Subject Vaude, for 8 years I had to deal with a painful disease on my hands and feet that sometimes made it impossible to walk and grab things because it hurt so much. For years I had to deal with the torments of everyone around me because my mind didn't work the same way their minds did. For the longest time I had to learn to bottle my emotions because if I got too emotional I would snap, and then I would be in trouble because I hurt someone. I had to act like an emotionless automaton for most of my school life because I was afraid I would hurt someone, that's how short my fuse had gotten, all it took was one insult and BAM! I would hurt someone. I got made fun of for almost every aspect of my personality, leading to psychological and social problems to the point that I'm literally paranoid around everyone, even family members. And that's not even getting into being my family's scapegoat, even though I'm the "good" one.
