My name is Ben, I'm 23 and I live in the United State of Maine (the very north-east).
As long as I can remember, I've wanted to be a professional artist. I loved to draw, and I went to college majoring in Studio Art. I grew sick of it and dropped out (twice, actually). I don't even like to draw for fun in my free time anymore, I'm not sure why. I've pretty much given up on my dream, and now I'm just kind of drifting aimlessly through shitty jobs in retail.
I still live with my mother and her boyfriend. I feel kind of trapped because I don't make enough money to have my own place, and I also feel like I need to stay to take care of my mom. She and her boyfriend are rather old and both are alcoholics (although they are sober now and have been for a good while). Neither she nor her boyfriend have jobs, so I need to help them out financially quite often. She has also told me repeatedly how emotionally stabilizing my presence is to her.
I have a sister who is a year older than I am. She just recently graduated with a degree in Veterinary Technology.
I have never had a girlfriend - I blame this on my unrealistically high standards. I fell in love with a girl in my high school class, and I still am somewhat in love with her I think, although she does not reciprocate the feelings.
Despite all of the rather depressing things I have described, I am pretty happy most of the time.
Thanks for allowing me to have an impromptu therapy session, and sorry for weirding anybody out.
EDIT: Gosh, looking back at what I wrote, I totally should not have written most of that. I'm really sorry guys.
As long as I can remember, I've wanted to be a professional artist. I loved to draw, and I went to college majoring in Studio Art. I grew sick of it and dropped out (twice, actually). I don't even like to draw for fun in my free time anymore, I'm not sure why. I've pretty much given up on my dream, and now I'm just kind of drifting aimlessly through shitty jobs in retail.
I still live with my mother and her boyfriend. I feel kind of trapped because I don't make enough money to have my own place, and I also feel like I need to stay to take care of my mom. She and her boyfriend are rather old and both are alcoholics (although they are sober now and have been for a good while). Neither she nor her boyfriend have jobs, so I need to help them out financially quite often. She has also told me repeatedly how emotionally stabilizing my presence is to her.
I have a sister who is a year older than I am. She just recently graduated with a degree in Veterinary Technology.
I have never had a girlfriend - I blame this on my unrealistically high standards. I fell in love with a girl in my high school class, and I still am somewhat in love with her I think, although she does not reciprocate the feelings.
Despite all of the rather depressing things I have described, I am pretty happy most of the time.
Thanks for allowing me to have an impromptu therapy session, and sorry for weirding anybody out.
EDIT: Gosh, looking back at what I wrote, I totally should not have written most of that. I'm really sorry guys.