some bullshit thing that happend almost a year ago.

But am I wallowing in misery? Fuck no. It's life, and all my problems like yours are fixable. Just ask yourself... in one or two years time will any of this matter? No... not if you do something about it. Letting it fester won't make it better, and it certainly won't get better if you kill yourself.

 

[peruvianskys]

So I know that this isn't a place where I should/can vent my feelings, but everyone on here has always helped me out before so I'm really hoping someone can now. Simply put for the past few months everything has been going terribly in my life. Girlfriend broke up with me, friends turned into enemies, parents ignoring me and favoring my brother, all the while my depression (which I though had gone away) has been growing and growing. My life, up to this point, has been relatively easy to deal with. But everything happening at once really makes it hard to cope. I'm sure that someone on here has been in a worse situation then this, so I'm asking this from anyone. How do you deal with this?

As someone who has attempted suicide more than once, I can really recommend against it. Track down a counselor or a trusted confidant, discussing it with a doctor, attempt to get on some anti-depressants for a while until things stabilize. Overall just be honest about your feelings and confront them; this is a great first step towards doing that. Even intense emotions lose their power over you when you acknowledge them openly and take steps to change them!

 

[Mazza35]

Okay, here is one of things said to me by a very inspiration person in my life. (This was a school lecture, high school )
'Sometimes, life is shit. Absolutely butt-fuckingly horrible. But, that's life. Life is shit, and life is good. Without being sad we couldn't happy, and vice versa. Because, soon or later, life will be good, and by good I mena HOLY SHIT TITTIES IT FEELS LIKE RAINBOWS HITTING ME IN THE CROTCH good.
So, we have to push through all the shit in this world, to get the rainbows.'

This is one of the main things that got me through life. Also Rise Against. Epic band of rainbow winning IMO.

Also a quote from M.L.K:
'You must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope.'

 

[HardkorSB]

Simply put for the past few months everything has been going terribly in my life. Girlfriend broke up with me, friends turned into enemies, parents ignoring me and favoring my brother, all the while my depression (which I though had gone away) has been growing and growing.

Not EVERYTHING.
You're still healthy, you have a home to live in, clothes to put on, food to eat, your parents are still together. Damn, you've probably never had to work a day in your life.

My life, up to this point, has been relatively easy to deal with. But everything happening at once really makes it hard to cope.

So when problems appear, you want to end your life? A life without sorrow is an incomplete life.
If I was going to kill myself when my life got troublesome, I would die at the age of 4, when I got beat up until I was bleeding for the first time. Or at the age of 10, when my grandfather died. Or somewhere between the age 11-14, when half the kids in my school were picking on me and beating me up kind of like that Asian kid from the clip on youtube, and when the teachers were doing the same thing, only on an emotional level. Or at the age of 18, when the girl I wanted to spend my life with went to live abroad and I never saw her again. And so on.
But I didn't, and with each day, I became stronger. Failure means nothing to me. I'm like a sayian - after each defeat, I come back more powerful. I know more than the people around me, I can do more than the people around me, I can take more than the people around me.
You won't learn anything if there's only success in your life.

Success gives you confidence.
Failure gives you knowledge and skills.
Too much confidence makes you blind.
There is no such thing as too much knowledge and skills.

Did that help?

 

[smithy_2045]

Do not ask an internet forum for help, see a qualified professional. They are specifically trained to help you deal with this shit, and I know from personal experience that it makes a world of difference.

 

[buddee1]

Simply put for the past few months everything has been going terribly in my life. Girlfriend broke up with me, friends turned into enemies, parents ignoring me and favoring my brother, all the while my depression (which I though had gone away) has been growing and growing.

Not EVERYTHING.
You're still healthy, you have a home to live in, clothes to put on, food to eat, your parents are still together. Damn, you've probably never had to work a day in your life.

My life, up to this point, has been relatively easy to deal with. But everything happening at once really makes it hard to cope.

So when problems appear, you want to end your life? A life without sorrow is an incomplete life.
If I was going to kill myself when my life got troublesome, I would die at the age of 4, when I got beat up until I was bleeding for the first time. Or at the age of 10, when my grandfather died. Or somewhere between the age 11-14, when half the kids in my school were picking on me and beating me up kind of like that Asian kid from the clip on youtube, and when the teachers were doing the same thing, only on an emotional level. Or at the age of 18, when the girl I wanted to spend my life with went to live abroad and I never saw her again. And so on.
But I didn't, and with each day, I became stronger. Failure means nothing to me. I'm like a sayian - after each defeat, I come back more powerful. I know more than the people around me, I can do more than the people around me, I can take more than the people around me.
You won't learn anything if there's only success in your life.

Success gives you confidence.
Failure gives you knowledge and skills.
Too much confidence makes you blind.
There is no such thing as too much knowledge and skills.

Did that help?

Not exactly. Its almost rude how you generalize me. My parents have been divorced since I was 7 ( for which my brother blames me and reminds me of that every chance he gets), Even though my parents have joint custody I rarely see either of them, when I do see them they usually comment on how I spend too much time in my room or how my brother does things better then I do.
The things that are effecting me, to me at least, are not small things. People who I depend on and have an emotional connection with abandoned me. People who are literally suppose to help me through anything shrug me aside.
That's great that you can stay strong after being put down, but here's the thing. I can't. I'm not strong. I'm some creepy kid without too many friends. When I let people into my mind and show them who I really am, I usually don't expect them to use personal information against me.

 

[Reggie Rock]

I'm not going to advocate suicide man. But if you truly think you should commit suicide, then by all means that is YOUR decision. You might be hurting your family/friends or you might not, but in the end this is a decision that you have to make.

I don't know you and i don't know what exactly makes you want to, but if you decide you don'twant to live anymore then no one has the right to stop you from deciding what you do with your life.

 

[KeyMaster45]

I'm bad with words of wisdom, but I think this adequately says what I'd like to get across.


In case it wasn't obvious, always look on the bright side of life.

 

[lacktheknack]

That's great that you can stay strong after being put down, but here's the thing. I can't. I'm not strong. I'm some creepy kid without too many friends. When I let people into my mind and show them who I really am, I usually don't expect them to use personal information against me.

And that's just the thing... You're not strong now.

But emotional strength is like physical strength, almost identical, in fact. To become physically stronger, you have to literally break your muscles and let them heal, and they'll be stronger and more toned than they were before. The same goes for emotional strength.

For instance, when I began my gym membership for a year, I could ab-curl ~120 pounds. By the end of the year, I could do 220 pounds. It was quite uncomfortable and exhausting, but I regret nothing and have a stronger core.

Similarly, I was homeschooled with few friends and no enemies for the first six grades. When I was dropped into Jr. High in grade seven, I was emotionally fragile as you could imagine. Suicidal tendencies and fury followed. However, by grade nine, the worst insults did very little to me. It was a painful two years, but I'm glad they happened.

Admittedly, this sounds like dropping someone who's never been to a gym on the leg press and saying "Do thirty reps with 300 pounds", which is a pretty cruel thing to do, but it's possible to do. And if they manage, they'll be stronger at the other end.

Also, call the suicide hotline and see a therapist. It's not like you have anything to lose.