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Don't be depressed think of it this way... Anime is a happy thing you can watch and get lost in 
suppose life kicks you down you know what I do is kick it in the fucking ass.
suppose life kicks you down you know what I do is kick it in the fucking ass.
Depressing stories? Sure, I've got a few. But fuck it, I'm not gonna tell them. I don't let shit get me down! Always look on the bright side guys!
Some people call me a dick, but I just shrug most things off and make a bunch of jokes. I got a close circle of bros that will help me through anything, and I tell people if I have a problem with them. Sure, I've got into a few fist-fights because of my general attitude and behaviour, but whatever.
There's nothing a heavy dose of partying, gaming and friends can't solve. (Alcohol is nice, too)
Some people call me a dick, but I just shrug most things off and make a bunch of jokes. I got a close circle of bros that will help me through anything, and I tell people if I have a problem with them. Sure, I've got into a few fist-fights because of my general attitude and behaviour, but whatever.
There's nothing a heavy dose of partying, gaming and friends can't solve. (Alcohol is nice, too)
Bit of background: I suffer from what is called Aspergers syndrome, which is a form of autism that has many effects including being unable to pick up on social cues. I also suffer from Tourettes, OCD, and I may have paranoid schizophrenic tendencies, though that last one was never officially diagnosed.
Because of this, when I was in elementary school the other kids all abused me. I was beaten up on a regular basis and and one point one kid grabbed my head and smashed it down on the slide so hard it knocked my front teeth out (baby teeth, thankfully, so they were replaced, but it still hurt like hell) it got to the point where I made a number of attempts at suicide.
My parents didn't help and made the problem worse in some respects by grounding me for the slightest mistake. To be fair, they didn't know what was wrong with me for the longest time. Still, they would forbid me from doing things most kids my age did, such as watching cartoons and playing sports.
In middle school I was abused by my classmates as well, and then the molestation started. It lasted most of a school year and when I tried to tell my parents they told me to "Stop Telling Lies" They never believed me, and they still don't, now they say I have a "false memory" or something.
In my freshman year of high school I was put in a mental hospital after I started believing there was a governmental conspiracy manipulating my life. While I was in there I developed a crush on another patient. I finally got up enough courage to tell her I loved her, but she just laughed at me. Thought it was "funny". After that, I swore off romance forever.
Things finally got better after that. Rather than being beat up, I was just ignored. My medicine normalized my thought processes enough for me to function in society at the cost of my being able to feel much in the way of joy or happiness. I got into a college, where I will get my associates degree in may and then move to UNM to work towards my bachelor's.
However, while I may be doing better the only reason I have not yet killed myself is because I don't want to hurt my parents. I still love them despite not doing anything to stop the bullying or molestation. Ultimately however, it is not their decision and I am keeping my options open as to my death.
Because of this, when I was in elementary school the other kids all abused me. I was beaten up on a regular basis and and one point one kid grabbed my head and smashed it down on the slide so hard it knocked my front teeth out (baby teeth, thankfully, so they were replaced, but it still hurt like hell) it got to the point where I made a number of attempts at suicide.
My parents didn't help and made the problem worse in some respects by grounding me for the slightest mistake. To be fair, they didn't know what was wrong with me for the longest time. Still, they would forbid me from doing things most kids my age did, such as watching cartoons and playing sports.
In middle school I was abused by my classmates as well, and then the molestation started. It lasted most of a school year and when I tried to tell my parents they told me to "Stop Telling Lies" They never believed me, and they still don't, now they say I have a "false memory" or something.
In my freshman year of high school I was put in a mental hospital after I started believing there was a governmental conspiracy manipulating my life. While I was in there I developed a crush on another patient. I finally got up enough courage to tell her I loved her, but she just laughed at me. Thought it was "funny". After that, I swore off romance forever.
Things finally got better after that. Rather than being beat up, I was just ignored. My medicine normalized my thought processes enough for me to function in society at the cost of my being able to feel much in the way of joy or happiness. I got into a college, where I will get my associates degree in may and then move to UNM to work towards my bachelor's.
However, while I may be doing better the only reason I have not yet killed myself is because I don't want to hurt my parents. I still love them despite not doing anything to stop the bullying or molestation. Ultimately however, it is not their decision and I am keeping my options open as to my death.
Sunday, gloomy sunday.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TiOyvxgcob4&feature=related
Please, don't kill yourself.
Other then that, I've been through shitty times. Things changed. They always do, just don't give up. Ever.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TiOyvxgcob4&feature=related
Please, don't kill yourself.
Other then that, I've been through shitty times. Things changed. They always do, just don't give up. Ever.