Tell me what do to.

[Edwardsjack]

Its sad that it has come to this. For those who don't know me, I'm a fat, unattractive, Canadian nerd currently living in Texas. I'm in grade 11, with the second half of school begging soon. I'm a B student with only Computer Science being an A. I have a non-profit "job" in which I review books for my school. I play D&D (alone), play wow, swat 4 and oblivion, read books, and watch anime. I'm in good shape, play soccer and bike every day, but still overweight due to health problems. I only have one friend and only see him a few times a mouth. At school, since I started, I have been bullied and pick on. My stuff has been stolen and destroyed. I have even been beat up multiple times. Every day seems the same. Go to school, get picked on, hide in the libery to read my book in peace, get beat up, go home and do homework alone, have my parents yell at me for not have all A like my sister and cry myself asleep as my parents fight, yell and argue over my destructive, special-needs brother and what new thing he broke today.

As I look to the new year, I see no light at the end of my tunnel. This year I need to picck a college to try to apply to and want I want with the the rest of my life. I have no plan and see no future.

I sorry for troubling you on this happy night, but please, please tell me what do to. My friend doesn't want to talk about it, my parents have enough problems and the last time I ever told the about anything of the like, they only cause it to worsen. Doctors and consoler don't help, only give empty speeches of a brighter future and a bucket of pills. I have no where else to turn. I don't see any light, only repeats of my past years. Tell me what do to, because I have no more will to travel along my path, one way or the other.

 

[HT_Black]

Did you ever read WANTED? If you didn't, that might help. It definitely made me feel a sense of purpose.

 

[Jazzyjazz2323]

Honestly dude Highschool is a cesspit of fucktards twats and morons and once you apply to a college shit should turn around you come into you're own and meet a wider breadth of people from all walks of life trust me it'll get better.As for colleges since you're in Texas I'd suggest texas state a lot of good people and plenty diverse.

 

[Just_A_Glitch]

Just try to get involved in things.

Can you sing? Get involved in the school choir. Same goes for band/orchestra.

Try out for the soccer team. Go to whatever local area is popular and try to find a biking buddy.

Join a book club or anime club. Find others who like D&D. I hear its popular.

Inform your parents that you're not your sister and its unfair to you for them to treat you like her. You say they have enough problems, but as parents, it is supposed to be their job to help you see your shit through. If you are having problems, like real issues that can lead to destructive behavior as your post let off, let them know and tell them that whatever they've tried in the past isn't working.

And if all else fails, reinvent yourself once you go off to university. Pick an out of state school and just be who you want to be where you have a clean slate. Trust me, a lot of good universities accept B averages.

No one is beyond hope, so don't ever think you are.

EDIT:

Have a God damn ego. It makes all the difference.

And (kind of) this. Stop feeling so down on yourself. Confidence actually does make a world of difference.

 

[Fanta Grape]

Have a God damn ego. It makes all the difference.

 

[Jazzyjazz2323]

Have a God damn ego. It makes all the difference.

This so many times think you're awesome and it will work trust me...My ego is HUGE!

 

[RandallJohn]

What are you interested in? It definitely gets better in college.

 

[vic_elor]

The last course I took before graduating from college was taught by a professor who gave us the following idea:

"For nearly everyone who has experienced it, it will take approximately four years to recover from each year of public education."

I won't promise that college will be better but from the sound of it can't get much worse. Plus college tends to be more isolating but in a good way. Sure you'll be exposed to lots of new people but you'll be exposed to a much larger precentage of people like yourself. Sure they'll still be some idiots but most of them will not be going on to college as it would be a waste. Boom, right off the bat we've cut out some of the annoying dumbasses which leaves more room for better people.

Second, majors kick ass! Sure their are a wide array of people in entry level courses but by the even the second class in a series most of those who don't like the topic will be gone (having gotten the gen-ed requirment out of the way). Suddenly you'll be spending 10 hours a week in classes with people who share at least one interest as you.

And guess what.... they will most likely share more then one interest with you. I majored in computer science and the jokes the regular people (I like to call them normies) make about all of us being the same are a little scary. Yeah we were all different but even I was amazed to find 50 or 60 % of the interests that I hold were shared by my fellow classmates.

