Man, this makes me wish I was a more frequent poster on the boards here. I always see thread titles and smile a little, joyous smile.
Like OP, I have really severe clinical depression, and I've begun to toe-dip into CBT only recently. One thing I find helpful is reminding myself that I got into New York University, one of the most selective colleges in the country, and I'm about to graduate (despite losing a lot of time to this disease.) I've survived and stayed more-or-less functioning with both of my parents dead since I was nineteen and no blood relatives left alive. I've overcome a lot of primal, elemental fears in the last five years as well (the dark and heights among them.)
It's not much, and maybe, on balance, it's not more significant than the ways that I've failed, but it's something.
S/O to1Life0Continues, since I don't really post here but you gave me a reason to feel good about myself and humanity at large today. So thanks for that.