Here is another good point... actually it was a little implied in an earlier section. Remember how I said 10 hours a week with people who share at least one interest with you. Do you know how long people actually spend in class in college? I was considered a full time student with credit loads of 12 -> 18 hours a week of class time. Compare that to about 35 for high school. That boils down to about three hours a day during the week. No need to hide in the library cause you can fucking leave when you're done.

Unless you end up living at home (largely depends on what school you end up at) you're dealings with your family will likely be better as well. It changes once you enter college. Suddenly things can be dealt with on your terms. You won't be spending all day watching them compare you to your sisters shadow or putting you off because of your brothers needs.

 

[Edwardsjack]

Thank you

 

[cicaba]

Have a God damn ego. It makes all the difference.

I know having too much ego is bad and a standard flaw of men, but I agree with this guy. This might sound like a strange comment, but it's kinda like you're not enough of a dick. Like others have said, people are wrong to say you should achieve like your sister and wrong to bully you.

Best of luck with the rest of your life sir. Sorry of this sounds harsh:/

 

[Loud Noise]

High school was tough for me too. I escaped the last year/year and a half though through PSEO. if you want to get a jumpstart on college early, save some money, and have way more fun with an age group you probably belong to a bit better, see if Texas has a PSEO program. I had a blast doing it and met some great people and wasn't stuck in a hell-hole my senior year. Best of luck!

 

[Jazzyjazz2323]

Also I notice your avatar is a space marine,are you into 40k?Because depending on where you are in Texas there is a HUGE 40k scene especially in the Austin/Houston areas.

 

[RandallJohn]

...I'm in good shape, play soccer...

What position do you play? Whatever school you pick, make sure they've got a team.

 

[King Crab]

this is it. it doesn't get any better, or any worse.
I'm not some troll or any shit, just got my eyes open a little wider.
the world is a shitty place and it ain't, the only thing you can change is yourself.
I ain't gonna dole out any platitudes or half baked advice. heh. they told
me it was gonna get better in college. it didn't. jerks stay jerks. you want to change?
you want to look at life through new eyes? dedicate yourself to something, body and
soul. find a passion and blind yourself to everything but it, burn away all the bits
of you you don't need, and forget about everyone and anything else - you only see the
world through your own eyes. forget about being embarrased or shy, angry or complacent,
anything. just banish all thoughts, positive or negative, empty yourself entirely.
it works for me.

 

[Loud Noise]

this is it. it doesn't get any better, or any worse.
I'm not some troll or any shit, just got my eyes open a little wider.
the world is a shitty place and it ain't, the only thing you can change is yourself.
I ain't gonna dole out any platitudes or half baked advice. heh. they told
me it was gonna get better in college. it didn't. jerks stay jerks. you want to change?
you want to look at life through new eyes? dedicate yourself to something, body and
soul. find a passion and blind yourself to everything but it, burn away all the bits
of you you don't need, and forget about everyone and anything else - you only see the
world through your own eyes. forget about being embarrased or shy, angry or complacent,
anything. just banish all thoughts, positive or negative, empty yourself entirely.
it works for me.

Sounds kind of sad and lonely though

 

[likalaruku]

1)Use the internet to locate local friends. I used Meetup.com to try various hobby/interest-based clubs. No one gives a damn what you look like there.

2)As soon as your old enough, move out, prefurably to a dorm or apartment with a rent-helping roommate.

3)Go to a garage sale & pick up a cheap treadmill, stairmaster, or exercise bike & put it in front of the TV in your room. Best way to work out.

4)I suppose bullies pick on people who react a certain way to being bullied. You need to figure out how to make them think picking on you is a boring waste of time. Perhaps go into a zen-like trance & not react or respond in any way. I never got picked on in school because when I was in elementry school I garnered a reputation for biting & scratching people & tattling to the principal at the drop of a hat. If you're of the spineless disposition, nag your parents to enroll you into a self-defence class. Speaking of tattling, if you have a school councelor or therapist, they're the best ones to tattle to; the jerks end up spending half their lunch breaks in therapy sessions, or at least getting their parents called in for a PTA meeting.

5)Make a list of the people you hate & find out where they live. After you graduate & get a good job, track down those people & find out what they do for a living. Send letters to the once with shitty jobs or no jobs at all, remind them who you are, & rub your success in their faces.

 

[Edwardsjack]

Did you ever read WANTED? If you didn't, that might help. It definitely made me feel a sense of purpose.

No, I haven't, but I will try to look it up.

Just try to get involved in things.

Can you sing? Get involved in the school choir. Same goes for band/orchestra.

Try out for the soccer team. Go to whatever local area is popular and try to find a biking buddy.

Join a book club or anime club. Find others who like D&D. I hear its popular.

Inform your parents that you're not your sister and its unfair to you for them to treat you like her. You say they have enough problems, but as parents, it is supposed to be their job to help you see your shit through. If you are having problems, like real issues that can lead to destructive behavior as your post let off, let them know and tell them that whatever they've tried in the past isn't working.

And if all else fails, reinvent yourself once you go off to university. Pick an out of state school and just be who you want to be where you have a clean slate. Trust me, a lot of good universities accept B averages.

No one is beyond hope, so don't ever think you are.

EDIT:

Have a God damn ego. It makes all the difference.

And (kind of) this. Stop feeling so down on yourself. Confidence actually does make a world of difference.

Sorry, I can't really sing. Nothing musical.

I have a soccer team, but they only play for a few weeks in the fall and spring when its not too hot outside.

I have tried in the past to look for those, but I couldn't find any.

I'm not going to do any thing "destructive", I just don't know what do to anymore to solve me problems, and in the past I did tell them everything, but all the really did was send my to my consoler and let her do it.

And I don't really understand what you mean byreinvent yourself. I like myself and I like what what I like (if that makes any sense).I don't want to change who I am.

Have a God damn ego. It makes all the difference.

I don't know how to have an "ego" I guess. Thats one of the reasons I posted this message in the first place.

What are you interested in? It definitely gets better in college.

I guess really any thing nerdy: World of Warcraft, Star Trek, soccer, video games, anime, manga, D&D, etc... Anything really with fantasy and Science Fiction.

Also I notice your avatar is a space marine,are you into 40k?Because depending on where you are in Texas there is a HUGE 40k scene especially in the Austin/Houston areas.

I was I fan, but my army (tryanids) had an update and the game is too expensive for my non existent pay check.

...I'm in good shape, play soccer...

What position do you play? Whatever school you pick, make sure they've got a team.

I play defender and "back up" offence. I don't play in any real team, because they are mostly filled with my tormentors that didn't want to go the football path.

 

[BonsaiK]

please tell me what do to..

1. Listen to this song, pay attention to the words. Hank says it better than I can.


2. Get some friends who are into the same shit you are. Trust me, there's so many people into DnD, Anime and Oblivion it's ridiculous. If you can't find some physically, look on the internet. This forum may help, I notice a few people have already put their hands up...

3. Remember you only have to put up with another year or two of school - college is different, because nobody is forced to be there, and the social environment kicks ass. As soon as you get to college investigate the social aspects. Most colleges have a "club" for just about every damn thing, including roleplaying, computer games, and all the other shit you're into.

4. Move out of home ASAP. Everything about your life will improve markedly when you move out of home (except finances).

5. Don't take any medication or anti-depressants. You depression is situational, not chemical. (Also don't be tempted to self-medicate with alcohol, drugs etc)

6. Consider martial arts if you're getting beaten up. More for the confidence it gives you than the actual fighting. But don't ever tell anyone at school that you're doing it though or they'll just want to fight you more. Just keep it as your little secret and then next time someone tries to hand you your ass, remember what your instructor told you.

7. I was picked on in school and my high school sucked an incredible, frightening amount of balls, my teenage years were definitely the worst of my life. Now I'm an adult things are way different. I'd describe my life in detail but it will sound like bragging and people reading this probably wouldn't believe half of it anyway, but in a nutshell I now have pretty much everything I want in life. Shit changes drastically as you grow up, you've already come most of the way, just a little more time and things will slowly start to change.